Taking It All As A Challenge..

Was super busy the whole day in the office entertaining HR related issues & this excludes having to entertain WA messages that I received from my customers who're interested in ordering my handmade hijab pins..

Sometimes I wish people should try for once be in my shoes, having to juggle it all.. They should learn how to wait patiently instead of rushing me up for their orders & see things from my side of the story..

Frankly, not ALL customers are right.. I mean, no offence but, I have a life to commit too you know.. Wife, mother & daughter.. Working my ass off some more, halo?!!

Just glad & thankful that 3 quarters of my customers are patient & kind enough to understand my situation..

And out of these 3 quarters, half of them are more than just my loyal customers.. They've become my friends.. =)

Rezki from selling my handmade hijab pins has been coming in slowly & steadily, Alhamdulillah.. Syukran.. It's been almost to 2 years & I hope for more years to come.. InshaAllah.. 

I just hope, Allah will give ease to all the actions & plans that I have in mind for what is to come in future.. Not just for me, but for the hub & our children as well.. InshaAllah, Amin..

For now, it's time to hit the sack..

What's In My Mind Right Now..

Oh yessssss!!

And may Allah give us a chance to meet up with those who appreciate our existence in their lives & give us the inspiration to move ahead in life.. InshaAllah, Amin..

You know, I have a few friends asking why didn't I open a personal FB account & decline to be involved in online social group chats most of the time.. The reason? Too much drama, bragging, showing-off, gossips, back-biting & fakeness.. So I'd rather not waste my precious time getting involve in such stuffs.. Yes, you can add me up on your chat group whatsoever BUT, if you expect me to talk & join in the "fun", sorry I won't.. I'd rather keep myself silent & observe all the drama.. Take in what is good & leave those bad ones behind.. Lagi bagos mcm tu.. It lessens my sins.. 

And I don't understand people who (all of a sudden) treated others in a "so-very-extra-nice" way JUST to seek something from them.. The "ade-udang-di-sebalek-batu" kinda people.. Gosh!! If your intention is to "curry favor" others just to get what you want, then use your adult size brain to THINK, THINK & THINK AGAIN.. Whatever you're tryna do, will Allah be pleased with your action? You're not afraid of the outcome that lies ahead for doing such deeds? Taking advantage of others solely for your own needs?

Intention is SO important in our lives.. It is what stands between us & a good deed accepted by Allah.. Sia2 jer mengejar pahale kalau niat di dalam hati seseorang itu tidak betol..

Sendiri mau ingat.. Sendiri jawab nanti di Akhirat..

On another thought, dulu bile aku laki bini menompang rumah org, mmg pon blog aku senyap, bebas dari anonymous mulot puake. Tapi yg best nye ape tau bile aku laki bini dok menompang ruma org, sume hal ehwal semase kluarge aku, SATU DUNIA TAHU TERMASOK LA ORG LUAR.. Org yg tk de kene mengene dgn kluarge aku laki bini.. Foooooh!! Best!! Bole tahan LANCANG jugak mulot hambe2 Allah yg mengumpat, mengate & buat crite pasal aku sekeluarge.. Biase jugak.. Org mcm ni brani kat blakang jer.. Bile jumpe face-to-face, satu2 mulot kecot.. Tk brani..

Piker2 balek, betol jugak.. Smenjak aku pindah balek kat Taman Jurong ni, blog aku penoh dgn anonymous yg bagi comments tk sayang mulot.. It's like they check in to my blog once in a while JUST to see how my family & I are doing with our lives.. Tsk tsk tsk.. Licik sangat2!!

Org2 mcm ni sume slalu nye pandai mengate & mengaibkan org lain, tapi tk tahu nk cermin kan diri sendiri.. Too full of themselves & too blinded to judge their own shortcomings..

And again, sendiri mau ingat.. Sendiri jawab nanti di Akhirat..

Well, just saying.. ;)

Happy 2nd Birthday To My Littlest Baby..

Didn't know that I was 8 weeks pregnant with you as I was on medical jab for 4 years..

What started out as a daily morning routine from Sengkang to Punggol, turned out to be a mishap for me one day..

I had a very bad fall while cycling my way back to Sengkang right after sending your Abang & Kakak to school on a rainy morning & it caused me to have a terrible pain in the lower part of my tummy.. I couldn't walk straight & kept bending myself in pain like one "Nenek Bongkok".. Literally in so much pain..

So I went to visit the doctor for a check-up & that's when I found out about you.. =))

Allah kalau nak bagi rezki, walau macamane pon keadaan seorang hambe Allah itu, Dia tetap akan memberikan rezki tanpe kite ketahui..

You came out a little earlier than expected coz I've been having on & off contractions 3 months prior to your EDD.. Having you inside my womb was a smooth one & even thru out your delivery.. Alhamdulillah..

I remembered how I hated to brush my teeth in the early morning coz I would always have the urge of puking stuff out from my mouth.. Other than that, you're such an easy baby to deal with.. Alhamdulillah yet again..

Those were the days while living our lives in Sengkang.. Allah knows every single thing that Baba & I faced during those times.. Our smile & our laughter.. Our pain & our hardship.. Allah sahaje yang tahu..

Whatever it is, stay as one; as siblings unite, even after Baba & Ummi had passed away.. Live your lives together without having this feeling of "sifat cemburu, hasad dengki, bertalam dua muke" & always tryna pinpoint faults at each other.. It's not something that both Baba & Ummi would like to see in all of you.. We've seen & been in such situation before & we dislike such negativities to have in the hearts of our children..

InshaAllah, we will always love all of you justly, fairly & equally; no more, no less.. Coz we know how favoritism feels like; to have parents who only show extra affectionate care & concern to a few children in the family.. Children whom they love more than the others.. That feeling hurts..

Ummi loves you Muhamad Isyraq Akil.. Indeed you came as a pure blessing in our lives.. May Allah always take good care & look upon you & your siblings no matter where you kids go.. Amin..

InshaAllah, you'll be able to fall upon this entry that's meant for you one day..

Love you Baby Adek & your siblings too!! Always..

A year older, wiser & cuter.. Alhamdulillah..

May 17th 2012 ~ 2014..

Happy 54th Birthday Mama..

To my 1 & only Mama..

Thank you for bringing me up into the person I am now..

I used to hate my life for all the mishaps & problems that I faced during my stay with you & Papa.. I hated being the eldest among my siblings, having to carry a whole load of burden on my shoulders..

But as I grow, I learned & I finally realised that without all of these obstacles, I won't be who I am today.. A mom like you who is strong enough to face the impossible that lies ahead.. Having to juggle my everyday family life, working life & sideline business all at the same time..

Thank you Mama for everything that you have taught me..

For that I am proud, thankful & grateful to have you as my Mama..

A year older & a year wiser to my Mama, Alhamdulillah..

May Allah always keep His eyes on you & Papa for all of us.. Amin..

May 1st 1960 ~ 2014..

Last Vesak Day..

2 homemade birthday cakes in the month of May.. One for mom whose birthday falls on May 1st & another one for Lil Akil whose birthday falls on May 17th..

The little one loves minion so much lah haiyo.. Kecik2 pon mcm minion.. The cream melted a little coz we brought the cakes out to the neighborhood swimming pool for a mini celebration.. Weather on that day? SUPER SUPER HOT!! Fooooh!! Panas giler wo!! Well, the cakes tasted yummyliciously good though..

It was an awesome day for all of us.. The kiddos had so much fun at the pool playing the swirly slide.. ;)

Everyday Is Mothers' Day..

Sunday.. With the ones who matters most.. Love the peaceful scenery of Singapore's urban jungle in the late evening.. A pleasant evening spent today with hub & our kids..

To me, everyday's a Mothers' Day..

Waking up in the early morning, had the kids to take their morning shower, preparing for them breakfast & getting them ready for school before rushing myself off to work.. Call to check upon them during lunch time.. Rushing home to fetch them up from school & then preparing dinner.. I will only be able to have my "me" time when everyone's asleep..

Juggling my time between my mini little sideline business, permanent office work & family life are never always easy.. It's a tiring job being a mom, but knowing that your hub & kids never fail to say "Thank You Ummi" for everything that you've done for them, to hear them say that you're the best cook & your homemade dishes are the most nicest in the whole wide world.. Those words are enough to make me feel that everyday's a Mothers' Day..

And I know that at the end of it all, Allah will reward me for all the efforts that I've done.. Sunggoh besar ganjaran nye pahale seorang yang bergelar ibu.. MashaAllah, if you're a Muslim, you will know how deep the meaning of this phrase is.. For He has bestowed upon us with so many blessings in life just by being a mom.. And for that, Alhamdulillah for everything..

No, I don't celebrate Mothers' Day with my mom nor with my MIL.. Mothers' Day shouldn't be celebrated once a year just to make our mothers feel appreciated.. It's the continuous ongoing deeds that we sincerely provide them with & to always have them in our prayers.. To me, it is the devotion to Allah's orders that we children should be dutiful to our parents.. Showing gratitude to our mothers (and fathers) shouldn't be done once a year, once a month or even once a week.. Providing our parents a place to stay, sheltering them from the sun & rain.. Trying our best to make their stay with us a pleasant one, this is much more meaningful than just a celebration that's only organised once in a year..

Our parents may not be the perfect parents & we may not be the perfect children to them either.. We all have our own shortcomings.. We just gotta embrace each other's errs slowly & patiently.. 

Whatever that is good for you, may be bad for you BUT, whatever that is bad for you, may be of good use for you one day.. And Allah always has His reasons for everything that's happening in our lives.. He always will..

I don't know what is the outcome of my life in the near future.. How old will I get.. Will I die not given a chance to be able to see all of my kids grow up & have a family of their own? Only Allah knows best.. But as long as I'm still breathing, I'll try my best to put a smile on my loved ones faces, enjoy & appreciate my life while I still can.. Knowing that if I were to pass away one day, the memories that I have with my family will always be cherished in their hearts..

And to my mom & MIL.. Thinking back of all the good deeds & sacrifices that they've made in life.. Giving birth to us all.. Nursing us while we're still a child.. There's so many uncountable & unseen deeds done by the both of you.. Words can't express this feeling inside of me.. Whatever happens; good or bad, both of you will always be in my duas. For every breath you take & every step you make just to help us out in times of needs, may Allah reward you both with the best of deeds in the hereafter.. Amin..

As time goes by, being a mom had made me realise something.. There isn't any "Off day" or "Public Holiday" when I take up this important position.. Being a mom requires one to always be there 24/7.. You will not know how I feel to have both of you in my life.. I am not the sort of daughter/daughter inlaw who loves to curry favor & shower you both with money & all sorts of worldly pleasures just to make you happy.. If I were to do just that, you won't be accepting me for who I am.. You will only love me for all the worldly things that I showered you with & I don't want that.. I hate that.. I may not show my love & concern towards the both of you openly.. But believe me, Allah knows me best.. InshaAllah, I'll try my best to make your stay in this world a pleasant one to live in..

I only have Him, to whom I seek my assistance from.. And inshaAllah, setiap orang yg betol2 ikhlas perbuatan nye, Allah akan tunjokkan di padang Mahsyar nanti including those insincere ones.. I don't need credits to be given & seen in this world.. But I believe that when we all die & get to meet each other in the hereafter one day, you will be able to read what is it, that is deep in my heart.. InshaAllah, you both will..

Thank you for all the things that you've done for all of us..

I only have Allah to repay all the kindness that you've given to us all..

Everyday will always be a Mothers' Day to me..

Of Selfie, Wedding Invite & JB-ing..

Been a while since I did my signature "side-way" selfie.. Hee hee.. Sempat Mak buat selfie dlm kreta..

We had a wedding to attend on a Saturday evening before heading off for our grocery shopping in JB.. And I am so not into baju kurong on a wedding invite.. Too mainstream la.. Rimas wor.. Blouse & jeans will do for me.. As long as I'm covered from top to bottom.. ;)

The thing about doing grocery shopping in JB is, you pay for about SGD140 & you get to buy a lot of stuffs in a single super long receipt compared to buying all those stuffs here in SG.. Berbaloi wor..

Dinner at our usual joint.. The Arab Street Restaurant.. Had Nasi Arab.. Forgotten the name of the dish la.. Was it Fasoulya? Or Falya? Better than Briyani Rice coz it's lighter in taste.. Salad Arab as our appetizer.. Ni lagi langsong aku tak tahu.. Cume aku tahu sedap jer la.. Lastly, the Kurma Milk Juice!! Awesomely rich & deliciously good in taste!! Gonna unleash the "prangai Mak Gemok" in me & try whip this juice up in the kitchen one day!!

The thing about "jalan2 cari makan" with my mini little family is that we can go anywhere we wanna.. We talk & laugh almost about anything.. We sing out loud in the car like nobody's business.. And most importantly, kite tak menyusahkan orang.. Geng "Sendirian Berhad".. ;)

On Random Thoughts..

Photos taken of them, parents-inlaw on 2 separate years with my mobile phone..

Year 2011 was taken when we had a family dinner organized by the 2nd bro-inlaw & wife @ Simpang Bedok while the present year was taken just recently when the hub & I brought them out for dinner @ Changi Village..

Within 3 years, old age is catching up on them really fast.. Yet, Alhamdulillah, both are still going strong; walking themselves out & about.. Been staying with us for the past 2 years now & Alhamdulillah, so far so good..

To have them residing with us & looking after our children during our absence, is more than enough to make us feel grateful & thankful.. 

I may not be the perfect daughter-inlaw who one dreamt of having.. I have my own shortcomings.. I'm very straight forward.. I will let you know what I like or dislike on certain things.. Even my own parents know of this.. But inshaAllah, hub & I, we'll try our best to make your stay with us, a pleasant one.. Coz I believe, that if we do things for Allah's sake, He will always make things easier for us in life & the hereafter.. InshaAllah.. =)

Read today's morning news on Instagram that Allahyarham Pakcik Aziz Satar had passed away @ the age of 89 years old.. My deepest condolences to his family.. The last of the "Bujang Lapok" to passed on.. Innalillahi wa'inna Ilaihi Rojiun.. Al-Fatehah..

Spread Some LOVE..

Woke up to a pleasant morning..

Was greeted by a few comments from THE SAME "hating-macam-paham" nosyparkers in the comments section.. My reaction? A smile on my face la.. What else?

A small tiny buzzing fly that keeps coming back to STALK me.. Here I am minding my own life & there you are, the no-life-busybody-nosyparkers!! Can't believe I've got my very own STALKING-DIE HARD FAN!!

"Suke hati kau la Nak.. Asalkan kau bahgie.. Mak dah lame dah hidop bahgie lebih2 lagi smenjak Mak pindah balek kat ruma Mak ni.. Busok2 pon ruma sendiri ye tak? Dulu maseh hidop menompang ruma org, blog Mak senyaaaaap jer.. Tak de pon Anonymous mcm paham kasi comments yg tk syg mulot.. Tu la kan, smenjak dua menjak ni la.. Senang punye ckp, smenjak Mak balek sini la, blog Mak ni makin famous la pulak dgn manusia Anonymous ni.. Org yg same plak tu.. Konon2 diye buat mcm Mak tak tahu la ni eh? Tk per.. Asal kan kau bahgie la Nak eh.. Mak tak kisah Nyah.. Satu hari kite akan tahu jugak.. Ni pon Mak dah bole nampak siket2.. Siket2 lame2 jadi buket.. Satu hari tu buket, Mak nampak jugak! InshaAllah.." ;)

Alhamdulillah for everything that's happening in my life.. Gotta love it all.. Even the shitty ones coz without every obstacles, problems & even the hating nosyparkers, my life won't be this awesome!!

So let's spread some love especially to them; hating nosyparkers!! Without them, I won't be feeling the blissful happiness of life that Allah has bless me & my family with!!

People who never fail to keep coming back into this humble blog of mine to see how am I doing!! Gosh!! I feel so touched by your "kind" gesture la.. Really.. You made me realised that my life is so much more interesting & is one step ahead than yours!!

Why? COZ YOU KEEP COMING BACK TO CHECK UPON ME THRU MY BLOG!! It's like,"Keeping Up With The Kardashians!" HAHAHAHA!!

May Allah bless you for all your shortcomings & your deeds.. InshaAllah..

Much love!!