Memoirs of An Ummi

Thought Of The Day..

2012-01-09T11:29:00.001+08:00

"Rumors are carried by haters, spread by fools, & accepted by morons.." =]

The Last Day of 2011...

2011-12-31T15:29:00.001+08:00

Orang lain pegi holiday, catch the Countdown of 2012 & see the fireworks. We don't have the time for all that.. Busy with packing & moving back into our crib..

[Oh! And to YOU! Let me clarify this to that "hati busok" of yours.. It's us moving back into our OLD CRIB in Taman Jurong & NOT us getting ourselves A NEW CRIB, like the stinking rumors that you had been creating to the whole world.. GET YOUR BLOODY BRAINLESS FACTS RIGHT BEFORE USING THAT FARKING MOUTH OF YOURS TO SPREAD RUMORS ABOUT ME OR MY FAMILY.. Sendiri tak betol, nak dok sedap mengate pasal aku.. Prangai jenis tak pernah diajar & ditegor! JENIS MAKCIK2 AHLI TINGKAP & KAKAK2 KEPO YANG TAK DE KEJE NAK SEBOK JAGE TEPI KAIN ORANG! Mane kau nak letak muke kau? Da mengate blakang orang, buat crite plak tu.. Tak malu.. Kalau aku jadi kau, aku sorot muke aku jaoh2..]

I had a wonderful dream.. Guess Allah knows that I've got no time to see the fireworks, so He brought the fireworks over to me in my dream. It was a nice one. =]

Always remember that wherever you go, how hard life can be.. Allah is always there for you.. Always taking care of you.. Watching over you.. <3

2012.. A new beginning for what is yet to come.. A little new us inside of me.. We see u soon our Lil Tumtum.. Just a few more months to go.. =]

Last day of 2011.. Till the arrival of 2012.. Thank you Allah, for giving me a chance to breathe & be with my loved ones yet again without fail.

Alhamdulillah, syukur.. =]

Do As Much As You Want With What Is Left..

2011-12-09T02:11:00.002+08:00

You know there's always that particular sickening human who's always there to compete with you?

The ones who only God knows why the hell they have that so much enviness towards you for having a happy life?

As in, bile orang nak tunang, dorang pon sebok2 nak tunang.. Bile orang nak nikah, dorang pon sebok2 nak nikah.. Bile orang lain beli rumah besar, dorang pon sebok2 nak beli rumah besar.. Bile orang lain got a good job with a good pay, dorang pon sebok2 nak capai ke matlamat itu..

Pendek kate, ape yang orang lain ade, dorang pon sebok2 nak jugak ade.. Tapi tahap jenis yang tak nak kalah.. Jenis "lebih up" dari orang lain.. (Asal tak ikot skali gi beli sluar/baju dlm colour/brand ape yg org lain pakai eh?)

And if possible, these type of people wish to see you fall without even getting a chance to climb back up again..

I'm telling you, they will be the most happiest sickening jackasses in the whole entire universe when they find out that you fail miserably in life..

That other feeling they have in them is, Hatred..

I know some of us, we just gotta deal & face with these type of sickening people in our lives.. And the saddest thing would be, is that some of these people, are part of your family members; Parents, cousins, relatives or even in-laws..

Have you ever wonder? Why are they even like that in the first place? I mean, what they get by doing all this? Pure "satisfaction" for seeing other people's life being brought to a downfall?

And you know, these type of people, they can put on a "muke tak bersalah" mask on their faces & then start a conversation to the person WHO they really WISH for that downfall to happen.. Like wtf? Cut me some slack here & go shovel that hypocritical face else where! Sheesh.. We're not born a retard thinking you can fake that bloody face to us..

I.. just.. can't.. show myself & PRETEND.. that I'm happily OK.. talking to these type of people with a smile on my face.. Whoa.. I can't..

After all the shit they did & every single freaking ass things they've been telling to people about my family with all the "Indian spices" that they added into their stories..

Yet again, I still asked myself this, "WHAT THE BLOODY HELL THEY GET BY DOING WHAT THEY DID?" NAK TNGK SAUDARE SESAME SENDIRI JATO..? NAK MATIKAN SAUDARE SESAME SENDIRI..? Whereby THEY know that they've been in THAT kinda position before, having others putting hatred & enviness towards them & wanting to see them fall..

Sigh.. I don't know.. Too blinded to even recall those moments, I guess? Maybe too proud with what they have right now..

Nak matikan orang sampai bile? Soon, all these taking advantage of others, back-biting, bitch-mouthing & hoping to watch other people's downfall will end.. And yes, I'm referring to a bunch of YOU..

It's all gonna be over soon.. So take advantage, back-bite & bitch-mouth as MUCH as you want with what's left.. Coz I know, that's what YOU people are doing right now..

I'm cool.. But just remember, what goes around, will always comes around.. =]

Little Tumtum @ 12 weeks...

2011-11-29T14:15:00.002+08:00

OK, this is the latest ultrascan picture taken just recently..

A fully developed baby.. =]

A little baby boy, alhamdulillah..

Little Tumtum @ 9 weeks...

2011-11-29T13:56:00.002+08:00

Couldn't see much here in this ultrascan picture coz Little Tumtum's not fully developed yet..

His heart is clearly visible though..

By using the ultrasound device, we could definitely hear the sound of his heart, beating like a thunder of galloping horses... =]

There's Always Something For You, Even When You Least Expect It...

2011-11-28T12:37:00.007+08:00

Life is full of ups & downs..

You'll meet & get to know different kinds of people.. Making new friends & enemies along the way.. But only those who really know you will accept you as who you are & will always stay true to that friendship, no matter what happens..

And I do believe that there's always something behind everything.. Why certain things happened that way.. Just gotta swallow whatever that's left behind & move on with life..

To those of you & you know who you are.. Don't tryna pretend & act like you think I (or should I say, we) didn't see it coming.. Those bad things you said about us to everyone you know.. My dear, haven't you heard the saying that even "the walls have ears"? So please, we ain't that stupid nor are we blind, not being able to see, hear & feel those things that's happening around & about us..

A little advice, "Don't throw water to clean the back of others, when your own back is covered with DIRT.."

I suggest you go watch your back (plus your mouth too) before karma hits your life by surprise.. Coz remember, what goes around, eventually comes around.. Jangan nak slalu mengate, mengaib & memfitnah orang lain, diri sendiri blom tentu betol.. Pernah blaja ugame kan? Pandai2 la jawab di Akhirat nanti yer.. =)

Oh! And Salam Ma'al Hijrah to all Muslims.. A new year & a new beginning, insya'allah.. =)

In fact, something did happened recently.. There's this saying, "Kalau Allah nak berikan sesuatu, dalam ape jua keadaan skali pon, Dia tetap akan memberi.." & He did.. Another little bundle of joy, an addition to the family.. Alhamdulillah..

Everyone were asking, "But I thought you guys are on family planning, right?"

Yes, indeed.. Eversince we had Asyura.. But then again, if Allah gives you that chance to have another baby, anything can happen, even if you're on family planning.. Indeed, both hub & I, we were taken aback by surprise with the news of having a new member in our family.. Our little tumtum, another bundle of joy.. "Kaye anak.." Alhamdulillah.. =)

Alhamdulillah, a new Islamic year, a new start for us.. Insya'allah.. Amin..

On Random Thoughts..

2011-11-25T23:09:00.002+08:00

Kids, so pure & innocent..

Don't take that as an excuse for you to dig "infos" from them to your own advantage..

Get a LIFE!!

Nosyparkers..

My Life, My Thoughts, My Say..

2011-11-09T18:18:00.001+08:00

Betray our trust & act like you like us, whereby deep within, you just wanna bring us down.. We will forever hate you for the rest of our lives..

Regardless of who you are..

Go on & tell stories about us, for all I care.. Coz to me, you're just a tiny speck of dust that will one day be blown away together with all the bad deeds you did towards others..

Sadly, alot of people were fooled by your stories & your fake act of sympathy..

Truth will always prevail.. Insya'allah..

At least I know, the type of sickening ass bitch that I'm dealing with..

Manusia Yang Step "Macam Paham"...

2011-09-10T02:15:00.002+08:00

"If you didn't see it with your own eyes, hear it with your own ears, don't invent it with your small mind & share it with your BIG MOUTH."

Sendiri punya "tahi" bertepek tak kasi clear betul-betul, abeh, nak step menyebok pasal hal orang.

P/S: Lain kali jangan nak asyik mengate pasal "ORANG". Dalam diam-diam diri sendiri tu besar punya KEPO, tak perasan.. Lol.. Kalau mulut tu belum beli insurance, cepat-cepat la pergi beli ye.. =]

Salam Eid Mubarak..

2011-08-30T04:18:00.002+08:00

Wishing all fellow Muslims a wonderful Eid Mubarak.. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin..

Yours truly,

Ummi Lily & Family.. =]

Ode To My Family...

2011-07-20T12:09:00.008+08:00

Understand the things I say, don't turn away from me,
'Cause I spent half my life out there, you wouldn't disagree.
Do you see me? Do you see? Do you like me?
Do you like me standing there? Do you notice?
Do you know? Do you see me? Do you see me?
Does anyone care?

Unhappiness where's when I was young,
And we didn't give a damn,
'Cause we were raised,
To see life as fun and take it if we can.
My mother, my mother,
She hold me, she hold me, when I was out there.
My father, my father,
He liked me, oh he liked me. Does anyone care?

Understand what I've become, it wasn't my design.
And people everywhere think, something better than I am.
But I miss you, I miss, 'cause I liked it,
'Cause I liked it, when I was out there. Do you know this?
Do you know you did not find me. You did not find.
Does anyone care?

Unhappiness where's when I was young,
And we didn't give a damn,
'Cause we were raised,
To see life as fun and take it if we can.
My mother, my mother,
She hold me, she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father,
He liked me, oh he liked me.

Does anyone care?

[Cranberries]

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Back when I was a teenager, I used to sit at the neighbourhood park or the reservoir with earphones plugged in, listening to this song..

I would watched passersby, admiring happy families having fun times together & enjoying the peaceful serenity alone..

I've always love this song. It never fails to cheer me up back in those days when my life (as a daughter) was pretty much of a sorrow kinda thing.. sigh.. Those were the days..

The Cranberries will be performing in Singapore this coming August 1st..

I guess watching live concerts would have to wait until kids get a little independently grown up..

Only then, will Baba & Ummi, go on live concert dates together.. =)

Insya'allah..

Assalamua'laikum.. =)

2011-07-17T12:02:00.009+08:00

I've not been blogging for quite some time now ever since I started twitting.. I kinda miss my blog; the place where I rant & speak almost about anything & everything..

Now, Twitter has become my no. 1 favourite.. Micro-blogging at my fingertips anytime & anywhere I want..

A lot of things happened along the way.. Ups & downs.. Friendships lost.. Back-stabbing & back-biting relatives.. bla bla bla.. And the list goes on & on.. I couldn't be bothered already.. I'm gonna sit & watch Karma do the work for me..

Life; I gain some, I lose some.. And I learned not to trust people too easily; be it friends or even my relatives.. At least I know that there are those who're always there for me & accept me as I am & for what I am.. Most importantly, my family.. Love them to bits..

Kids are doing pretty well in school.. Getting more mischievously cute.. Just wish they could stay that way & not, grow up..

Hub & I, are pretty much happy & contented with our lives.. Well, minus off the "manusia-manusia cilake & mulot-mulot puake" who never fails to keep bugging in our lives & get pissed with every-single-thing that we do..

Mind you, we are staying pretty faraway & minding our own business, yet there are still those who have issues with us..

For fark sake.. Why can't they mind their own freaking lives? Check their own flaws? Everyone of us have flaws.. We're not even close to PERFECT.. We all make mistakes & should learn from those mistakes..

Seriously people, you got your own filthy backyard to clean instead of bothering about others.. Get a LIFE..

I'll try to keep coming over to blog once in a while.. Nothing else for me to say @ the moment..

Last but not least, Salam Nisfu Syaaban to everyone.. =)

Quarrel Poems By Husband & Wife...

2011-01-19T12:38:00.006+08:00

These are funny!!

Poems written by WIFE & HUSBAND, who are not on talking terms...

WIFE:
I wrote your name on sand it got washed.
I wrote your name in air, it was blown away.
Then I wrote your name on my heart & I got Heart Attack.

HUSBAND replies:
God saw me hungry, he created pizza.
He saw me thirsty, he created Pepsi.
He saw me in the dark, he created light.
He saw me without problems, he created YOU.

WIFE:
Twinkle twinkle little star
You should know what you are
And once you know what you are
Mental hospital is not so far.

HUSBAND replies:
The rain makes all things beautiful.
The grass and flowers too.
If rain makes all things beautiful
Why doesn't it rain on you?

WIFE:
Roses are red; Violets are blue
Monkeys like u should be kept in zoo.
Don't feel so angry you will find me there too
Not in cage but outside, laughing at you!

AHAHAHAHAHAHA!! I was wondering, are there any husbands & wives out there who uses poems to express their emotional feelings like this during a heated argument. LMAO!!

Otters Holding "Hands"...

2011-01-04T12:11:00.002+08:00

Saw this in YouTube... So I just wanna share it here in my blog...

Very cute & adorable don't you think? Otters floating & napping while holding each other paws...

At 0:52, they let go of their paws & then at 1:17, they started holding their paws together again...

Sooooooooo sweeeeeet... Awwwwwww... =)

The Historical Significance Of Asyura...

2010-12-14T12:58:00.011+08:00

Hazrat Ibn Abbas (Radiyallahu 'anh) reports that the Holy Nabi (Sall Allahu alaihi wa Aalihi wa Sallim) arrived in Madinah and found the Jews observing fast on the day of ‘Ashura… They said: "It is the day of great (significance) when Allah delivered Hazrat Musa ('Alaihis-Salaam) and his people and drowned Pharoah and his people, and Sayyidina Musa ('Alaihis-Salaam) observed fast out of gratitude. And we also observe it." The Holy Messenger of Allah (Sall Allahu alaihi wa Aalihi wa Sallim) responded: "We have more right, and we have closer connection with Sayyidina Musa ('Alaihis-Salaam) than you have"; so Allah’s Messenger (Sall Allahu alaihi wa Aalihi wa Sallim) observed fast (on the day of ‘Ashura) and gave us orders to observe it. [Sahih Bukhari and Muslim]

‘Ashura is a day of great historical significance. On this day: Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) accepted the repentance of Sayyidina Adam ('Alaihis-Salaam) after his exile from Paradise; Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) saved Sayyidina Nuh ('Alaihis-Salaam) and his companions in the ark; Allah extinguished the fire in which Sayyidina Ibrahim ('Alaihis-Salaam) was thrown by Nimrod; And Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) spoke directly to Sayyidina Musa ('Alaihis-Salaam) and gave him the Commandments. On this same 10th of Muharram, Sayyidina Ayyub ('Alaihis-Salaam) was restored to health (from leprosy); Sayyidina Yusuf ('Alaihis-Salaam) was reunited with his father Ya’qub ('Alaihis-Salaam); Sayyidina Yunus ('Alaihis-Salaam) was taken out from the belly of the fish; and the sea was divided as the nation of israel was delivered from captivity and Pharoah’s army was destroyed. ‘Ashura is also the day when the kingdom of Sulaiman ('Alaihis-Salaam) was restored; Sayyidina Isa ('Alaihis-Salaam) was raised to Jannah; and Sayyidina al- Imam Husayn (Radiyallahu 'anh) (the Holy Nabi’s, Sall Allahu alaihi wa Aalihi wa Sallim, grandson) achieved the honor of Martyrdom.

Worship Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) as much as you can on ‘Ashura. Whoever fasts on this day is like one who fasts all his life. Whoever clothes a naked person Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) will release him from a painful punishment. He who visits a sick person, Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) will grant him a reward that will not be decreased. Whoever places his hand on an orphan’s head, or feeds a hungry person or gives water to a thirsty man, Allah will feed him a feast from Paradise and will quench his thirst with Salsabil (a wine that does not intoxicate). And who ever takes a Ghusl on this day will enjoy excellent health and freedom from sickness and indolence. Whoever provides generously for his family on this day, Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) will be generous to him throughout this year. And whoever applies Kuhl to his eyes will never suffer from eye-sore again, Insha’Allah al-Aziz

O’ Allah! Bless us to perform good deeds and gain their reward on ‘Ashura. Make the new year one of unity, cooperation and success for Muslims in this city and around the world. Ameen.

(Taken from http://www.ummah.com/Al_adaab/months/ashura.html)

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There's something about the Day of Asyura that never fails to fascinate me...

In the Islamic Calendar, every 10th Muharram is the Day of Asyura... Many Islamic historical events occurred on this day...

Allah s.w.t has His way of making those historical events happened in different years & centuries but on the same particular date... He knows what we do not know... He definitely has His reason to it... =)

Or maybe, there's more other past historical events that we do not know of but only He knows...

Wallahualam...

Oh, and just for sharing also...

The command to fast in the month of Ramadan was revealed by Allah on the second year of Hijrah. In the first year, the Prophet s.a.w command Muslims to fast on the Day of Asyura... =)

Salam Ma'al Hijrah 1432H...

2010-12-07T12:59:00.002+08:00

The past has brought the present,
The present will carry to the future,
Whatever has been will be again, now or later,
The only hope we have is what we do now,
For the present will soon change to the past & become the future...

Insya'allah, amin...

Salam Ma'al Hijrah from Ummi Lily & Family...

Hum Drum (Again)...

2010-12-07T12:41:00.002+08:00

Promises are worst than lies...

Because you just don't make them believe, you also make them hope...

Hum Drum...

2010-12-05T01:54:00.003+08:00

Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they’ll notice. If they don’t, you know where you stand.

If all people are just honest with their real feelings, no one’s gonna be hurt because everybody would be aware if it's a lie or not.

Screw what everyone says. I am who I am, & that's it. I have many flaws, & so do you. If you're gonna judge me, better look at yourself too.

If you worry about what-Might-Be, and wonder what-Might-have-Been, you will ignore What-Is.

The art of argument : if you argue correctly, you're never wrong.

If we dwell on the negatives in our life, we will be consume by them. Highlight and focus on the positives.

Sometimes I intend to hide my feelings.., than to burden someone else with them.

The hardest part about accepting the saying “everything happens for a reason" is waiting for that reason to come along.

I trusted you & your promise. But once that trust & promise are broken, then that's the end of everything... Things will never be the same; you & me.

Thanks Aunt Jonah For This Wonderful email...

2010-12-03T12:01:00.000+08:00

Guide To A Better Life...

A man who died of pancreatic cancer in 2008 & who wrote one of the bestsellers "The Last Lecture" in 2007 back then, wrote this beautiful letter to his wife & children to follow...

A legacy to leave behind...

May you be blessed by his insight...

POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE

Personality:

Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
Don't over do; keep your limits.
Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does.
Don't waste your precious energy on gossips.
Dream more while you are awake.
Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
Smile & laugh more.
You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:

Call your family often.
Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
Try to make at least 3 people smile each day.
What other people think of you is none of your business.
Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family & friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

Do the right things.
However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
No matter how you feel, get up, dress up & show up
The best is yet to come.
Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
When you awake alive & healthy in the morning, thank your parents for giving you this life, sing a song & be contented with everything, like the birds who stride the sky!

While you practise all of the above, share this knowledge with the people you love, people you hate, people you play with, people you work with & people you live with...

Not only will it enrich YOUR life, but also that of those around you...

[Thanks Aunt Jonah for sending me this email... It means alot to me...]

=I

True Friend...

2010-11-29T11:08:00.002+08:00

What is a true friend?

A true friend says what they think their friend needs to hear even when they know that their friend may get angry...

A true friend doesn't leave because they are afraid to be with you...

A true friend doesn't leave when the fun stops and things get uncomfortable...

There are just of few of the values that real friends hold dear...

In short, a true friend recognizes the value of the friendship and holds it sacred...

So, are you truly a True Friend of mine?

Untitled...

2010-11-29T08:56:00.004+08:00

I am feeling very sad & disappointed...

Everytime I tried brushing it aside, it just comes back on & on... Everytime I be nice to someone, that someone would eventually step on my head over & over again...

I wonder how would they feel if they were in my shoes... I guess they couldn't be bothered to think about it...

So why would I even be bothered thinking about them & the problems that they are facing when they don't even bother thinking about me? So should I be doing things that only concerns me like what they did?

Also, there's always a reason behind everything that happen...

When The Almighty gives you wealth, there must be a reason for HIM to give you that kind of wealth...

And the promise that you said to me a few years back thru MSN, that, I definitely still remember & is still fresh in my mind... And when the time comes, I'll definitely ask you about it personally coz so far, nothing is being done to resolve it...

I guess the saying is true, when you have a bit of wealth, you seems to forget about everything that you said & even everyone that you know...

It's such a sad thing...

And fyi, now then I believe that you are taking advantage of me... You take my kindness for granted... I hope may The Almighty make you realise this in a "POSITIVE WAY"...

Shucks... I never feel this sad, this disappointed, this used & this taken advantage @ in my whole entire life...

And the best part, it has to come from you, of all people whom I know, whom I ever shared my problems with...

I am really out of words... ='(

Time & time again, I've been expressing myself with entries like these... Time & time again I've been taken advantage @... I don't know whether should I be feeling angry or pissed? But I seriously am feeling bloody sad like crazy & to the extend of shedding my tears...

Like it or not, I've to face whatever obstacles that comes by with a peaceful mind & heart...

And when The Almighty is testing you with obstacles, He's focusing right on you to see whether will you pass His Test...

Insya'allah, I'll pluck up everything that's left within me to pass thru this test... Coz I know that there's always a sunshine after the rain... And He never breaks His Promises to His Humble Servants who pass His Tests...

There is no power & no strength except allah's,the highest high, the almighty

la hawla wala quwata illa billa hil aliyil azeem

I guess I should start doing my work now before this whole entire office gets flooded with my tears...

To YOU...

2010-11-19T12:26:00.002+08:00

You don't have to put on a fake mask & a fake smile whenever you see me & my family... I could jolly well tell it from your face that you are pushing it too hard... FYI, your face tells everything...

I heard soooooo many things about what you said behind our backs [And as always, you got no guts to even tell it straight up to our faces...] Pity us, dah dok jaoh2 kat Sengkang & tak kacau orang, maseh jugak ade yang saket hati eh?

And what I can say to you is this > I bloody hell don't give a bloody damn about every single gossips & back-bitings that you said... And, I REALLY am not the bloody "MAKCIK K-PO" type to even give a damn about you, your life or your family... So STOP GIVING A DAMN ABOUT ME & MY FAMILY & TELLING US WHAT EXACTLY IT IS THAT WE NEED TO DO!! LOOK @ YOUR OWN FLAWS BEFORE LOOKING @ OTHERS!!

Say what you want to say plus that "saket hati-ness" of yours... One day, the future will tell what sort of human you truly is... In fact, seriously, your true colours are beginning to appear already...

And that fake mask of yours? tsk tsk tsk... You should just flush it down the toilet coz no point of you wearing it anymore...

What's the use of you seeking forgiveness, hugging here & there on the 1st day of Syawal when there's still a lump of hatred in your heart... Buang current jer... Really...

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I prefer to be true to myself, even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others, rather than to be false, and to incur my own abhorrence...

It is better to displease the people by doing what I know is right, than to temporarily please them by doing what I know is wrong...

Thank you... =)

So Adorably Cute!!

2010-11-11T08:51:00.000+08:00

Aren't they the cutest kitties you've ever seen?

Look how they snug perfectly into the coffee mugs!! Soooooooo cute!!

Every Obstacle That Comes Would Only Make Us Tougher...

2010-11-09T18:22:00.014+08:00

I've got a long time goal to achieve...

To be a much more better mom & wife to my family...

Sometimes I think I'm crazy for setting such a goal... I mean, who don't wanna have a happy life & be successful in everything they do... Sometimes, I just think that I'm not good enough @ it? I wanna do more out of it... But hubby always says that it's all good & I'm doing just fine doing what I do... I guess I'm too "lo-so" & "ngee-yau"... Obviously I think too much la har...

And lately, I've this strong feeling that an obstacle is coming my way & it has arrive sooner than I expected...

This one is definitely gonna be 1 of the major obstacles that I'm gonna go thru... And right now, it's already testing me physically, mentally & financially...

This is just the beginning... The early stage of this huge obstacle...

Insya'allah, I'll stay strong & tackle it like how I had faced all my previous obstacles before... And I'm not gonna be facing it alone... I always have my Baba by my side... And we'll face it together like we always do [thru good & bad times]... Insya'allah... Amin... =)

Obstacles come & go... The more obstacles you get, the more tougher you become & the more resistance you are in facing them all...

And I will never give up...

P/S: What is it with humans & moodswings... hmmm... Selfish? Calculative? Ignorant? Stop it la sei... Enough already...

Weekend Spent...

2010-11-07T12:23:00.004+08:00

"Look Ma, a Ninja Turtle... Wooo-chaaaaa!!"

It's like a routine, everytime when I'm not working, my mind's switch on to homemaker mode & the hubby never fails to say, "Ummi, have you had enough of doing chores? Need my help? Your hands & feet never stops walking around doing stuffs in the house..."

My usual reply, "It's OK la. It's my responsibility anyway, as a wife & a mother & are you not lucky to have me? (grinning)"

Him, "Diligent, hardworking and multi-task... Very few wives could do the same thing as you do... I thank Allah for giving me you as my wife... (smiling) "

So (as usual) I spent this week's long holiday cum weekend cleaning, vacuuming (seriously the amount of dust is... SPEECHLESS...), mopping, cooking, doing the laundry (and I got tonnes of laundry plus ironing to do), attending a wedding reception & grocery shopping with the hubby & kids...

There's this wedding reception from the maternal grams side of the family somewhere in Hougang... Obviously, hubby & I went there with our kids... Reception started from 2pm till 10pm... And we got ourselves lost for nearly half & hour on the road making lots of turns, going round & round... pfft...

Quite a number of people attended the reception... And there's this thing called "joget lambak" happening @ the wedding reception itself... People dancing to kara-ok songs sang by other people...

We were surprised to see that those dancing were "pakciks & makciks" aged between 40 plus to 50 plus... The rest of us just sat, observed & laughed @ the way they danced... Songs played were very "OR-BIT" to the max... And the heavy rainy weather in the evening was making the whole atmosphere even worst... Da macam kat kelab dangdut siak... They were like shaking their shoulders & asses off... OMG... Unbelievable... And here I am thinking that this type of "joget lambak" doesn't exist anymore coz obviously it still does... (-_-)"

We managed to leave early & that was only after the DJ played a few songs which consisted of famous Hindustani music... 50% of the Malay people there were dancing like crazy to "Bollywood Fever"... And did I tell you that every single 1 of them wore sarees, punjabs & kurtas?

Seriously, this is the 1st time I went to a very "kecoh-rable, joget lambak" wedding... Even the brides & grooms (yup! 2 brides & 2 grooms) were caught dancing their asses off... ahahahaha!! And I'm like, "Huh? Oh... OK..." This is another type of Malay Wedding, or no, wait, Bollywood/Deepavali Wedding or whatever it is called la har... Thank God the food were all yummy-licious... Especially the Asam Chicken... Very nice...

After which, the rest of our evening was spent with the kids @ Giant Tampines Hypermarket... The kids sure love to go there... They'll spent their time @ the toys section with their Baba, while I go around shopping for groceries & stuffs...

I had this sad dream last Friday nite...

I dreamt of my late uncle (Wak Mi) who had passed away a year ago... In that dream, he looked 20 years younger like how he used to look like when grams were staying @ 1 of her previous cribs... His face was glowing & the moment he saw me, he smiled & straight away hugged me so tightly & kissed me on my forehead just like he always did when he was alive... He didn't even say a word... He just, hugged... The hug was a comforting one that it made me burst into tears.. It's like in that dream, I was telling him about my feelings & those problems that I'm facing & about his daughter & all... I really couldn't hold back my tears... I just cried... (sigh)

I guess maybe perhaps, he somehow knew everything & he knows that I can overcome every single obstacles that comes along the way & that I'm trying my best...

I eventually woke up crying... That was the most saddest dream I've ever had... Somehow, I felt better... Maybe thanks to the hug... I guess...

Till now, I still couldn't believe that he's gone too soon...

Al-Fatehah...

Just Be Yourself...

2010-11-06T12:59:00.004+08:00

Photo courtesy of Google...

What's with copycats nowadays huh? They are really starting to get on my freaking nerves already... Gosh!! Get a life la instead of following every single thing others do...

You people go about following every single thing that I wear, buy & do... Seriously, you people should go get a life... Eh!! Where's your sense of style? Y'all too cooped up is it? Till y'all don't even know how to explore your own style of fashion sense... So annoying you know or not...? Even everyone around me notice the same thing!! OMG!!

It's a funny thing how y'all don't even bother to put on a hijab like I do... This part you don't even bother to copycat huh? Go put on a hijab like I do... Go cover up your assets (instead of flaunting em) like I do... Guess it's impossible for anyone of you to do that, right?

If every single thing that I do, you feel like following, & claim that it's your way of style (yang "di ilhamkan dengan sendiri nyer"), please la... I wanna vomit blood sia... I'm not even blind to not notice every step that you people make... I just force myself to switch into silent mode for God's sake & pretend that I didn't see any of it!!

Get a life sia... Seriously...

A colleague of mine once said, "Perhaps your existence makes them feel threaten... Your existence of being around them makes them wanna be & look even far more better than you..."

Good luck in trying to follow every single thing that I wear & do... Coz @ the end of the day, to me, you people are nothing... Guess having me around had somehow made you feel threaten or (worst still) shaken your way of life...

Why la people love to piss me off when I don't even bother about their lives? tsk tsk tsk... Sickening humans... Pity them for being so "sengket" & cooped up in their own kinda world... =)

"Copycats try & try & try to be who they're not & that is why they don't seem real for they did steal another's deed to fill their need..."

P/S: So I guess sooner or later, y'all be finding a hubby like I do, start a family like I do, make babies (1 boy & 1 girl) like we do, buy a car like we do etc, etc, etc... Is there anything else that I do that y'all don't do?

Life Is A Test...

2010-10-28T12:22:00.010+08:00

My kids are sick again... =(

Previously there's this HFMD... Now, thanks to this "mood-of-a-swing" weather kinda thing, both of them are hit with a bad cough & flu... And their fever's been going up & down for the past few days... Hubby's hit too & yet he tries his best to be of a great help even in his sick condition... [Thank you Baba]

My nites have been a sleepless one... Kids been waking up crying in the middle of the night & wee morning... And those dark circles around my eyes look pretty awful sia... Wah lao...

I wish I could take a day off to a Facial & Body Spa where I could pamper myself into & relax this tense & tiring body of mine... And I definitely need a good nite sleep... A GOOD SLEEP IS WHAT I NEED THE MOST... Can I? (sigh) Maybe not now la har... Life's been pretty well-occupied with so many things...

And I seem to be drifting apart from work... Office work, I mean... I dread going to the office... Lately, I've been waking up with a "not-so-smiley face"... The kinda face that I usually put on whenever I need to attend for any examination papers back in my school days...

It's during this kinda times that I hate working for people... Hate! Hate! Hate! Coz my heart & mind are focus on my family... When will that day of becoming a WAHM be? ...Hmmmm... Allah knows best...

And I hate it when there are still some of those sickening jackass selfish people who never seems to get sick & tired of taking advantage others in times like this...

Eh! Enough already la of your freaking ass nonsense! Y'all don't feel tired having this sickening attitude of yours ah? If others were to take advantage of you, do you think you would be able to accept it? I doubt so... Y'all fall on the category type of people who would never think twice of hurting others but when others were to do the same thing to you, y'all couldn't even tolerate it...

Seriously, y'all are a bunch of sickening selfish fools... Only think of your own survival in this world & not of others as well... FYI, everything in this world are not yours to keep & the sight of you people make me SICK!!

What goes around would eventually comes around... I am so waiting for that 1 fine day where y'all would feel the same way how I feel... Really... Let Him teach y'all a lesson or 2 on what "taking advantage of other people" means...

OK, gonna get back to work... Lunch time's up... Sian... Looking at my table with all these work stuffs... (sigh) "Forever cannot finish"...

Hopefully, my kids & their Baba would get well soon... Insya'allah... Amin...

P/S: My pet cat, Black looks exactly the same like the one in the photo uploaded above... I miss hugging, cuddling & kissing him... At the moment he's staying @ my mom's crib... Hopefully, I could have him back when the time comes... Black is the 1 & only pet cat that never fails to accompany me whenever I do my laundry late @ nights when everyone are sleeping & when I'm feeling low... ='(

My Little Asil & Asyura...

2010-10-21T12:31:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I wish they would remain as little kids... Pure, clean & simple... Free from any kind of sins... Mischievous & annoying in their own kind of way... =)

Out With My Kids On Children's Day...

2010-10-21T12:13:00.006+08:00

So I took half a day's leave on Children's Day just to spend some time out with my little toddlings...

I was actually working on that day & had to bring both of them to work in the morning coz I had to get some things done in the office... heh... But by noon, we were already on our way to Sembawang Shopping Centre & the kids were having such a fun time playing at the Splash Park... =)

Thank you to all the teachers & principal of 173D Bright Kids School House, for all the Children's Day gifts that you gave to both of my kids... 2 huge bags FULL!! With loads of toys, sweets, lollipops, bags, stationery & other wonderful stuffs...

And to Teacher Saurah aka Aunty Lala : Next time buy for Asil a real MAZDA car & Asyura a PRADA handbag OK... =P Like that, both the father & mother of Asil & Asyura can also borrow & use our kids stuffs when we want to... heh...

Cousins, Kids, Me & MBS...

2010-10-21T08:59:00.000+08:00

All these photos were taken a few months ago... LOL... Just got the time to upload it... heh...

Cousins (Lala, Sufi, Yaya & Shafiq), my kids & me sight-seeing @ Marina Bay Sands... Very huge place & stuffs sold there are VERY VERY pricey... I bought a regular size bottled mineral water for 2 bucks sia!! Damn expensive!! Hanye orang yang betol2 mampu (dan kaye) jer bole beli barang2 kat sane...

And surprisingly, those people who visited the Casino were mostly old uncles & aunties... =)

Helloooooo Hazy Singapore...

2010-10-21T08:56:00.001+08:00

The haze is back y'all...

I came way early for work this morning... Decided to take a little stroll by the sea @ my work place & the view that I saw was, hmmmm... You could say it's not that nice la har...

Haze everywhere... I could hardly even see Johor Bahru, Malaysia from where I was standing... =(

Managed to take some pictures & uploaded it here in my blog... Can you see how terrible the hazy weather is?

Everytime when the haze hits, either one of my family members (even me), catches a bad sore throat, cough & phlegm stuck in between the nose & throat airway... Even worst, we could even catch a fever...

At the moment, only my little Asil & me who are beginning to have this symptom...

Hopefully this haze will go away soon... The weather is really not that good lately... Hot, humid, stuffy & hazy... pfft...

Photos From The Bollywood Veggies...

2010-10-20T12:51:00.001+08:00

Finally!!

I've uploaded all the photos that I took when I followed my kids for their school field trip to the Bollywood Veggies that's located in Kranji (a little countryside version of urban Singapore in the old days)...

If you're a nature & a kampong lover, this is just the right place for you to visit with your family... =)

For more infos on Bollywood Veggies, kindly click HERE

Lunch's gonna be over soon, so, "chao meow"... =)

Random Thoughts...

2010-10-17T12:10:00.015+08:00

In The Name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful...

What is it with HFMD & kids? My goodness, I seriously am getting sick & tired of entertaining this freaking virus...

No vaccine? Can someone AT LEAST try finding a vaccine for this HFMD thingy for the kids? You guys are too busy finding vaccines for BIGGER viruses & illnesses, well, HFMD IS A VIRUS too, you know... Both of my kids contracted with this virus TWICE in less than 5 months!!

Kids who had contracted with the HFMD virus are barred from going to school. They had to be home quarantined & couldn't even get out of the house... They loose their appetite due to the painful mouth ulcers... They feel very tired & fever-ish with all the blisters on their hands & feet...

We, parents got affected too... Some parents, like me & hubby, we don't have a maid nor do we depend on our parents or others to keep an eye on our kids... So how did we deal with this situation? We took care of our kids ourselves & as for me, my office work is done @ home... I cooked, did the laundry, vacuumed, mopped the floors & @ the same time, took care of my kids while doing my office work... Tiring much? It is, sometimes, well, a mother got to do what a mother got to do... And a woman will not be able to feel & experience all of these, until she has become a mother... This saying is so true...

I went back to the office yesterday... Brought my kids along with me coz hubby had to go for an immobilization standby thingy or whatever you call it in reservist terms la har... This immobilization thingy is really getting on my nerves sometimes, I mean, they called my husband up @ the very last minute (the night before, mind you) & expect him to be ready once they activated the call? My goodness! Not all wives are homemakers OK! Some (like me), need to work on weekends & we have KIDS (little kids to be precised)! We don't have a MAID nor do we stay with our parents...

Not everyone of us, lead a life where we could always depend on others for help, HALO? Some of us need to fend for ourselves... And to have my hubby called @ the very last minute, seriously it's so inconvenient coz I happened to be on duty in the office for this weekend! The best part was, I just got to know from hubby yesterday that his squad would always be called up for this standby thingy any moment & @ any time... Baik per... -.-"

I should've slept early yesterday but I didn't... Migraine's killing me & I was basically tossing & turning in bed... I kept staring at the ceiling & that's when the usual stuffs started flooding my mind... (sigh)

Sometimes in life, we might feel unhappy with certain accounts or issues in our lives... But I guess @ the end of the day, to compare my live with others, amidst all those obstacles I went thru, truly I am bless that The Almighty had completed my life with not only a responsible husband, but also my cute little boy & girl to help me pull thru my days with ease... =)

The great thing is, He gave me this strength to be strong in facing all those nonsensical humans that comes along the way...

So much so for being plain old me... My bad I guess, for being nice to everyone... From the look of it, I don't think they appreciate it... And like I said before, I'll only be nice to those who are nice to me... If you treat me & my family like invisible humans, that's exactly how I am gonna make sure my family treats you too... What makes you think you deserve the RESPECT, when you don't even bother respecting others? So screw you...

Like it or not, that's the way it is for me now coz I've had enough of this crap... And it's such a sad thing that I'm seeing a lot of this self-centred egotistical people among my family members ; both young and old...

Buat ape aku nak step terhegeh2 bual baik2 dgn org yg langsong tk interested nk jumpe atau nk berbual baik dgn aku & bile nmpk aku satu kluarge dorg tk layan? Don't worry, even if I happened to bumped into anyone of you somewhere out there, I too can't be bothered to give a damn about you... Seriously...

Back to lunch y'all...

RSAF Helicopter Makes Emergency Landing...

2010-10-01T08:59:00.000+08:00

Photos were taken from Channel NewsAsia Photos Gallery

Hubby was supposed to fetched me @ 6.30pm at work yesterday... But he was caught up in the traffic due to this helicopter emergency landing thingy... There was some sort of a road blocked or something & all eyes were on the broken helicopter...

Both hubby & I worked in Senoko (somewhere in between Woodlands & Sembawang neighbourhood), so you could say that the route we usually take to go to & from work is along the road near the open field that's between Woodlands Avenue 12 and Woodlands Drive 64 (that's the area where the helicopter had made an emergency landing).

Read more about it HERE & HERE

Thank God no one was injured in the incident... =)

I Love The Lyrics Of This Song...

2010-09-29T12:51:00.002+08:00

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
Membuatku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya citra terindah
Bila kau peluk mesra tubuhku

Banyak kata yang tak mampu
Kuungkapkan kepada dirimu...

Aku ingin engkau selalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Di setiap langkah yang menyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau selalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Di setiap langkah yang menyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku

Pasti waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tahu ku selalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku..

[Tercipta Untukku by Ungu]

The lyrics of this song & how the lead vocal singer sang it, touched me till I shed my tears... You should've seen the official video clip too... Huwaaargh... Really so the very the touching...

Call me emo-ish or wateva-ish la har... But I'm just being me... If there's any kinda song lyrics that touches my heart (especially when the lyrics of those songs had something to do with the life that I'm going thru), for sure, I'll cry...

Macam minah gembeng ek aku ni?

P/S: Minah gembeng tak per... Jangan minah rep suda... lol...

Thanks For Uploading This!!

2010-09-28T01:14:00.001+08:00

To Cousin Lala: Thank you La... =) Ade lagi tak? E-mail kat aku ar... Aku nak tempek kat SLIDE aku ar... Also, lain kali, you better be in the picture when we do our little camwhoring hor... The amount of laughter that we had in your room... The way these 2 ladies tried putting on a hijab... lol... Damn funny!!

Next After Pak Long's - Off To Bedok (Still In Raya Day 1)...

2010-09-19T12:53:00.003+08:00

Woookaaaay!! A few more photos that I've uploaded via SLIDE...

This time, credits goes to Cousin Lala for some of the photos that she took with her camera... =)

My maternal Grams (Nenek Bedok) lives in Bedok (that explains her nickname la har)... As usual, we would crash over & wait till the rest of my relatives from the maternal side came over for the Raya visit...

Nenek Bedok is the only surviving Grams that I have... So yup... Satu2 nyer Nenek yang masih hidop... May Allah take good care of her for me... Amin...

Surprisingly this year, hubby & I (with our kids la har) were the 1st ones to arrive there & nenek was with Cousin Shakeir @ home... We chit chat for a while until, slowly, one by one of them; uncles, aunties & cousins came...

We decided to chill downstairs at the nearby fitness corner... Sesunggoh nyer, Nenek's crib would be very crampy when everyone of us came over for a gathering... So disebabkan tu la, hubby & I, we prefer to "ambel angen" kat bawah...

Next After In-Laws - Pak Long's (Still In Raya Day 1)...

2010-09-19T10:24:00.011+08:00

(above) My Pak Long & Mak Long...

(above) Cousins... Khaizal & Nasheef with my kids...

(above) Cousin Sharani & me...

Next stop after visiting in-laws was to Pak Long's crib... So OK, Pak Long is my dad's eldest brother...

Eversince my paternal grams passed away, he's crib would be the 1st one we visited during Hari Raya...

Cousin Sharani was one of the cousins whom I'm very closed with from the paternal side of the family... She's the same age as me... We used to hang out together during our teenage years... Shared bitter, sweet & funny memories together... =)

One of the funniest moments that I couldn't forget was when we both went to the wrong toilet @ the old Kallang Stadium... Kitorang gi masok tandas lelaki la sei... And the best part (OK, right now I'm laughing my ass off while typing this), Sharani went in 1st (while I was right behind her) like nobody business (thinking that it's the ladies toilet) coz she obviously wanna go pee (membe da tak bole tahan) & she saw a few men doing their thing... ahahahahahaha!! Bloody hell!! We both rushed out from the toilet sia!! I still could remember the look on her face - innocent & blur plus kancong spider face... Classic sia... ahahahahaha!! Eh!! Cannot blame us you know, there's know indication whether it's the Gents or Ladies toilet... lol...

Till now, although we both are pretty much busy with our own lives, I'm glad that we still keep in touch... I remember her, & she remembers me...

We shared the same similarities - being the only daughter in our family... That's why, you could say, I'm pretty close with her... [To Sharani: Eh minah!! Aku sayang kau, kau tahu tak? No matter what decisions you make or wherever you go, you'll always have meeeee... Saaaaayang kau!!]

Hari Raya (Day 1).... - Slide No. 1

2010-09-18T12:51:00.002+08:00

So, I divided & uploaded all my Raya photos according to the houses that we visited... Too many photos (just during the 1st day only)...

Credit goes to my Sis in-law (Muz) for some of the photos that I've uploaded via SLIDE... =)

We happened to wear the same colour baju... hee hee... But hers was far more in glamorous gold... [Moteh! Kau da mcm Saloma, kau tahu tak? hee hee...]

The above photos were taken when we went visiting our in-laws...

I Love This!! Very funny...

2010-09-17T12:01:00.004+08:00

Picture of the shirt was taken while I went shopping @ Giant with my family...

I went to Giant Tampines Hypermarket the other day & while doing my shopping, both hubby & I laughed our lungs out when we saw this...

MISSING!!

Picture of Bike (DRAWN FROM MEMORY. MAY NOT BE TO SCALE)

MY BIKE WAS STOLEN FROM MY FRONT LAWN LAST WEEK. IT IS A ONE-SPEED BIKE WITH A SKULL FLAG AND A LIGHTNING BOLT ON IT. THE LIGHTNING BOLT AND FLAG MAY HAVE BEEN REMOVED. THIS BIKE WAS BRAND NEW FROM THE STORE.

NO REWARD

I DON'T EVEN WANT THIS BIKE BACK. I JUST MADE THESE FLYERS TO TELL YOU THAT I HATE YOU BIKE THIEF. I HOPE YOU RIDE MY BIKE WITHOUT A HELMET AND GET HIT BY A MONSTER TRUCK. I HOPE MY BIKE TAKES YOU STRAIGHT TO HELL.

I was thinking, I remembered how my BLOO got stolen before & I was actually imagining, what if, I wrote a notice that reads something like the picture above, & paste the flyers everywhere in the neighbourhood... lol...

Back In The Office... Mendak Ke Per... pfft...

2010-09-16T12:20:00.000+08:00

"Selamat Hari Raya - Maaf, Zahir & Batin..."

So after a short holiday (Yup! 6 days of Leave were way too "siket" for me...) due to the festive season, I'm back to work... Piles of things to be done... E-mails to reply, paperworks to clear... Walao... Vomit blood!

Both of my kids didn't even feel like going to school... They kept whining & showing their tantrums the moment their Baba & Ummi woke them up for school...

Asil, "Ummiiiiiii... I don't want to go to school... I want to stay @ home with you & Adek & Baba..."

Asyura, "Ummiiiii.... I don wan go kool, I wan schleeep..."

We, parents, just smiled to each other, listening to their cries... Obviously, we did a little "sweet talking" & persuaded them in a nice way but the moment when they reached school, Asyura started crying & Asil was giving me a sad looking face (like he's gonna cry anytime the moment I leave him in the Centre)... Awwwww... I was so the very tak sampai hati to leave them but I had to... We both had to actually... Kalau tak, who would want to care & look after them while we're out working?

Our Hari Raya celebration went pretty well this year, alhamdulillah... We did the usual visits from house to house... I got to see most of my cousins, aunties & uncles whom I've not met up with, for quite some time... Miss them all... Oh! Not forgetting all those hand-made Hari Raya cookies & cakes that my aunts made... Gosh!! I ate those cookies like nobody's business sia!! They were all SUPER DELICIOUSLY GOOD!!

I know it's not nice to always be thinking of those who had passed away... But seriously, I miss my late Nenek Yishun (paternal grams) & my late uncle (Wak Mi) the most this year... Not having them around makes me feel like something's amidst... Their smile, their laughter & their hugs... Allah knows how much I miss them both...

I miss my one & only paternal aunt (Mak Ani) & her entire family who're staying in KL, Malaysia... I've longed so much to see them but I didn't have the chance to see them all... I'm glad that I got the chance to talk to her for a while on the phone during the 3rd day of Hari Raya...

To Mak Ani, Kak Ipah & family, Kak Ana, Nani : I miss you all la sei... Insya'allah, we'll meet up one day k... =') Rizal kirem salam kat sume...

Dan sesunggoh nyer raot wajah Mak Ani ku membuat ku terkenangkan kepade arwah Nenek Yishun ku... She looks exactly like my late grams (Her mom)... Wah seh... OK, I'm actually beginning to feel emo-ish right now...

Well, Hari Raya celebration lasts for the whole entire month of Syawal... Hopefully, both hubby & I, we got the time to visit the rest of our relatives within that period...

Till I blog again... Insya'allah...

P/S: I'm still thinking of all those people who, even during in this month of "bermaaf-maafan", still couldn't loose their sickening egos... Wonder what they get by it...

Salam Eid Mubarak (in advance)...

2010-09-07T12:44:00.007+08:00

As usual, our preparations for the arrival of Syawal this year, was a simple one (ala kadar sahaje). Just a set of Hari Raya clothings & shoes coz traditional clothings for us are worn only on certain occasions like festive seasons & wedding functions... So tak yah ler bazir2 duit beli 2 3 pasang... Baju tahon2 yang lepas maseh elok lagi... heh...

Just like any other year, we would pick one colour for our family Hari Raya clothings (this is standard procedure la har)... So Hubby loves the colour (sebab membe jugak yang pileh colour tu) & I love it too!

It's just that when the actual day came for us to get the Hari Raya clothings @ Geylang Serai, there seems to be a little "glitch" in the colour concept thingy... pfft... When we got the colour that we wanted, it's either there wasn't any size available or the fabrics were way too different from what we expected... lol...

With Asil's clinging on his Baba while Asyura clinging on her Ummi, we walked to & fro (I mean we literally WALK & PAST THRU THE CROWD OF PEOPLE & SMOKE FROM THE BBQ DENDENG STALLS! WA LAO!!) in search of our baju lor... In the end we gave up & ended buying those baju that pleases our eyes the most la har & of course we still stayed true to the colour that we chose (tak dapat exact colour, the closest colour next to it pon jadi la kan... asalkan ade colour contrast)...

So don't be surprised if on the 1st day of Hari Raya, my little Asyura looks like a 'Bhangra' dancer, my little Asil looks like a 'Kung Fu' fighter, my Baba looks like "Hang Tuah" & I look like I just got married... lol...

Seriously, this year's baju Raya is such a challenge to find... Baba had to park his car right behind Joo Chiat Complex & we had to freakingly walk all the way thru out the entire Geylang Bazaar with our kids clinging on us... (>.<) Kaaaaau!! Berlendir siak ketiak!! Satu badan bau asap dageng dendeng bakar!! lol...

Kueh Raye beli pon tak banyak coz my 3rd sis-in-law [Muz] had already made some Hari Raya biscuits & cookies of her own with her mommy... So we decided to contribute a few cartons of canned drinks in the house... [Oi Moteh! Rajen sei minah! Next year kau try la buat kek skali... Bole jugak aku testing... Kueh Raye kau, aku nak testing malam Raye nanti... hee hee...]

So we're left with cleaning up? I guess... & that's about it... heh...

You know, I was actually thinking about those months when I was pregnant with my kids... How I completed my fasting for the entire month of Ramadhan while they were still in my tummy... I'm kinda smiling @ myself right now looking back at how strong of a young mummy I was enduring the thirst & hunger during Ramadhan while conceiving both of my babies... Masya'allah... I still couldn't believe that I actually went thru all the fasting process without even skipping a single day... Alhamdulillah...

The best part was, both of my kids @ that time, were actually fasting along with me & how sweet could that be, to have your unborn babies practice fasting as early as when they were still in your tummy? It's touching much for me... Really...

I hope this experience of me fasting during both of my pregnancies would give some motivation & encouragement not only to my little Asyura, but also to all Muslim mums-to-be in the future... If you have the will to do something that benefits you, Insya'allah, you can do it... Antare nak dengan tak nak jer kan? =)

And I guess Syawal is drawing nearer & nearer to us while Ramadhan will slowly draw itself away from us... I definitely will miss Ramadhan kerane sesunggoh nyer Ramadhan tahun ini sangat la bermakne buat diri ku... Those iftar moments I had with my Baba & our kids... Just us 4...

The most memorable iftar we had as a family was the one @ Changi Beach... Where we bought the famous Changi Nasi Lemak, some fruits & drinks, then drove down to the beach & got ourselves a nice spot @ one of the picnic shelters there, enjoying the sunset while waiting for iftar... It's one of the nicest moments for us... Berbuke pose cume beralaskan surat khabar... I actually said this to my hubby, "Ba, kite dok kat pondok ni buke pose da mcm anak yatim piatu eh... Macam tak de mak bapak... Macam tak de tempat tinggal..."

Hubby's reply was, "Tak per, we still have each other & our kids & most importantly Allah, who is always there for us..."

I smiled when hubby said that but while eating, somehow, it kept me thinking of all the poor & the needy... Macamane agak nyer eh dorang sambot bulan Ramadhan & Syawal nanti? May Allah have mercy upon them... Insya'allah... Kesian dorang...

So to end my blog entry for today, I would like to wish everyone of my family members, Muslim brothers & sister & all those who know me...

"SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN - SALAM EID MUBARAK..."

This might sounds too early but OK la har, coz I noticed that I'm too busy to blog lately & now that I'm hook to Twitter, I seldom blog liao... hee hee... So since I've got this weeny bit of time, why not blog right?

Enjoy your holiday everyone & kalau sesape yang ade kenderaan tu, tolong la pandu berhati2 yer... =)

Till I blog again...

As Salam...

How Am I Suppose To Face Syawal Once Ramadhan Passes Me By...

2010-08-31T12:10:00.006+08:00

Insha Allah
by Maher Zain

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go

Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you commit one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that its way too late
Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way x2

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah we’ll find the way

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How am I supposed to face the month of Syawal once Ramadhan passes me by?

I can't stop thinking of all those people who caused so much hurt to me & my family... Their fake smiles, back stabbing hypocrisies & gossips... I can't stand the sight of them, really... Everyone of them...

I can't stop thinking of loved ones who have passed on before me... How I feel welcomed when they were still alive back then & I still miss them so so much...

I am trying so hard to control myself from breaking down... But I guess this strong barrier of mine just seems to collapse on its own anyway...

"When others show you faces & grudges, remember that Allah will always love you just the way you are & He (by all means) will do His very best to make you feel at ease..."

Guess, I should just leave it to Allah coz He knows what's best for us... I have Him to thank for giving me a family of my own... My life's complete having them with me & a few of those wonderful people who never stop loving me & my family for what we are...

Thank you Anna for sharing this lovely song... It touches my heart, so much so that it makes me shed tears... =')

Random thoughts : Why am I still being so nice & lenient to people who don't even spare a thought for me & my family? May Allah put some kind thoughts in them... Insya'allah... ='(

We've Come This Far Just To Be Together...

2010-08-13T12:40:00.006+08:00

Baba - August 8th 1979...

It is said that who you choose marry with, reflects the type of marriage life you're gonna have... And it's that way of life that will leave an impression to all those around you...

And as husband & wife, happiness & hardships are always shared with one another... Discussions & especially arguments are some things that we have to adapt ourselves with... Whatever we do, we would always relate to one another...

The way we talk is different now compared to our lives before we got married... We learned the meaning of "respect" even more... We learned to be more patient...

I guess as years gone by, it has somehow taught us to be a better husband & wife each day... And of course we all do have flaws, where we learned from it & never to repeat the same mistakes again...

Marriage life is something that shouldn't be taken for granted...

It's about respecting his rights as a husband, the head of the family... And respecting my rights as a wife...

I remembered how Grams gave me this piece of advise the moment she finds out that I'm getting engaged, "You can choose & marry a man who knows how to please you; ugly or handsome he may be. But to marry a man who couldn't even lead you to be a good Muslim wife, that is such a waste. Coz he's gonna be the head of your family one day. And you're gonna bore his children & the lineage continues from there on... Ask Allah whether is he truly the one whom you choose to marry with, the one who will guide your family to be a better Muslim... "

Well, I did alright... Thanks to my Grams for the advise...

And to Baba: Yes, I know, you don't ask much of a birthday surprise... And yet you still got that on your birthday... I guess to you, birthdays are much more meaningful to you when you have people just be as they are & treating you with sincerity in their hearts... A year older and a year wiser, yes you are & will be... Insya'allah, amin... =)

I Guess It's Never Too Late To Say This...

2010-08-13T12:19:00.000+08:00

To All My Family Members, Muslim Brothers & Sisters...

May Allah SWT make us among those who worship Him sincerely, those who do everything for His sake only...

May He give us the strength to fulfill this month of Ramadhan & accept all our deeds...

May He shower His Mercy & Blessing to all of us...

Insya'allah, amin... =)

Tongue Twisters...

2010-08-04T12:43:00.003+08:00

This is fun!!

It kept me vibrantly awake in the office especially when I have month end closing to be done... heh...

1
Peter Piper picked a peck of pickled peppers.
A peck of pickled peppers Peter Piper picked.
If Peter Piper picked a peck of pickled peppers,
Where's the peck of pickled peppers Peter Piper picked?

2
Send toast to ten tense stout saints' ten tall tents.

3
Something in a thirty-acre thermal thicket of thorns and thistles thumped and thundered threatening the three-D thoughts of Matthew the thug - although, theatrically, it was only the thirteen-thousand thistles and thorns through the underneath of his thigh that the thirty year old thug thought of that morning.

by Meaghan Desbiens

4
Six sick hicks nick six slick bricks with picks and sticks.

5
I wish to wish the wish you wish to wish, but if you wish the wish the witch wishes, I won't wish the wish you wish to wish.

6
To sit in solemn silence in a dull, dark dock,
In a pestilential prison, with a life-long lock,
Awaiting the sensation of a short, sharp shock,
From a cheap and chippy chopper on a big black block!
To sit in solemn silence in a dull, dark dock,
In a pestilential prison, with a life-long lock,
Awaiting the sensation of a short, sharp shock,
From a cheap and chippy chopper on a big black block!
A dull, dark dock, a life-long lock,
A short, sharp shock, a big black block!
To sit in solemn silence in a pestilential prison,
And awaiting the sensation
From a cheap and chippy chopper on a big black block!

by W.S. Gilbert of Gilbert and Sullivan from The Mikado

7
Luke's duck likes lakes. Luke Luck licks lakes. Luke's duck licks lakes. Duck takes licks in lakes Luke Luck likes. Luke Luck takes licks in lakes duck likes.
from Dr. Seuss' Fox in Socks

8
Did Dick Pickens prick his pinkie pickling cheap cling peaches in an inch of Pinch or framing his famed French finch photos?

9
How many cookies could a good cook cook If a good cook could cook cookies? A good cook could cook as much cookies as a good cook who could cook cookies.

10
How much wood could Chuck Woods' woodchuck chuck, if Chuck Woods' woodchuck could and would chuck wood? If Chuck Woods' woodchuck could and would chuck wood, how much wood could and would Chuck Woods' woodchuck chuck? Chuck Woods' woodchuck would chuck, he would, as much as he could, and chuck as much wood as any woodchuck would, if a woodchuck could and would chuck wood.

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A Birthday To Remember...

2010-08-02T12:29:00.005+08:00

July 31st, 1981 - 2010...

Thank you Baba, Abang Asil & Adek Asyura,
for the wonderful dinner treats & gift that you bought for Ummi...

Thank you Sis Muz & Bro Yus,

for the yummy chocolate birthday cake...

& for the trouble that all of you (including Baba & Asyura while tired Asil's asleep already) took,

just to wish & sing me a birthday song on the midnite of July 31st, 2010...

Thank you Principal Fidzah Tan (aka Ah Moi) & Teacher Saurah (aka Cousin Lala),

for your efforts of making the cute little handmade birthday card,

with a Pink Blingy Teddy Bear pasted infront of it especially for me...

And to Cousin Lala, thank you once again coz every year without fail,

you would call me up at midnite just to wish me on my birthday...

Thank you colleagues; Wei Feng, Adeline, Chen Yi & Mala,

for the little mini birthday surprise, camwhoring & all...

And to Wak Lan, Cik Yati, Syafiq, Waheedah & Cousin Sufi,

Thank you for remembering my birthday as well...

Thank you ALL,

for making me smile on this day,

coz it made me realise yet again,

I'm a year older & a year wiser...

& am blessed with so many good caring people around me...

And on this day too,

I am forever in His debt...

The air that I breathe,

The chances that He gives me each day,

for sustaining me & keeping me alive on this earth...

Syukur Alhamdulillah... =)

The most wonderful birthday present that I could possibly have is having the love & support from my family, relatives & friends, who're always there no matter rain or shine life would turn out to be...

And most importantly, Him, up there,

For giving me, this ME...

Forever, I'm thankful & grateful...

The Dirtiest Places In The Home...

2010-07-22T12:36:00.000+08:00

Most people are aware of the prevalence of germs in public places. However, they rarely consider those in their own homes, and according to a recent international study, most homes are brimming with germs.

The Hygiene Council, composed of an international board of experts in health and infectious diseases, recently released the results of its 2009 International Home Hygiene Study. The study examined bacteria found in homes in eight countries, including the United States, and identified the most germ-laden areas. (McMains, 2009)

According to Vanessa McMains of the Chicago Tribune (2009), when asked to identify the dirtiest areas in the home, Joe Rubino, council member and director of research and development at Reckitt Benckiser (a sponsor of the council and maker of Lysol products), stated there are eight primary offenders; and his conclusions were supported by a study conducted by the Center for Hygiene and Health in Home and Community at Simmons College in Boston.

According to both the Hygiene Council and the Center for Hygiene and Health in Home and Community, these are the most germ-laden areas in a home:

Kitchen dishcloths and sponges (Seventy percent of sponges contain high levels of bacteria.
Kitchen sink faucets (Half of the faucets in American homes surveyed were covered in bacteria.)
Bathroom tubs and showers (A bathtub might contain 100 times more bacteria than a trashcan, and the shower is the third most germ-laden area in a home.)
Pet food dishes (Pets do not practice good hygiene; plus, most people infrequently wash pet dishes.)
Microwave touch-screens (People put raw meat into the microwave, program the timer, and leave behind E. coli or salmonella on the touch-screen.)
TV remotes (The remote is seldom cleaned and frequently used, so it’s covered with germs.)
Light switches (Bathroom light switches can contain as many germs as a trashcan)
Baby-changing tables (When someone is changing a dirty diaper, anything on or around the area can become contaminated with bacteria)

(Source: McMains, 2009)

According to professional housecleaners, although it is impossible to eradicate all germs from a home, there are yet steps people can take to reduce and even eliminate most germs, not only on the surfaces identified by the Council but other surfaces as well.

Professionals agree with the Council that sponges should be tossed frequently into the dishwasher and dishcloths cleaned in the hot cycle of the washer; however, professionals say that sponges can be placed in the microwave for a few seconds, which effectively kills the germs, and they also suggest that sponges be replaced often and not used for months on end.

The Council advises using a disinfectant spray on the faucets and wiping the microwave’s touch-screen with a disinfectant cleanser (McMains, 2009). Professionals’ additional recommendations are that homeowners use a disinfectant cleanser on all kitchen surfaces, including handles on the refrigerator, stove, and dishwasher; hardware on cabinet doors and drawers; in and around the sink; light switches; and countertops.

The Hygiene Council advises that showers and tubs be disinfected twice a week to rid them of dead-skin cells that carry germs (McMains, 2009); but professionals recommend that homeowners also disinfect sink basins, commode seats, and faucets, since germs accumulate in these areas as well, especially commode seats. In addition, they recommend using a disinfectant spray around baseboards and wiping them down on a regular basis.

In additional, professionals say that since mold and mildew accumulate in showers and around the tub, these areas should be treated with a bleach-based product at least every two weeks. (However, they warn that bleach-based products should not be mixed with other cleansers since doing so can create harmful fumes.)

The Council advises sanitizing TV remotes on a regular basis; disinfecting light switches twice a week, or daily if someone is sick; washing pet dishes; and if one has a baby, frequently cleaning the changing table (McMains, 2009). Additional recommendations by professionals include:

Wiping or spraying all doorknobs with a disinfectant weekly; daily if someone is ill.
Replacing air-conditioner filters monthly because not only does dust accumulate on filters, but also germs.
Disinfecting not only wall light switches, but also switches on lamps.
Disposing of dirty diapers in an airtight container and emptying it frequently.
Cleaning fan blades since dust tends to build up on them.
Wiping out the kitchen sink at least every other day instead of waiting a week for the cleaning service to do it.

Indeed, no home will ever be totally germfree; however, by taking certain precautionary steps, people can, if not totally eradicate all germs, at least eliminate many and, in the process, safeguard not only their own health but also that of their loved ones.

The Wave Song (With Lyric and Sing along) - MrBrown Show Production

2010-07-19T12:35:00.003+08:00

This is awesomely funny!! I love how they created this song about the recent Singapore flood... I laugh like crazy watching it!!

Thanks to my colleague, Wei Feng who had shared this video with me...

Enjoy... =)

P/S: Y'all gotta hit the pause on my Music Player if you wanna watch this vid coz it'll be noisy & all... heh...

My Little Precious...

2010-07-13T12:43:00.001+08:00

Muhamad Isyraq Asil & Nur Ikramina Asyura

(photos courtesy of 3rd Bro & Sis-in-law... hee hee... Thank you!!)

Gosh! They look super cute in both of these pictures...!! =)

Random Thoughts...

2010-07-08T10:34:00.004+08:00

People can be such a selfish, self-centred, narrow-minded, arrogant, rude, brainless, hypocrite, calculative, sickening, short-tempered, liar, actor/actress...

They got the cheek to face everyone that they hate/dislike with a freaking ass mask on their freaking faces & living with it in denial (with a great deal of hypocrisy in their lives) instead of plucking up their freaking so-called arrogant guts & courage to tell it straight to the point...

I'm just gonna sit here LMFAO, watching & observing every single childish & nonsensical moves that you make - being the laughing stock of everyone around you... LOL...

And to think that being the so-called "dominant one" among us makes you feel so freaking proud of your freaking ass self, then, sorry, you're wrong... Instead of trying to make us mad, by observing your ridiculous nonsense, you're just making us all laugh @ your freaking proud ass self much more louder...

Also, FYI, I overheard every single backstabbing & backbiting conversation that you said about me - I heard EVERY SINGLE BITS & PIECES OF IT... This is to let you know that even the walls around you "have ears"... Don't worry, I'm not gonna strike you like a mad woman la har coz compared to you, I think I'm much more well-behaved & more sensible in manner...

Well, I guess this "treat me nice & I'll treat you nicer" thingy doesn't work well for you... What am I to do in order to make this relationship work between you & me? I don't know... Just ignore you or "play pretend" just like how you treat me? Nah... Definitely, that's not my cup of tea... Guess, I'll just move along with the flow la har... See what happens next...

Really so disappointed in you... Can't believe you are actually that "sort of person"...

Guess you forgot that there's this saying, "What goes around, comes around..." Just so you know that Allah is so fair & whatever good or bad deeds that you do, there's always a "one to one exchange" for all of it...

You give flowers, He'll give you flowers (perhaps a much more nicer ones) in return & if you give shit, He'll take that shit & smack it right on your face in return as well too...

Stop living in pretense... Everyone knows what type of person you are already...

You truly deserve the victory of winning the Oscars for all that you said & done... Really... Nice work there!! =)

Please Let Me Find Some Time To Blog...

2010-07-07T12:14:00.003+08:00

You may not be her first, her last, or her only.
She loved before she may love again.
But if she loves you now, what else matters?
She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the 2 of you may never be perfect together.
But if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can.
She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart.
So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give.
Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.

Bob Marley... (1 of my favourite singers of all time...)

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Hubby bought me this as an advance birthday gift... [Thank you Baba!! How much you tried persuading me to get an iphone, my heart is still with LG... Glad you understand... Jazakallahu Khayran... Love you!!]

I love it alot alot alot!! LG's my favourite brand for mobile phones... So freaking happy hubby got this for me... Woo hoo!! Alhamdulillah... =)

Hopefully, this time, I won't be so careless as to lose my mobile phone again, like what had happened to my previous LG KS20.

Got so much to blog about but I just didn't have the time... Got month end closing & reports to settle... Walao!! Bloody irritating sia... Make me freaking busy like crazy... Crap!!

Will definitely try to slot in some time for my blogging... Soon... I hope...

Back To School My Little Darlings... Bollywood Vege!! Here We Come!!

2010-06-24T01:59:00.005+08:00

Alhamdulillah... Syukur...

So I got my Asil to go for his follow-up appointment & the doctor said that my boy's free from HFMD... He's cured completely & is fit to go to school on Thursday...

Speaking of Thursday, the school had organised a family trip excursion with the kids to the "Bollywood Vege Farm"... Hell yeah, I'm going people!! Woo hoo!! Thursday happens to be my OFF day [lucky I checked my roster]... Thanks to Cousin Lala for reminding me about the trip... I totally forgot about it sia... pfft...

Whoaaa... Let me see, this trip was supposed to be held on June 11th but due to the large number of kids who got sick with HFMD, the trip was postponed to a later date...

So, I'm going to spend my time with my kids & their entire school teachers & friends... Other parents would be joining in as well... I'm so hoping to meet & make new "mummy friends" along the way... =)

Menu for the trip would be - LIGHT SNACKS!! I'll be making Tuna & Egg Chunks Mixed in Mayonnaise Sandwiches, Chilli Tuna Sandwiches & I'll be packing some Crackers for the trip also... For sure the kids would love it! Not forgetting their Aunty cum Teacher Lala too... heh... [Suke la tu...]

Gotta hit the sack people... Need to wake in the early morning coz everyone need to be in school latest by 8.30am... My cycling with BLOO & the kids from Anchorvale, in Seng Kang to Bright Kids, in Punggol starts tomorrow y'all... Good nite...

She's Electric...

2010-06-22T23:03:00.008+08:00

She's electric
She's in a family full of eccentrics
She done things I never expected
And I need more time

She's got a sister
And God only knows how I've missed her
And on the palm of her hand is a blister
And I need more time

And I want you to know
I've got my mind made up now
But I need more time

And I want you to say
Do you know what I'm saying?
But I need more

Coz I'll be you and you'll be me
There's lots and lots for us to see
There's lots and lots for us to do
She is electric, can I be electric too?

She's got a brother
We don't get on with one another
But I quite fancy her mother
And I think that she likes me

She's got a cousin
In fact she's got about a dozen
She's got one in the oven
But it's nothing to do with me

And I want you to know
I've got my mind made up now
But I need more time

And I want you to say
Do you know what I'm saying?
But I need more

Coz I'll be you and you'll be me
There's lots and lots for us to see
There's lots and lots for us to do
She is electric, can I be electric too?

Can I be electric too?
Can I be electric too?
Can I be electric too?

[Sang by Oasis...]

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On our way home after getting my paperwork from the office late in the evening, hubby played this song in the car...

Him, "I want you to listen to this song & the lyrics..."
Me, "Why?"
Him, "This song somehow reminds me of you... When we both went steady for so many years... Then decision was finally voiced out to get engaged & everything... How I wasn't prepared yet for what's to come... How you said we should do something about this long term relationship... You just listen la... The lyrics suits you... Well not all la, coz you don't have a sister, so minus that one off... Listen to the song carefully..."

Well so I did... I pretty much smiled all the way listening to it... Having a relationship with him for 9 years... Having my parents chasing him for an engagement ring bla bla bla... Both of us still thinking that we're not up for it yet (with the type of person each of us were, once before)... Both still wanna have fun... "Enjoy life to the fullest, party people!!", they say... Yup! We were once like that...

I guess, once you've reached that certain stage... When you have this sick & tired feeling that you don't wanna be going around with that kinda life & that kinda stuffs anymore coz all of that is such a bore & there's nothing gained from it... pfft... So we decided to pull the handbrake & think about us, our relationship & how far can this relationship go further... =)

Love you Baba...

Still Working From Home While Taking Care Of The Kids...

2010-06-21T17:18:00.006+08:00

(Photo Courtesy of Cousin Lala) See how happy Asil is playing with the educational puzzle bought by his Aunt Lala... =)

As Salam Peepz,

I just got back from the clinic with my kids... Had a follow-up appointment with the doctor with regards to Asil's HFMD...

Seriously, can somebody tell me why is there no vaccine for this HFMD thingy? It's like beginning to piss me off... I mean, isn't there any doctors, professors or researchers who could at least TRY finding a vaccine to solve this contagious disease or something?

Me to the doctor, "Seriously ar doctor... There isn't any vaccine for this HFMD?"
Him (shooking his head), "I'm afraid no there isn't..."
Me (feeling pissed), "Well, I guess they are too busy finding vaccines for other bigger more serious illnesses than this so very contagious one that could easily be transferred from 1 kid to another..."
Doctor, "(speechless)"

Alhamdulillah, Asyura's cured & free from HFMD already... Well, I guess, it's just Asil now... He still has ulcers in his mouth & going back to school for him is a "no-no"... His appetite is improving slowly... I hope he'll be able to gain his weight back coz he really looks skinny now...

There's always a reason behind everything & it's thanks to this HFMD that I'm able to somehow spend more time with my kids @ home... Well minus off their mood-swings, tantrums & sibling fights, other than that, I'm fine having them with me...

Need hubby's help to send me to the office later in the evening (as usual) for me to get all the paperwork back home... Bloody hell!! Work can be so never ending & tiring much... I hate having piles & piles of unfinished stuffs on my table waiting for me to clear them up... Office work had to be done @ home again for me... pfft...

I'm gonna be taking care of my kids @ home till June 23rd, by then, I still need to bring my Asil for another follow-up appointment with the doctor again...

Allah Answers...

2010-06-19T03:43:00.016+08:00

A story to be shared...

A young man had been to a Wednesday Night Class of Quranic Studies. The Mualim had shared about listening to Allah & obeying Allah through intuition. The young man couldn't help but wonder, "Does Allah still speak to people thru intuition?"

After Lessons, he went out with some friends for coffee & pie, & they discussed the message. Several different ones talked about how Allah had led them in different ways & that @ the end, you'll know it was Allah s.w.t Who has directed you.

It was about 10 o'clock when the young man started driving home.

It was about ten o'clock when the young man started driving home. Sitting in his car, he just began to pray, "Allah... If you still speak to people, speak to me. I will listen. I will do my best to obey."

As he drove down the main street of his town, he had the strangest thought to stop & buy a gallon of milk. He shook his head & said out loud, "Allah is that you?"

He didn't get a reply & started on towards home. But again, the thought, buy a gallon of milk came into his head.

"OK, Allah, in case that is you, I will buy the milk." It didn't seem like too hard a test of obedience. He could always use the milk. He stopped & purchased the gallon of milk & started off towards home.

As he passed 7th Street, he again felt the urge, "Turn Down that street."

This is crazy, he thought, & drove on past the intersection. Again, he felt that he should turn down 7th Street...

At the next intersection, he turned back & headed down 7th. Half jokingly, he said out loud, "OK, Allah, I will."

He drove several blocks, when suddenly, he felt like he should stop. He pulled over to the curb & looked around. He was in a semi-commercial area of town. It wasn't the best but it wasn't of neighbourhoods either. The businesses were closed & most of the houses looked dark like the people were already in bed.

Again, he sensed something, "Go & give the milk to the people in the house across the street."

The young man looked at the house. It was dark & it looked like the people were either gone or they were already asleep. He started to open the door & then sat back in the car seat.

"Allah, this is insane. Those people are asleep & if I wake them up, they are going to be mad & I will look stupid." Again, he felt like he should go & give the milk.

Finally, he opened the door, "OK Allah s.w.t, if this is you, I will go to the door & give them the milk. If you want me to look like a crazy person, OK. I want to be obedient. I guess that will count for something, but if they don't answer right away, I am out if here."

He walked across the street & rang the bell. He could hear some noise inside. A man's voice yelled out, "Who is it? What do you want?"

Then, the door opened before the young man could get away. The man was standing there in his jeans & T-shirt. He looked like he just got out of bed. He had a strange look on his face & he didn't seem too happy to have some stranger on his doorstep. "What is it?"

The young man thrust out the gallon of milk, "Here, I brought this to you."

The man too the milk & rushed down the hallway. Then from down the hall came a woman carrying the milk towards the kitchen. The man was following her holding a baby. The baby was crying. The man had tears streaming down his face.

The man began speaking & half crying, "We were just praying. We had some big bills this month & we ran out of money. We didn't have any milk for our baby. I was just praying & asking Allah s.w.t to show me how to get some milk."

His wife in the kitchen yelled out, "I ask him to send an Angel with some. Are you an Angel?"

The young man reached into his wallet & pulled out all the money he had on him & put it in the man's hand. He turned & walked back towards his car & the tears were streaming down his face.

He knew that Allah s.w.t still answers prayers.

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I've been to this stage of getting intuitions for so many times...

At first, I was as sceptical as the young man in this story... But the moment when I experienced it (first hand) that Allah actually answered, I was shocked, overjoyed & sad, all @ once... & just like the young man in this story, I cried too... Coz it was hard to believe...

I mean, I'm not someone who prays 5 times a day 24/7... I admit that I do miss my prayers... This hijab-covered me, I do have my flaws & everything... & to have Him answering to my "distress calls" is really a 1 true blessing that I can never erase from my memory & will be kept inside of me always...

Yes, I do miss my prayers but I always make an effort to pray as & when I have the chance to do so...

Speaking of which...

I know that there are people out there (sadly to say all these people are from the same race & religion as I am) who said this, "You think all hijab ladies are good? You think they pray 5 times a day? Some wear hijabs but they don't cover their dignity properly & might as well they go around naked without a hijab... They go around doing sins & don't even take their prayers seriously... bla bla bla..."

Well, I got something to say to you "people haters & critics"... This is just from MY OWN POINT OF VIEW & it's my blog, it's my thoughts, it's my say anyway...

The reason why I put on a hijab is becoz as a Muslim woman, we're command to do so & it takes years for me to decide on this... Putting on a hijab is not a matter of just wearing it "on & off", it's gonna be with me thru out my whole entire life... Read your Quran & your hadiths everything is clearly written... Well unless if you're someone whose illiterate or too ignorant to even bother reading la har...

Also about praying... I believe whatever deeds I do, it's between me & Allah... & Everything that I do, it's for the sake Allah as well... Like I said, yes, I do miss my prayers... But I always make an effort to pray whenever I had the chance... Compare it to NOT PRAYING at all... So you tell me, which is better?

Allah is The Most Forgiving & The Most Merciful & He's The All Knowing & to sum it all up for you people - Allah knows me better than you do... Eh HALO! I can't be going around telling everyone, "Eh! I've done my prayer already... Eh! I did my zikr also..."

Come on la people. Kindly open up your minds & eyes WIDE ENOUGH for you to see yourself & those related to you... You talk about hijab ladies & prayer to me? You talk about dignity, sins & flaunting ones body to me? So what about you or your sister or your mother or grandmother or your granddaughter or your daughter or your wife? Have you ever FOR ONCE look at them?

I pity you la har... Too busy criticising people around you... You have a pile of crap right in your own backyard & there's nothing that you can do about it? tsk tsk tsk...

Stop judging others... Look @ your own backyard... Indeed you have yourself to judge & also not forgetting your sister or your mother or your grandmother or your granddaughter or your daughter or your wife...

If hijab ladies are that bad & obnoxious like what you said & think, then what makes you?

Seriously, you're just waiting for "bad karma" to punch you right in your face...

The Day I Spent My Time With The Kids @ The Park...

2010-06-16T02:07:00.006+08:00

Huwaaaargh!! Finally!! Uploaded the photos that I took when I brought the kids to the neighbourhood park with my Bloo & feed the fishes in the pond... Then, off to give them an ice-cream treat @ Compass Point, before bringing them over to a nearby playground... heh...

Obviously these photos were taken way back when the kids weren't hit with the HFMD yet... pfft...

Oh!! Just a little update... My Asil's infected with the HFMD virus today... I brought him to the same doctor to be examined & yup!! He's got the virus alright... But his ulcers were a bit more awful compared to Asyura's... He got like 5 ulcers on the tip of his tongue & a few more at the side of it plus, blisters had began to develop @ his upper lips as well...

He's feeling a bit feverish & his appetite's no good... Seriously keeping me worried...

I tell you, emotionally, I feel like crying... Coz, 1st it was Asyura & now, it's Asil... One after another... Gosh!!

It's really so true when they say that, once you're a mom, Allah will definitely give you the courage & strength to face the challenges ahead (be it physically or emotionally)... 1 of that challenges (for me) is this... I've my kids to take care of, my office work to be done & also, not forgetting the household chores... Really, nothing beats the challenges of being a mom... The sacrifices that a mom has to go thru... Juggling with work @ home & nursing the kids (with their temperamental tantrums) all @ the same time...

Definitely, I am thankful... Some way, some how, being a mom had taught me to be multi-task, to always think of the family no matter where I go or whatever I do especially when it comes to spending $$$ & also, to be more independent...

I'm just glad He gives me this opportunity of a lifetime... Alhamdulillah...

My thanks to hubby for being understanding... For helping me out with lunch & dinner, by giving us all "take-away treats" coz some how, he knows I'm feeling kinda exhausted with everything @ home... Love you Baba... And our kids... =)

SLIDE uploaded...

My Lil Asyura's 1st Hair Cut...

2010-06-16T00:54:00.005+08:00

As Salam Peepz,

OK...

These photos were taken a month back... (Sesunggoh nyer aku tersangat la "lagging" untok meng-update gamba2 ni & yang sewaktu dengan nyer... lol...) There's more to be uploaded by the way... I mean MORE...

It was Asyura's 1st haircut in a hairsalon... Eversince she's a baby, her hair was usually cut by me... So this time round, I decided to just let the pros do the haircutting for her la har...

Situated at Compass Point in Sengkang, "Okinawa Haircut Styling Facial" charges their customers for a haircut @ only 10 bucks regardless of what kind of hairstyle you want them to have your hair cut for you... Not bad... Quite cheap la har, for a starter like Asyura...

I was very impressed by my girl's well-behaved manner... Well, she did freaked out at 1st, but slowly, she got the hang of it coz I was right by her side thru out the whole haircutting thingy...

The 3 Of Us...

2010-06-14T02:10:00.009+08:00

Someway, somehow we are related - the 3 of us...

Cousins, sisters, in-laws, girl friends...

We are all of that...

Seldom seeing each other - busy with our own lives & responsibilities,

But everytime when we meet,

We'll always burst into jokes & laughter...

Each one of us - A grown up woman...

A woman with feelings & yearnings...

A woman with high hopes & dreams...

What stays in each of our hearts?

Our history...

The past, present & future...

Will we make it? Can we overcome it all?

Insya'allah...

We will...

Amin...

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To the 2 of you...
You know who you are...

Wherever you go & whatever you do,

Remember that there's always this, ME,

Who will always think of you & wishing you well...

May Allah take good care of you for me... =)

No matter how far or how long we have yet to see each other again...

Love you guys "deep deep"...

Lil Asyura's Hit With HFMD...

2010-06-11T13:53:00.006+08:00

As Salam People,

Basically I'm babysitting the kids while working from home...

My girl's got the HFMD virus since Wednesday night... Teacher Zura called saying that she spotted 2 small ulcers in her mouth & suggested that I brought my girl to the clinic for a check-up... So I got the doctor in our neighbourhood clinic to examine her & for sure she has got the virus alright... And the ulcers had somehow spread to her tongue...

It's a possibility that my boy's gonna get the virus too since both are siblings... Well, it's just a matter of time la har... At the moment, he's grounded together with his sister. Both of them are refrain from going to school by the doctor's instruction... (sigh)

Glad I got a very understanding Lady Boss... The trust that she had in me for years of working with her... I'm just so so glad that she understands my situation...

And it's not surprised that during my absence, there's still this 1 particular sickening human who just loves to budge in my department's schedule... (Well, what to do... In life, there's always that 1 BITCH who just loves to test your limits in whatever you do & wherever you go & however quiet you may be as well... pfft... BITCH!!)

[What's up with you @#%^*?! You are in another department so why bother much about mine? Yes, we were once in the same department but HALO! MYOB can or not, you sickening ass biatch!! There's only 2 staffs in my department, & that's me & my partner in crime... We don't need you to so-called "help us out bla bla bla" during the weekend office duty... Once bitten, twice shy, if you get what I mean la har... We're never gonna swop duties with you since we know the type of sickening person you are... So buzz off!! Guess you got no guts to ask me & that's the reason why you decided to ask my partner in crime instead... Well, to hell with you... We don't buy your CRAP!! Coz everytime you "feel" like helping us out, there's always "YOUR REASON" behind it... So SCREW YOU!!]

I managed to take 2 photos of Asyura showing 1 of the ulcers on her tongue. The photos weren't that clear I might say... That's the best I could do coz I tried asking her to open her mouth wide enough for me to take a full picture with my digicam but she complained that it's too painful for her to do that... Pity her... She couldn't even eat french fries (her favourite food) coz the salt on the fries would hurt her when it comes in contact with her ulcers... (sigh)

Get well soon darling... Hope nothing's gonna happen to your big brother as well... So far so good for him... Alhamdulillah... =)

Right now blisters are beginning to appear on her fingers & foot as well... I'm so praying hard that it's gonna be OK soon... Hope she will be fine by next week... Insya'allah... Amin...

Photos uploaded above...

Hum Drum of The Day...

2010-06-09T13:00:00.001+08:00

Bitch...

Backstabber, with a pinch of self-centredness, a little bit of ego,
and a lot of hypocrite tendances...
The ingredients for the perfect bitch...
Everyone in their life runs into that one bitch that you just cannot tolerate,
Neither can your stomach...

The Rich Bitch: Everything must be about her coz didn't you like get the memo? This is her universe, we just live in it.

The Ghetto Bitch: DRAMA! If there isn't any, she makes some.

The Slutty Bitch: Steals best friend's boy, then cheats on him with his best friend, and she can't figure out why her friends hate her.

The Bitch Who Doesn't Know She's a Bitch: The only reason she has friends is because her friends don't want to hurt her poor feelings.

The Bitch Who Knows She's a Bitch: Has tons of friends because everyone thinks she's a cool bad ass.

Then there's the PMS Bitch: Really sweet kind hearted girl but once you do something to piss her off, or annoy her, she's a bitch, and that bitch is me.

By Brandi Young

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Nice one...

So anyone feel like slaughtering any sickening "biatch-es"?

Back In The Ofis - Bored, Sick & Lazy...

2010-06-09T12:53:00.003+08:00

How I wish the doctor would give me Medical Leave for like 5 days to a week... (sigh)

I can take fever, stomach cramps & even body aches... But to catch a flu virus plus a bad cough & a sore throat? Walao... This one I really cannot tahan... Nose blocked, throat hurts & my head feels like there's a tonne of weight resting on top of it...

Couldn't sleep well these past few days...

My partner in crime (who's also my colleague) is on MC today... I think I transferred some of my virus to her & maybe that's the reason why she's sick... lol... [Get well soon hor Ah Moi so that we can talk cock, sing song & do work together in the office...]

Had vegetarian lunch today... Just manage to eat a quarter of it & wasted the rest... No appetite la... Wonder what's my weight now... Still @ a stagnant 60kg? Or drop to at least half a kilo... I really wanna shed those pounds off of me...

Had loads of work to be done but I just don't have the mood... I'm still in SICK-MODE if you get what I mean... So reaction to work is a little bit SLO-MO... Can I like go home half a day? Coz I really really wanna go home & rest, rest, rest coz I'm still sick, sick, sick!!

Bro Yus & Sis Muz bought a little Spiderman Costume for my little Asil [Thanks for the "ole-ole" that you guys bought for all of us!! We love it!! Buat susah2 jer... Lain kali kalau gi Malaysia bawakkan tu Petronas Twin Tower balek skali k k k.. I miss KL, my cousins, aunt, niece & nephews who're living there la...] on their holiday trip to Malaysia... See!! He sure looks like a little Spiderboy... heh...

Just hope he doesn't end up doing like what the little boy in the photo below is doing... lol...

OK, lunch time's over... Back to work y'all...

Walao... 5 more hours till 6pm... Crap!! pfft...

Dearest Neighbour...

2010-06-08T18:02:00.008+08:00

Eversince, I stayed 1 floor lower than you, I noticed how you have this bad habit of hanging all your washed clothes dripping wet right outside the kitchen window...

Did you try spinning the excess water off your wet clothes 1st, before hanging them out to let dry? Don't you have any washing machine or something at home? Coz seriously, all that water dripping from your wet clothes is pretty inconvenient for me to look at & tolerate... heh...

I mean, HALO... We're staying in HDB block apartments & if you keep on hanging your dripping wet laundry like that, then, what about the rest of your neighbours who lived right underneath you? All that water dripping would only make our clothes wetter... Don't you think?

I'm on Medical Leave for 2 days & spent 2 entire days @ home... I was @ the kitchen when, I saw that water dripping again...

The part where you hang all your wet bras outside the kitchen window & just let the water dripped from it really irritates me... I couldn't help it la har... I gotta take a picture of your bloody wet bras plus rug & upload it in my blog...

P/S: Nice bras you got there... But to have them all hung dripping wet like that? (sigh)... Speechless... I think you should get yourself a dryer... -.-"

Happy 12th Birthday To My Youngest Brother...

2010-06-08T00:28:00.009+08:00

(from right) My late uncle, Wak Mi with me & my lil bro, Adam...

June 7th, 1998...

This was the date, that you were born...

I remembered how I was going all panicky crazy when mom's waterbag burst & everyone's home except dad... He, was "unreachable"...

I remembered how I called Pak Long & Mak Long (paternal side of the family who stayed in the same neighbourhood) in the wee hours of the morning for help, to send mom to the KK Women's & Children's Hospital...

And again, the same question asked by my Pak Long, "Where's your dad? Does he know that your mom is delivering your adek soon?"

I answered, "Nope Pak Long... He's unreachable... We tried calling him so many times but just couldn't get him..."

I remembered how I sat in between both of my Pak Long & Mak Long... How pissed my Pak Long was when he tried calling dad who, yet still, was unreachable... He was so so pissed... Mak Long on the other hand, was rubbing my back, telling me to be strong as I'm the eldest child in the family & I must have the courage & patience to go thru all of this...

"Always be strong in whatever situation that comes even if we feel like crying", she said... This, I will always remember...

I remembered, how Alep was sleeping on my lap snoring like crazy... lol... How he forgot to bring his "bantal busok" along with him... lol...

I remembered how I kept worrying about mom who was all alone in the delivery ward without dad by her side... I mean, HALO!! Every wife needs her husband in times like this but WHERE WAS DAD?

He came alright... But @ the very last moment... Macam star karat dengan muke tak bersalah... Whatever...

I could vividly remember how he walked & looked like as he entered the waiting room area, walking towards us... And how @ that very moment, I felt like punching his face...

Then you came into this world... So innocently adorable & cute... A baby who know nuts on what's happening around him...

A month later, mom had to work coz dad wasn't like any other "DAD"... So mom had to be our "DAD" while her role of being a "MOM" was given to me...

I took care of you & Alep... Gave treats to the both of you whenever I got my pay from working as a part-time cashier... Cooked for you 2, fed you 2, bathe you...

I never left you outta my side, be it group studies or even when I went out on dates with Abang Rizal & people would always mistook you for our son... lol... Hilarious much... heh...

I disciplined you, taught you what's wrong & what's right... I scolded & even smacked you... But @ the end of it, I would always give you a big hug & a kiss, & said I'm sorry & that there's a reason why I had to do that as my last resort...

The part when I saw both you & Alep cried on the night of my wedding solemnisation saddens me... Truly I was touched & sad & felt like crying...

I recalled all those moments when I took care of my siblings... Everything that I had to go thru being the eldest sibling in the family... Indeed, I held back my tears... Me, always trying to act "tough" not wanting to cry infront of others...

Sesunggoh nye, I truly missed my siblings & my pet cat Black... I hope Allah would help me send my message down to them & tell them how much I truly misses them & that I always think of them as much as I think of my own family...

To my dearest littlest youngest brother, Muhammad Sahadam Bin Abu Bakar:

Wishing You A Wonderful 12th Birthday... May Allah guide & shield you wherever you may be...

May you grow up to be someone who is useful to Allah, Islam, family & to the society... Insya'allah, amin...

I'm hoping that some day, some how, you'll be able to find & read this entry that I wrote especially for you coz you're 1 of those few that I misses most... A part of my flesh & blood... The one whom I took care of since you were a baby...

Love you Adek...

From Kakak... ='I

Respect...

2010-06-06T01:57:00.004+08:00

Respect is what you earn not command
That is something some find hard to understand
You earn respect if respect you do show
From people in your life you've come to know

Of Respect or lack of we do read of and hear
Though this is a thing that cannot be born of fear
Of somebody who has power over you
In your feigned respect your feelings are not true.

Many may respect and admire the high achievers of the town
And applaud them on their journey to renown
But with the many some do disagree
Through different eyes we see things differently.

Respect is something you can only show
For one that you feel privileged for to know
And of any shackles true respect is free
That's how it is and that's how it will always be.

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It is time to change the way you talk to people
Because I personally think it is very rude
And nobody else will tolerate that
Besides me
You need to respect people
If you want to get respect from them
Because it works 2 ways
First you have to give some respect
In order for you to get some respect from them

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Tried my best to brush this "hatred" feeling inside of me aside, but it seems that every sickening reaction this human makes, pisses me off...

Well, maybe because I'm too quiet, don't talk much type of person... Too lenient la har... Maybe I'm not the "mulot LASER" type of person... Maybe that's the reason why I always have rude ass humans around who always love to test my patience... Also, a part of it is maybe, because I always put this habit of forgiving to whatever shit that comes by - every single day...

Seriously, YOU DON'T WANNA SEE THE UGLY SIDE OF ME... I will explode if provoke... Believe me I will... So try bottle up my patience up to the max & you'll see what you get...

All of the above, are my reflections of YOU...

Also, if YOU don't fancy US, so what makes YOU freakingly think that WE fancy YOU?

YOU, who pretends to like us...
YOU, who loves comparing your so-called perfect family life with others...
YOU, who loves to look down upon us like we're a bunch of so-called UNEDUCATED IDIOTS...
YOU, who loves to talk so braggartly...

Don't YOU dare for a freaking second think that WE ARE NOT AWARE OF EVERYTHING AROUND US...

After the "drama-mama-scenario" that took place a few years back, I tried so hard to like YOU back... Tried to forgive you & brush everything aside... But time & time again, your actions just pisses me off...

Seriously, the RESPECT that I had for YOU, just flew off the freaking window... Not a single R-E-S-P-E-C-T is left... Nope... Nada...

The Cutest Kitty I've Ever Seen In My New Neighbourhood...

2010-06-05T16:42:00.004+08:00

I've always love furry animals & cats are 1 of my favourites...

I saw this little kitty near my block, on my way home, after fetching the kids from school... He's soooo cute, cuddly & furry & whatever cutie pie words you could think of... Reminds me of my pet cat, Black @ mom's crib back in Yishun...

Rindu sangat2 aku kat Black...

How I wish I could bring my Black here to Sengkang with me... (sigh)...

So untok melepaskan rindu, aku sempat ajak anak2 aku dok melepak & main2 dengan kuceng kecik yang cute tu...

SLIDE uploaded...

When Grams Was Recently Admitted In The Hospital...

2010-06-05T15:56:00.004+08:00

As Salam Peepz,

Finally, I got the time to really sit & blog...

So recently, hubby & I went to visit Grams @ the hospital... Managed to take some pictures there...

Seeing Grams, it kept me thinking... Manusia ni... Semakin hari, semakin melanjot usia... We'll all grow old & slowly wither... Will the kids take good care of us when we reach to that stage? Will they be able to tolerate our "penyaket tua" & whatever that comes with it? Will we be able to go thru that stage of being old & sick?

Wallahualam... Allah knows...

Anyway, I'm glad we managed to see Grams & spent some time with her... She was pretty happy to see us...

I know I seldom visit her... But insya'allah, I'll definitely make it a point to always give her call once in a while to check on her...

Thank you Baba, for your company, for taking half a day off & for giving Nenek a Chicken Rice treat... I really appreciate it... Love you... =)

Yes, I Agree With You On This, xoxocells... =)

2010-06-03T12:56:00.005+08:00

"Sometimes people should understand the difference between talking bad and stating facts. I really think that if there's a language problem, go brush up on it. Don't get yourself into soup with others because of your misinterpret certain words.

When we state facts, from time to time there are people who refuse to acknowledge that it's a fact instead, they wish to continue living in their world of denial and believe that it's just other bad mouthing the other party. Sigh. It's really such a pity. I was getting over it and moving on when the horrible words had to come back. I don't care what you think, there's always a freedom of speech vice versa."

xoxocells

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Taken from 1 of my new found friends's Live Journal post...

I love reading her LJ... She somehow reminds me of me... My teenage me... heh...

I'm glad I got my kids to enroll in their present Child Care Centre & I'm glad that my favourite cousin works there too... Coz from there, I met & make new friends... =)

I Really Hope I Could Read One's Heart...

2010-06-03T12:37:00.002+08:00

People are unreasonable, illogical & self-centered. Love them anyway.

If you do good, people may accuse you of selfish motives. Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you may win false friends & true enemies. Succeed anyway.

The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.

Honesty & transparency make you vulnerable. Be honest & transparent anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway.

People who really want help may attack you if you help them. Help them anyway.

Give the world the best you have & you may get hurt. Give the world your best anyway.

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As Salam Peepz...

Not been blogging for days... Busy with office work... Crap... Pfft... Month end closing sucks big time... Top it up with new sickening "ngee yau" customers for our billing department.... wah seh... Also our internal server was down for 2 freaking days... Huwaaaargh!! Can die I tell you... Vomit blood...

My Baba was feeling kinda sad, pissed & disappointed this morning. He shared with me his story & it made me feel the same way too... A disappointment... Really... (sigh)

May The Almigty have mercy upon all of us & may He always guide us in doing the right thing for everyone (including ourselves)... Insya'allah, amin...

Hati manusia... Memang susah nak bace... Bole berubah bile2 mase... Sesunggohnye aku ingin mencube mendalami & mengkaji ilmu "bidang hati" seseorang manusia itu... Jadi lebih mudah bagiku untok mengetahui isi hati mereka yang sebenar-benar nye... It will definitely make my life easier... Amin...

I've many stuffs to update in my blog... Latest photos, blog entries etc... Just don't have the time to REALLY sit & blog... Soon I hope...

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Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep people away, but to see who cares enough, to tear those walls down...

This Is Funny...

2010-05-24T12:43:00.000+08:00

Random Thoughts...

2010-05-24T12:04:00.003+08:00

When you do not treat yourself the way you want others to treat you, you can never change the way things are...

Your actions are your powerful thoughts, so if you do not treat yourself with love & respect, you are emitting a signal that is saying you are not important enough, worthy enough, or deserving...

That signal will continue to be broadcast, & you will experience more situations of people not treating you well...

The people are just the effect...

Your thoughts are the cause...

You must begin to treat yourself with love & respect, & emit that signal & get on that frequency...

Then the law of attraction will move the entire Universe, & your life will be full of people who love & respect you...

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From this point on...

I'm going to treat people exactly how they treat me...

Some should be glad...

Others should be scared...

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Do not pray for an easy life...

Pray for strength to endure a difficult one...

Bored Like Crazy...

2010-05-23T18:08:00.002+08:00

Twitter Posts...

lilyashburn weekend in d ofis wit my lil gerl... she woke up early in de freakin mornin already...

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti hw is she? stil usin oxygen mask?

saurahsayuti @lilyashburn im nt sure. blom tengok dier lagi for today. later be going though...

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti i wil go tomoroe i think. c hw de plan is with hubby. at wrk wit asyura. oh n she saw ur face in twitpic she said AUNTY LALA!

saurahsayuti @lilyashburn ahahahaa. ookayyy. ah action eh nampak aku panggil aunty lala. kat skolah nampak aku, buat bodo lagi ader... hahaa.

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti serioussss? member kat skola buat bodo dgn kau. oh i noe y becoz she got 1 senior minah rep jaga her. tchr zura. lol.

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti hw's de minahrep? she ok?

saurahsayuti @lilyashburn minahrep? lol. still the same. minahrep as everr.. heh.

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti tel her (de minah rep Sutinah) i said "hi"...

lilyashburn i feel fed up workin here sumtimes. feel like changin job. becum a cab driver. ok wat! got my own car. b my own boss. juggle my own time.

lilyashburn surfin d mcd website for mcd delivery... whoaaaa!! beef quarter pounder is too much 4 me...

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti wei aunty lala! anak sedare kau asyura da tido. membe nyanyi aunty lalalalala. den tros doze off! mcm makcik diye jugak siao!

lilyashburn cb la mcD website laggin..

lilyashburn ok its cmf!! mcd for lunch! woo hoo!! i'm lovin it!

_wda @lilyashburn now ure make me feel like eating quarter pounder. hhmphhh.

lilyashburn @_wda tel u wat i m eatin. mcnuggets, mc spicy n fillet.. lol... talk bout losin weight... lol...

_wda @lilyashburn HAHAA! thanks ehhh kakkk. buat org laparrrr. ggrrr.

saurahsayuti @_wda @lilyashburn dier gitu ah. part orang puaser dier kacau. part orang lapar dier kacau. btol peh takde keje...

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti @_wda wei! mmg aku suke kacau org tgh lapa. ahahah!! (sigh) da lame betol aku tk makan kat POPEYE... hee hee...

lilyashburn @_wda lol... yok makan yok!! i order online tgh ade delivery charge promo. $2 delivery charge instead of de usual $3. =)

_wda @lilyashburn hahahaa. okk i order, u pay ok? =D

lilyashburn @_wda ok per y not... once in a blue moon blanje org makan... dpt jugak berkat nye... amin... =))

dyalycious Doing waxing n threading. Best la. (@ First Impression Beauty Saloon) http://4sq.com/a4Bmos

lilyashburn @dyalycious finally!! u do de waxin & threadin!! u go gerl!! =) ingat eh no cukor adam k...

dyalycious @lilyashburn yeah...tapi best la kak ummi buat threading. Addict plak.hehehee

lilyashburn @dyalycious : threadin wat i heard is it makes ur face mcm refresh lepas tu.. =) ye tk? glad u r happy.

fidzahtan @lilyashburn best nyer!so what did u cook smlm?

fidzahtan Just wokeup! N shall start my vacuming,moppin,laundry, scrubing oF toilet soon :)

lilyashburn @fidzahtan semlm mom's nt cookin coz got leftovers frm fri's cookin sliced beef in black pepper sauce... *slurp*

fidzahtan @lilyashburn hwcome sunday wrking?ofice opens on sunday?

lilyashburn @fidzahtan today also nt cookin coz i m in d ofis with ASYURA!! tchr zura's (aka SENIOR minah rep) minah rep JUNIOR... woo hoo!!

lilyashburn @fidzahtan yup our ofis opens evry bloody dy 24/7 machin runnin non-stop... pfft.

lilyashburn @fidzahtan soooo... wat u cook ystrdy? maken ape ar?

lilyashburn @fidzahtan eh! u also like me ar. auto wake up den auto do housework before mandi... power ke per... ahahahaha!!

lilyashburn ok my lil gerls fully wide awake n singin by herself. lagu ape pon aku tk tau si anak dare pelat ni.. lol...

lilyashburn wanna watch shrek - de final chapter... wat say u ppl? mcm gerek gitu...

fidzahtan @lilyashburn u beter get ticks asap! 1 of e student mum said very fast selling! She watching tday smlm dah book! Sooo cepat :)

lilyashburn @fidzahtan o serious ar... ok thks

lilyashburn mcd lunch is here!! jempot makan!!

blushwax Enjoying magnum gold on this hot hot day.

lilyashburn @blushwax huwaaaargh magnum gold. i also 1....

blushwax @lilyashburn freaking nice lar....kalau Kau dekat mmg aku dah bagi satu.

lilyashburn @blushwax wah sei... i on d other hand tgh mkn mc nuggets... lol

fidzahtan See!I'm havg stomachache alredi!hungry, I even ate e corn!

saurahsayuti @fidzahtan whoa! you? corn? mampus. hahahah. go eat proper food laaaa... f&a cookies? :p

fidzahtan @saurahsayuti I ate proper food lorrr unlike YOU! I had rice, egg sauce,sardine, veegie mixed veg potato :)

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti @fidzahtan aunty fidzah kite makan corn? biar betol... badan da kuros giler la. g la makan seekor lembu ke ape... ahahahaha!!

fidzahtan @lilyashburn @saurahsayuti no lah I had rice! I posted my brunch pix laaa.. But mum cook veggie ader corn

lilyashburn @fidzahtan @saurahsayuti... k k ... nxt time make sure u tempek a bigger n clearer pic k...

fidzahtan @saurahsayuti f&a cookies tadi when I just wokeup! N yest I had ljs too for dinner n gemuk or what! Mati man!

lilyashburn @fidzahtan hahaha... i also have f&a cookies with me... n its deliciously crispy n yummy n wateva u can tink of...

fidzahtan @lilyashburn sedapppp kan :) I knowwwww :) hehe @saurahsayuti takde!hahahaha

lilyashburn @fidzahtan wei... mushroom soup recipe mane la... =(

fidzahtan @lilyashburn alamak..okok insyaallah soon lah! Nw I startg my maria job nanti kena sack tak buat keje betul betul

saurahsayuti @fidzahtan and btw, i too, eat proper fooddd okayy. i never tell you only :P

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti @fidzahtan no la where aunty lala got eat proper food. she eat grass like de kambengs dlm kandangs... ahahaha!!

saurahsayuti @fidzahtan eh halo. i no f&a cookies now. later i go buyyyyy ahhh! then show off to u! :P :P

fidzahtan @saurahsayuti ohh pls u buy for what when u don't eat and savour em! Right @lilyashburn ?

lilyashburn right u r definitely right @fidzahtan u buy for wat ar @saurahsayuti ? campak ar to us both. we can eat for u... lol... asyura pon can help.

lilyashburn apparently my lil gerl is doin her poopin in her diapers. n she's makin de whole ofis smellssssss... baik ah dek... buat lagi kuat bau tu k.

lilyashburn wahai la anakku cepat la kau neran tahi tu.. skarg satu ofis da bau wahai anak... mak kau mcm nk kena sempot ni... *panting*

fidzahtan @lilyashburn hahaha so funny! Nw u know? Smeeellly imagine 7kids passmotion almost at same time how awesome e smell wld be?

lilyashburn @fidzahtan dats nt awesum sia. dats suffocatism... lol...

_wda @lilyashburn why are u working on a SUNDAY? sampai bawak asyura gi kerje lagi. whoaaa.

lilyashburn @_wda my wrkplc opens 24/7 n its my turn 2 b on duty tis wk... pfft... hv 2 bring asyura la coz she woke up n saw me leavin. (>.<)

_wda @lilyashburn ohhh. hahaa. nasib BK tak bukak on sundays eh. kalau tak pon nanti drg kene gi skolah. hehee @saurahsayuti

lilyashburn @_wda @saurahsayuti (hmmmm) hw i wish bk cud open on sunday @fidzahtan

fidzahtan @lilyashburn open sunday! Can!I charge double! U take care of her lah! Put at my plc :)

lilyashburn @fidzahtan wei!! siao!! put ur plc n i take care ar. den i no nid 2 cum ofis. lol =P

fidzahtan @lilyashburn alamak!typo! I take care of her lah! Hahaha

lilyashburn @fidzahtan ooooo ok dat figures!! lol!!

lilyashburn FYI ppl : A cup of homemade mashed potatoes made with whole milk and butter has 238 calories.

lilyashburn FYI : A typical slice of pecan pie has 500 to 800 calories. That's because it's usually made with oodles of corn syrup, butter, and sugar.

lilyashburn juz nw i had mc fries & mc nuggets... nw, i wanna eat my mcspicy... mwahahahaha! jempot makan sume!! (^_^)

lilyashburn asyura - umi fid mi k. yeh ter ashura kots der ti k. umi fid mi k. soooooo cuteeeeee!!

fidzahtan @lilyashburn "umi feed me k.later ashura clothes dirty k?" Isit? Alamak!!!so cute lah! :)

lilyashburn @fidzahtan ya ya she said dat... u noe rite hw pelat she is wen she talks... cute rite? =))

fidzahtan @lilyashburn very cute!

lilyashburn sesunggoh nyer mc spicy aku ter sangat la SPICY... wah seh... pedas...

saurahsayuti @_wda @lilyashburn @fidzahtan kla kla klaaaaaa. hahaha. korang sumpah kecoh kat twitter eh. i wanna go out alreaddyy! :p tty soon (:

dyalycious Having meatball plak. Yummmssss (@ IKEA Restaurant & Cafe) http://4sq.com/7vu07M

lilyashburn @dyalycious so nicee our S'pore version of IKEA tak halal... pfft..

lilyashburn my gerl's asleep again... peaaaaaace at last... bole aku buat keje siket... =)

lilyashburn had ljs for dinner ystrdy... hmmm... heavenly crispy battered chicken!! yummy!! cravin 4 it again...

lilyashburn @fidzahtan @saurahsayuti can anyone tel me wat does maria job got to do with u 2 ar? n who de hell is maria?

fidzahtan @lilyashburn maria=maid lah..lastlast time the employer call"maria come here,mop/clean this" namer maria ..

lilyashburn asyura juz had a short nap... pfft... terbantot betol aku nk buat keje...(-.-)

lilyashburn wahai anak... kenape la cepat sangat kau bangon tido? ummi nk buat paperwrk pon tebantot nak...

Please Take The Initiative To Think, Can?

2010-05-22T12:31:00.006+08:00

I was already awake @ 9am...

1 of my "she-colleague", she pissed me off early in the morning today...

I really couldn't understand why la har... Whether is she really DUMB or just playing DUMB & INNOCENT?

I took the initiative to ask her yesterday whether is she coming @ 2pm for work today coz if she is, I would really like to start my day in the office @ 9am & end @ 1pm... It'll definitely make my job easier if I start work in the morning coz at least, I could be home to cook & spend quality time with my family since I'm gonna be on duty in the office this Sunday...

This "she-colleague" confidently, I mean really CONFIDENTLY replied me & said that she CONFIRMED would be starting her day in the office @ 9am... So I, being the nicest colleague, ask her again, "So you confirm ah, you'll start work @ 9am... So like that OK lor, I just come @ 2pm lor... I was really hoping to start @ 9am so that I could spend more time with my children, cooking & stuffs, if I end my half day @ 1pm..."

Yet again, she still insisted saying that she'll start work @ 9am...

The reason why I kept asking her is because she always have this habit of changing her OFF days & her working time especially when she starts work on half a day... I know, coz she played me out once... And today, she did it again... And I am SO PISSED with her!! She has done it to my other previous colleagues before!!

NO ONE was in the office this morning to help pick up the calls & attend to complains!! There is but he's my new "he-colleague" who no nuts about most stuffs... So what can you expect from a new colleague who no nuts? Obviously not much, right?

And when 1 of my managers wants to get into her office, the main entrance door was locked... She didn't have the door keys with her... Only those who are on weekend office duty has the keys to all doors... I am one of them & that "she-colleague" is 1 of them too!!

Now that she wasn't in, she left that manager of mine feeling pissed early in the morning & asking herself on why wasn't anyone on duty in the office early morning & leaving all doors locked?

Will you get pissed if you were me?

This "she-colleauge", she should have at least take the initiative to inform me when she decided to come to the office @ 2pm @ the very last minute... I could at least help cover the morning work load while waiting for her to start work @ 2pm... Now look what she's done? She had caused a bloody commotion! So many calls, so many complains & most importantly, she got 1 of my managers pissed...!

So what did I do? I sms-ed her...

Me > You should have tell me that you actually come @ 2pm instead of 9am when I ask you yesterday. I already told you the reason why I want to come in the morning & leave @ 1pm & that is because it's easier for me to take care of my children @ hm. This morning, Wong called & said no one is in the office. Thanks for your frankness & your sincere help.

Then she replied me about 2 hours later...

She > So sorry Lily. I'm not feeling well. Last night I slept @ 4am & this morning I went to clinic & just now arrived back. So sorry.

Huwaaargh!! She always LOVE giving the same excuse over & over again... I was so pissed off that I replied her this...

Me > What I know is we are all humans & we know ourselves better. I believe what goes around would comes around. Thanks for your help anyway.

You think I would buy the excuse she gave to me? Nope... Sorry... Once bitten, twice shy... She did this to me once before & with the same excuse... In fact, I did told my other colleague (my partner in crime) that for sure this biatch would play me out again... And I was right!!

You know, I kept thinking... She's older than us... She's married... That makes her more mature & more experience than us... Why didn't she have the brain to think for others? Taking the initiative & stuffs? Why? Why? Why?

Oh... OK, like what I said in my previous post, "God had made them like that, so they are like that lor..."

Perhaps maybe sorry to say this la har... Perhaps she didn't have any kids of her own... She didn't know the responsibility & effort a mother puts for her family... All the troubles that a mother has to go thru... Perhaps it's because of that... Also perhaps she's the youngest in her family & she's too pampered... Also, this is not PERHAPS... This is FOR SURE, there's always this particular someone up there in the office who fancy her, who always backs her up (rain or shine) & that's the reason why she can come & go any time she likes... Macam ni company diye ade share...

Funny thing how she didn't even realise the amount of people in this company who dislikes her & her freaking attitude... Also the amount of office staffs who had resigned because of her & this particular someone up there in the office who fancy her...

I know she has the address to my blog... Sooner or later, she's gonna read this... WHO CARES!! You're lucky that I don't mention your namesssss in this blog & upload your faces!!

To my "she-colleague" : I don't care how many amount of OFF DAYS you feel like changing & swapping... AT LEAST, TAKE THE INITIATIVE TO INFORM ALL YOUR OTHER COLLEAGUES... Coz we're basically working under one roof & everything here involves EVERYONE... You've done this SOOOOO many times & I'm so bloody sick & tired of it already!! I'm sick of your "go to the clinic & see the doctor" excuses... I'm sick of your "not feeling well" excuses... Coz basically, ALL YOUR BLOODY EXCUSES doesn't comes with BLACK & WHITE PROOF... & that particular person up there is basically fine with YOU not handing over BLACK & WHITE PROOFS to the management... What makes you so special har? So it's OK for you not to produce any proofs while the rest of us have to? And the best part is, that PARTICULAR PERSON UP THERE just keep 1 of his eyes shut on this matter? Not letting the bosses know? tsk tsk tsk... What good employees you guys are... Go tell it to him about this entry for all I care... For your info, everyone here, we have a pair of eyes... Even the office walls have a pair of eyes & ears... So don't you dare think that everyone here don't know what you guys are up to... Remember, what goes around would eventually comes around & that's call KARMA in your language... Sooner or later the truth WILL come out... I'm sick of your SHIT!! Biatch!!

Whatever Lah Eh...

2010-05-21T12:26:00.003+08:00

So OK, it's official...

I am gonna let all these... ... ...

ignorant...
self-centred egotistical...
childish...
narrow-minded...
selfish...
irritating...
empty headed...
braggart...
long-winded...
heartless...

... ... ... microscopic human beings BE...

Seriously can't be bothered already... If they couldn't take advises from others, then let them be... If they couldn't think for others, then let them be as well... Forever, they'll be like that till they grow old, wrinkle & wither slowly... Until 1 day (I pray & hope so la har) The Almighty would finally struck "something" into each of their minds & make them realise...

We pity them but they don't pity themselves... So how? Nak buat macamane? Allah da jadikan dorang macam tu...

Da besar panjang kan? Da tua nak mampos kan? Ade kpale otak fiker mane baik & mane burok kan? So lantak la eh... Whatever lah...

I pray so so hard that I won't turn out to be like any of those things listed on top of this entry... (Insya'allah, amin...) Please NO... Never do I wanna turn out like that ever!! I will be always be forever thankful to The Almighty for giving me, ME... This me... This Lily... Definitely forever thankful... Syukur Alhamdulillah...

Also... I don't owe any of you anything coz I don't put any of my burden on your shoulders... So if you're not satisfied with me, you should AT LEAST say it straight up to my freakin face if you have the guts... But I don't think you dare la har... So, just put your mouth in your ass & shovel it, can?

I can be nasty so don't test me... Be nice & I'll treat you nicer...

Right now I feel like slamming someone's head onto the wall coz my patience is up the max already... Huwaarrrrghhhh!! (OK, istighfar Lily... tarek nafas & istighfar banyak2...)

On a half day today...

Will be doing a little bit of "marketing" @ NTUC... Nak masak ape eh ari ni? Talk about cooking, I still have some recipes that I've yet to share in my blog... hee hee... I will... Promise... Soon...

Will be fetching the kids from school a little earlier today (yeay!! can't wait to see them; my little mischievous toddlers)... Thought of bringing them for a little ride on BLOO [To Baba: Thank you for buying the side mirror for me... I like!!] & go kite flying... Well, we'll see how la har... I still need to do the laundry & cleaning up... heh...

As for now, like the cousin always says to me when I'm pissed, "K Kak... Chill Kak... Chill K...?"

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Today's Twitter Posts...

AstriJar @lilyashburn ya.. whats wrong with your new colleague?

lilyashburn @AstridJar my new he-colleague? he has a mouth plus attitude of a biatch. nvr find a human who luv askin lame s questions. nb. n he's SLOW.

fidzahtan Idiot cab! I take cab everyday! I know lah!

lilyashburn @fidzahtan i also take cab everydy 1 mah... lol... so we're like de cabby sisters... lol...

lilyashburn gd moooooornin twitter heads!! hw's ur mornin? i m EARLY 4 wrk today & I LOVE IT!! woo hoo!! clock in @ 8.39am... yeah baby!!

lilyashburn on a half dy today y'all... feels gd... hm-cooked fd today & i'm cookin!! yeay!! =)

fidzahtan @lilyashburn errr I end at 7 :) so so so so...hehe

fidzahtan @lilyashburn yea man! But I hate slow n stuborn cabbies

lilyashburn @fidzahtan i hate slow stubborn cabbies too. mcm nk slam kpale dorg kat steerin wheel kn? eh u n @ 7? booooring!! ;P

fidzahtan @lilyashburn yea true!! Yup 7!!sedih kan

lilyashburn @fidzahtan : yup... =)

lilyashburn hey! i got me a mango dat had juz dropped itself on de ground.. niceeee... thks 2 boss 4 de mango trees... heh...

fengnicf i think cannot teach him all guest d.o. punya step, he tak boleh rmb 1...n cannot catch.

lilyashburn @fengnicf tel u hor teach him simple things n yet he dun noe... nb.. i kip on repeat n repeat until i go siao. spoil my mornin mood. cb.

fengnicf tak payah sort la..he mcm bmw type la..

fengnicf im thinking end month ur lj cb word how to come out infront dis uncle..hhahahha

lilyashburn @fengnicf walao dat one ar... (sigh) seriously i m speechless... dun noe wat to say... (>.<)

20 Ways To Get Mentally Tough...

2010-05-20T12:10:00.000+08:00

When you face a setback, think of it as a defining moment that will lead to a future accomplishment...
When you encounter adversity, remember, the best don't just face adversity; embrace it, knowing it's not a dead end but a detour to something greater & better...
When you face negative people, know that the key to life is to stay positive in the face of negativity, not in the absence of it. After all, everyone will have to overcome negativity to define themselves & create their success...
When you face the naysayers, remember the people who believed in you & spoke positive words to you...
When you face critics, remember to tune them out & focus only on being the best you can be...
When you wake up in the morning, take a morning walk of gratitude & prayer. It will create a fertile mind ready for success...
When you fear, trust. Let your faith be greater than your doubt.
When you fail, find the lesson in it & then recall a time when you have succeeded...
When you head into battle, visualize success...
When you are thinking about the past or worrying about the future, instead focus your energy on the present moment. The now is where your power is the greatest...
When you want to complain, instead identify a solution...
When your own self-doubt crowds your mind, weed it & replace it with positive thoughts & positive self-talk...
When you feel distracted, focus on your breathing, observe your surroundings, clear your mind & get into The Zone. The Zone is not a random event. It can be created...
When you feel all is impossible, know that with The Almighty Him, all things are possible...
When you feel alone, think of all the people who have helped you along the way & who love & support you now...
When you feel lost, pray for guidance...
When you are tired & drained, remember to never, never, never give up. Finish STRONG in everything you do...
When you feel like you can't do it, know that you can do all things thru The Almighty Him who gives you strength...
When you feel like your situation is beyond your control, pray & surrender. Focus on what you can control & let go of what you can't.
When you're a high-pressure situation & the game is on the line & everyone is watching you, remember to smile, have fun & enjoy it. Life is short; you live once. You have nothing to lose. Seize the moment...

Wei Feng & Me...

2010-05-19T18:02:00.001+08:00

Twitter Posts...

lilyashburn "it's rainin ar lily?" like duhhh? obviously it is... cant u c thru de window u lame ass question man!!

lilyashburn @fengnicf he siao la... ppl so busy stil got time entertain phone calls... die la...

fengnicf what he doing the whole day?? he like some1 who workin in Library dig all the thing read read read.. put put put..

lilyashburn @fengnicf actually he shud wrk s librarian. can dig dig n find wateva lame ass qstn frm de library bcoz got many books. like wat he do nw.

fengnicf yala!! i still dunno wat he looking at? jus tie them la!. haiyo..

lilyashburn @fengnicf walao my tummy pain siak... laugh like hell read ur twitter... ahahahaha!!

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My colleague (also my partner in crime... lol...) she just had to open up a Twitter account because of this particular new "he-colleague" of ours...

My job was basically to teach him EVERY SINGLE THING THAT HE NEEDS TO KNOW before he's ready to be transferred into our other plant @ Tuas...

Well I guess, he just love to test our patience every single day with his "lame-ass-talk-cock" questions... Funny thing how he's so forgetful and yet he don't even bother finding a way to solve it even after we gave him a lot of suggestions... (-.-)

Wonder how on earth is he gonna cope with just 4 hotels in his hand soon, compared to ours... (sigh)

Asil's New Hair Cut...

2010-05-19T12:40:00.004+08:00

Little Asil had his haircut done @ Compass Point yesterday...

I gave both of my little ones an ice cream treat before Baba brought Asil up for the haircut...

The name of the Barber Shop is called "Sri Nada" & it's located @ the very last floor of the mall, right beside the Passenger Lift Area...

I love his new look... Hubby too!!

The price for the haircut is a bit pricey compared to the usual place where we would always bring him to ("96 Barber Shop" @ Yishun), but overall his hair looks nice & neat now... =)

Twitter Post for today...

saurahsayuti Asil : "tchr saurah, I cut my hair handsome or not?" HAHAHAHA! Confirm mak dier ajar. Right @lilyashburn?

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti fooh... membe sempat tunjok kau hairstyle baru diye... ahahahaha!! =)

xoxocells @lilyashburn woah. This is deep. Haha sounds profound. Trees and GRAS

lilyashburn @xoxocells yup! grass... not "weed" ar... lol...

lilyashburn GREAT!! pfft. nid 2 help my boss's daughter translate n english notice into proper malay notice... nb... mlayu aku, mlayu longkang la siol.

_wda class starts at 2 and yet im late. i seriously have major punctuality issues...

lilyashburn @_wda tk per... i do too... n i m a mother of 2!! lol

fengnicf 1st, my phone is smelly n wet bcos he use, 2nd, he forgot which line he pick n he hang off the line i pass to ck..walao~~~dah byk kali..

dyalycious My student gave me waterproof mascara n lipstick as teacher's day present. (Nampak sgt tchr dia xmake up b4 go to class. Perli ni. Lol)

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Twitter posts...

They really make my day whenever I feel like shouting my lungs out @ work... heh... (^_^)

Hum Drum For Today...

2010-05-19T08:55:00.004+08:00

Knowing trees, I understand the meaning of patience...

Knowing grass, I can appreciate persistence...

I like trees because they seem more resigned to the way they have to live than other things do...

Whose Kid Is This...?

2010-05-18T12:36:00.003+08:00

Today's Twitter Posts...

saurahsayuti @lilyashburn anak saperrrr la ni ehhh.... Hahaha. http://twitpic.com/1os3el [photo above]

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti http://twitpic.com/1os3el - eh siao!! rambot da mcm kat crite hantu jepon ju-on siak ni... ahahahaha!! ni cikgu cum aunty siao yg ajar n also principal blur... ahahahah!!

saurahsayuti Omg. My kids are eating toothpaste. Like a whole row of them. Haiyohhhhhh.

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti : no wonder la toothpaste anak aku cepat abes... lol...

saurahsayuti @lilyashburn anak kau sedang menguji kesabaran aku. seriouss siaaa. darah aku naeeeeeekkkk. k mengucap saurah.

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti ape membe buat? makan toothpaste?

fidzahtan @lilyashburn @saurahsayuti sabar saurah..tak tahu sabar gi sabah kahwin ngan pat sabah kat saner.

lilyashburn @fidzahtan @saurahsayuti wei minahssss... asil buat per la sei...

saurahsayuti @lilyashburn hahaha. Don't wanna do worksheet la. Colour anyhow. Trace nak tanak. Member give me that heck care look. Fed upp per akuu. Heh.

lilyashburn @saurahsayuti diye nye turn lak kene moodswing... semlm pon same... attitude prob kat ruma. kene marah dgn abg rizal.

How To Stop Cough...

2010-05-17T12:59:00.003+08:00

Prescription 1: Grilled Oranges...

Follow these steps...

1...
First poke a hole on the orange for the purpose of allowing heat to enter the flesh & enabling the flesh to be easily extracted after roasting.

2...
Put it inside an ordinary small oven. Roast for 10mins, then the fruity flavour will come out. After the orange has been baked, it is really fragrant, with a roomful of pleasant smelling quite different from the original orange flavour. It is relatively moisturizing aromatic taste. It's really beyond imagination. Go & bake an orange, it will let you enjoy the flavour.

3...
Grill until the orange is like that on the left side, with its skin a little bit charred. Take out the whole orange. It is warm & can warm your hands & face. The flesh inside is just fine in temperature.

4...
The grilled oranges can be easily peeled. Staining it with some salt would make it sweeter & better for healing the cough. Compared to medicine, I believe that every child will like it better. Try grill an orange forthwith, any kind of orange can be baked like this!

Prescription 2: Vicks Vapor Rub

How to stop cough in 5mins!!

This is a must try...

We have all been kept awake by our own or someone else's cough. Try this & pass it on... The tip & not the cough. It's better than antibiotics... Even babies could benefit from this & the parents wouldn't worry about the safety of their child... And of course, it is harmless & free from any type of side-effects.

Treatment:

To stop night time coughing in a child (or an adult, as we found personally), put Vicks Vapor Rub.

Rub generously on the bottom of the feet @ bedtime & then cover with socks.

Even persistent, heavy, deep coughing will stop in about 5mins & stay stopped for many, many hours of relief... This works 100% of the time & is more effective in children than even very strong prescription cough medicines.

In addition it is extremely soothing & comforting & they will sleepy soundly. The Head of the Canada Research Council describe these findings on the part of their scientists when they were investigating the effectiveness & usage of prescription cough medicines in children, as compared to alternative therapies like acupressure.

If you have children or grandchildren, pass it on...

If you end up sick, try it yourself & you will be absolutely amazed by it!!

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Interesting... How come I never knew about this...? I always have my Vicks with me everywhere I go even for the family...

Can't wait for my next cough to appear & try this!! lol...

[Much thanks to my Aunt Jonah for this wonderful tip... Thank you Mak Ucu!!]

My Home-Made Spaghetti Sauce Recipe...

2010-05-16T22:02:00.009+08:00

I suddenly have this mood of sharing one of my recipes in my blog... Both of my little todds are busy playing by themselves & not disturbing me... phewww... So I got some time to post one recipe in here... =)

Arwah Nenek Yishun (Paternal Grams) aku pernah berkate, "Kite tak seharosnye lokek ilmu yang kite ade dengan orang lain... Tak baik... Kalau ade kelebihan kite seharosnye kongsi dengan orang lain... Insya'allah ade berkat nye Leili (panggilan manjeku oleh Arwah Nenek)..." [Rindu sangat2 aku dengan arwah Nenek]

Home-Made Spaghetti Sauce...

2 tablespoons of Chopped Garlic
3 Chopped Yellow 'Chef' Onions
2 cubes of 'Knorr' Chicken Stocks
2 tablespoons of Oyster Sauce
4 tablespoons of Cooking Oil
Grind Black Pepper
Bolognaise Spaghetti Sauce (Any brand will do but be sure yang ade 'Halal Certified' nyer... I usually by the ones with added Basil leaves in it...)
Chopped Chinese Parsley (There's a short & long version of this vege... Be sure to get the short ones coz they smell much more nicer & stronger...)
Mushrooms (Any mushrooms, be it Shitake or Button Mushrooms... Sliced them up thinly...)
Minced Chicken Meat (I prefer Chicken then Beef coz I can't stand the smell coming out from raw Beef meat... Bau hanyir diye semacam... heh...)
Chilli Sauce (I normally used the 'Maggi' brand ones...)
Blendered Dried Chillies (What you do is, you cut the dried chillies into halves. Then remove any seeds from them. It depends if you are a chilli lover, then there's no need to remove the seeds. You boil the dried chillies in a hot pot then sift the chillies removing any excess water & put them in your blender. And you get yourselves a home-made chilli paste...)
2 tablespoons of Corn Flour (mix it up a little bit with water...)
2 cups of Water
A little Salt
A little Sugar

First, you heat up your oil in a cooking pot. Then you throw in your garlic & let the aroma comes out from the garlic. After that you put in your onions & chicken stocks. Stir for about a minute. Then you drop in your chicken meat with a generous sprinkle of black pepper & let it cook for a while. Then put in your chilli paste (about 3 tablespoons will do) & oyster sauce. Stir till you get a 'paste like' texture before you add in your Bolognaise Sauce in. After that, in goes your Chilli Sauce (about 3 tablespoons), mushrooms & chopped parsley. Also your 2 cups of water.

So OK, then you'll notice that your Spaghetti Sauce is gonna be a little bit watery. So now's the part you add in the corn flour water mix coz that thing's gonna help make your sauce thicker.

Last but not least, you add in your salt & sugar to taste. =)

Eat it with your favourite pasta & top it up with melted Mozarella Cheese... yum yum...

P/S: I always add in a generous amount of stuffs in my cooking; more chicken meat, more veges & mushrooms etc... Coz it makes my food taste better... Jangan lokek ingredients coz it'll definitely make your cooking taste like you're 'missing something in there'... I believe, kite kalau nak kasi orang makan, biar lebih siket tak per, asal kan sedap & kite ikhlas memasak nye... Kalau tak abes, kan bole simpan dalam fridge & eat the left overs tomorrow... If you're not the fussy type that is... =)

OK, chao meow... Gotta get the todds to sleep...

Weekend Spent @ Home & Award... =)

2010-05-16T20:29:00.006+08:00

As Salam Peepz,

I woke up with a bad migraine this morning... Lately, it seems that my migraine is getting from bad to worst... My whole body shivers... I feel giddy & nauseous... Guess I should fix an appointment with a neurologist to check whether is there anything wrong inside my head...

I was supposed to cook Chicken Wings in Black Soy Sauce & Kangkong Vegetables in Sambal Belacan Sauce. But due to this bad migraine, I just fried the Kangkong Vegetables, made pancakes for breakfast, deep fried chicken wings & eggs instead... Bole la tu yer, daripade tak masak ape2... Moreover, Bro Yus had already cooked for us Curry Chicken... Power gedegak!! =) [Much thanks to Sis Muz for helping me out in the kitchen... I appreciate sangat2...]

I owe my thanks to hubby for buying me the Panadol Extra... [Thank you Baba...] Feel way much more better a few hours later after taking the pills... I swear by it... It works!!

It's raining here in Sengkang... So everyone's basically lazing around @ home... Work starts tomorrow... pfft... Boooring... Gonna face that loso "he-colleague" again tomorrow... [Wei Feng!! Huwaaaaargh!! 5 & a half more days of suffering in the office again... Walao... Vomit blood sia...]

I wanna thank Sis Ummi Hanie for giving me a "Mommies Blogger Award"... Da lame jugak aku tak dapat award macam ni... So the very the touching... [Trime kaseh yer Hanie... Lily suke sangat2 dapat tempek award ni kat dalam blog...]

Menu For Today Is Spaghetti...

2010-05-15T10:41:00.003+08:00

So I'm not working today...

Woke up early, thanks to my little ones... Budak2 ni kan, bile nak kena gi skola, liat sangat nak bangon... Kadang2 tu tak bangon langsong... Bile tak skola on weekends, bangon pagi2 bute pulak... isssh...

Hubby's off to work already this morning, while me & the kids are actually getting ourselves ready for grocery shopping...

I was glad I vacuumed & mopped the living & kitchen room floor yesterday... Terlalu banyak abok so, yeap, need to clean up already coz I got small children at home... Too much dust is actually not good for them... At least once a week I need to get rid of the filthy dust...

Did a favor for the hubby of checking his e-mail... He was so hoping that the job vacancy he applied for had replied back but nada... The particular company that he was aiming for didn't drop an e-mail... pfft... Tapi takpe, insya'allah... I believe Allah swt knows what's best for our family; whatever future plans that we have in mind whatsoever... Everything happens for a reason... =)

So, OK... Gotta go... Sia2 jer aku bangon pagi2 bute tapi tak gi pasar beli barang masak... Nanti ape kate suami aku pulak... Member balek confirm nak makan nanti...

Chao meow...

Any Sooner & I'll Explode...

2010-05-14T17:36:00.005+08:00

OK, I've already said that I'm having mood swings...

Then, today, this "he-colleague" of mine is so testing my patience... Bloody talkative in a way that he'll ask nonsensical questions that's out of your mind...

You tell me, what does Tiger Balm Medicated Oil has got to do with FLYING MOSQUITOES? What does other people's personal stuffs has got to do with me? Even my other colleague is beginning to get so pissed off with him!!

My goodness... Wei!! I'm not a walking dictionary or even a walking k-po-ist or even a walking First-Aid box... I'm just trying to work in this cute small office PEACEFULLY without any lame ass human being coming, asking me lame ass questions that I myself am not sure of... Halo!! Do I look like I know everything?!!

I'm already having a bloody migraine so can you not make it any worse for me?! I kept my freaking mouth shut & I don't even bother talking to you but yet your bloody mouth can't seem to stop TALKING NONSENSICALLY!! And you don't even know what does phone etiquette means sia!!

My job is to teach you all those work stuffs that you need to know. So you bloody well follow & stop asking me lame ass questions... Ape aku ajar, kau ikot la, BACEN!! Banyak songel pulak!!

WALAO!! GIVE ME A FREAKING BREAK CAN OR NOT?! Kpale aku saket siak... I've had enough of having selfish, ill-mannered, ignorant, egostitical, copy-cat, show-off & bossy humans pissing me off day by day... Can you please not top the Hatred Chart up?

Bloody hell... Just do your work as I told you la... It makes everyone's job here in the office a little much more easier & efficient... -.- (sigh)

People Who Are Ignorant (Hum Drum 2)...

2010-05-14T12:13:00.002+08:00

People who are ignorant,
Have invested valuable time...
And money spent.
To prove their foolishness and ways,
Makes a difference.
Although these folks within their minds,
Have an absence of common sense.
And, are noticeably self destructive & crazed.

People who are ignorant,
Spend every dime spent...
Revealing their incompetence.
And taking direction from those who are right,
Is something they've never done.
Since deceit & decadence has been their main appetite.

People who are ignorant,
Believe an ability to thieve makes them great.
They believe their disasters started,
Shows their expertise & them being able to create.
But people who are ignorant,
Like these folks show they are & can be?
May seek an empathy from others for their stupidity.
But sincerity shown these empty headed 'entities'...
Is a waste of time.
Unless one wishes a suffering done endlessly.

However...
People who are ignorant,
Have been convinced their way of life...
Is one pursued by those who are jealous.
And are threaten because they are envied!
And standards they value,
Reflects upon them in a 'special' light.

By Lawrence S Pertillar

Ummi's Mood Swing...

2010-05-14T12:08:00.000+08:00

As Salam,

Woke up this morning feeling tired with mood swings all over... Whole body didn't feel good - aching entirely on my left side... To top it all off, lots of things run into my mind... The conversation that I had with hubby about certain things, certain issues whatever... I pretty much am not myself today...

So who said that being a mom cum wife cum daughter cum finance admin is gonna be easy-peasy? Well, screw you! It takes a lot of hard work, effort & stamina (both physically & mentally) 24/7... I'm used to it already...

A good night sleep? Ha ha ha... Let me see, when was the last time I had a good night sleep? Maid? Nope... Definitely no maid assisting me coz I don't trust them to do things for the family, I'm fussy much... Silap2 kalau ade maid, maid aku klua sembunyi2 gi dating dengan bangla sesat mane then leave my kids on their own at home...

At the end of all this, it's the outcome of everything that you did for everyone around you... Well I guess, entah la eh... It just comes across my mind to blog... My mind's been pretty random lately... Thinking of myself, family & other stuffs...

Betol jugak cakap Nenek, "Nanti bile kau da kawen, da jadi istri orang, da ade anak sendiri... Baru kau tahu bertape besar nye pengorbanan seorang wanita itu..."

Lunch time today consists of snacks... Not in the mood for a good meal serving... So yeap, just eat snacks will do...

Oh & did I tell you that there's this new "he-colleague" in the office? My job was supposed to teach him whatever that needs to be taught but it seems that he's been pissing me & my other "she-colleague" (Wei Feng) with his nonsensical, irritating, lame-ass questions...

At the moment, I still have the patience to tolerate before I start to scream my lungs out at him... heh...

To all MOMS out there, "EVERYONE OF YOU ARE SPECIAL & SUPERLY MULTI-TASK IN YOUR OWN KIND OF WAY..." =)

Tired Of People Taking Advantage (Hum Drum 1)...

2010-05-14T12:01:00.000+08:00

Tired of people taking advantage
Tried to make people happy
But wasn't successful
Every method taken backfired

Trying to bridge the gap created
But seems like another is being formed
No one thinking about each other
Just themselves

Thinking no point anymore
Just causing more stress
Leave things as they are
Let them be ignorant

There's no unity anymore
No strong figure to unite them
Slowly drifting apart
Soon there will be nothing left

By Sakib Choudhury