Find A Solution, Not Excuses!!

One can always take the easy way out & give up without trying hard enough to find a solution..

Truth is, real strength comes when you decide to keep pushing yourself forward no matter what the circumstances may be..

Life is never easy, it is mostly SCARY.. It is a challenge; days upon days, one after another.. Nobody said that nothing's worth having to come by easy..

And some people just need to get this knocked in their senses by a sledge hammer coz I am sick & tired of having people who loves pushing their problems & responsibilities away & then expects others to help solve it for them!!

Where Goes The Responsibility?

By simply pushing your problems to others & expect them to settle your problems for you while you live your life with excuses upon excuses, brings you NO WHERE..

Eventually people will get sick & tired of all those shit & those crap..

So what makes you think you're the only one in this world with issues & problems to solve while others don't? Have you ever think about that? What others are facing in their daily lives.. What others are going thru.. Having to juggle with their lives; Mentally, Physically, Emotionally & Financially..

Well, I guess you don't..

On another note, "One who's been spoonfed their entire life will NEVER see eye to eye with the one who had to go thru fire to get it.."

To YOU.. Sila HADAM!!

I chanced upon this in IG today & just needed it to be up in my blog.. The need for me to let it out..

To the "hypocrite-pretending-to-be-nice" woman who has a lot to say & backbite about me, who compares & competes in everything I do, who loves showing it off & to sum it all, despises me for no reason!!

The fact is, I have NO ISSUE with people & don't intend to.. It's a DIFFERENT STORY when the one who started this whole feud is YOU, YOUR DAMN FOUL MOUTH & UGLY ATTITUDE.. I mind my own business.. I do things that make me happy.. I wear what makes me feel good & comfortable.. I go anywhere I want to.. In other words, whatever that's within my affordable budget, I'm all in.. And most importantly, I don't go begging & borrowing money from others (unlike some people) even though I don't hold a high executive post & work in 1 of those big organizations somewhere in central CBD..

The fact that you're somehow related to me, not by blood but of family ties.. Till now, I do wonder how could someone like you, who have done & said so many mean things towards ME & MY FAMILY, could still have the CHEEK to face us all & PRETEND like nothing ever happened whenever we meet!!

I have people telling me, to let it go, forgive & forget.. "Alaaaa.. Yang sudah tu, sudah je la..", they said.. No! I won't! Why?! Coz these people have no idea what I went thru!! What we ALL went thru!! Having to struggle & juggle with it all.. Having other family members despising us, giving us that "one kind" look & gossips, treating us in such a way that we felt so LEFT OUT from the rest of the family members, believing in every single fabricated words you have been telling around about us & our well-being.. That pain & suffering; PHYSICALLY, EMOTIONALLY & FINANCIALLY.. Kite sewa ruma pon jadi bahan kata!! Kita ada kreta pon jadi bahan kata.. Org ingat kita hidop senang dengan hasil duit sewa ruma, tapi mereka tk kan faham situasi kita pade ketika itu.. Walaupon dikata orang, Alhamdulillah, aku bangga dengan diri kita, suami istri.. Dengan berkat pertolongan oleh Nya, kita tidak menyusahkan hidop orang lain dengan meminjam wang sana sini walaupon kita sudah beranak 2 & with 1 on the way at that time.. (Unlike SOME people yang hanya pandai mengata tentang kehidopan orang lain tetapi kehidopan diri sendiri pon tk betol..) Mind you, I was at my early stage of my 3rd pregnancy & I was feeling the impact of it all.. ME!!

Frankly, from my point of view about you, I feel that YOU ARE JUST SO DAMN INSECURE to the extend that it makes you feel jealous & envious of the life, Allah has blessed others with.. Maybe that explains the need for you to go around backbiting, fabricating stories & telling other family members (outsiders included) about me & my family.. And maybe that explains your inferiority complex behaviour; the need for you to compete & compare with others.. And then showing it off for everyone to see.. Oh we ALL have eyes & we DO see it all thru your actions.. "EVERYONE OF US".. But then again, sorry la eh.. TIME LAMBAT ar nak step main "show-off / compete / compare / berbual world" ni sume.. Time zaman orang kampong dulu2 bole ar..

I pity you.. I really do..

However, though years have passed, I will not let bygones be bygones for all that you said & done.. And I will never ever gonna forgive you, your damn foul mouth & ugly attitude..

ORANG LAIN TIDAK AKAN MERASAI & FAHAM APE YG KITA LALUI MELAINKAN, JIKALAU ALLAH SENDIRI BERIKAN KEPADA MEREKA PELUANG YANG SAMA UNTOK MELALUI APA YG TELAH KITA RASA & LALUI!!

KAU TAK AKAN FAHAM APA ERTI MENJADI SEORANG IBU YANG BERKORBAN, MEMBAHAGIKAN WAKTU & PENAT LELAH NYA UNTUK BEKERJA, MENOLONG SUAMI & KELUARGA MELAINKAN ALLAH SENDIRI YG AKAN MEMBERIKAN KAU KESEMPATAN ITU.. Ada orang baru anak satu da kecoh laki bini.. Ada orang belom ada anak, laki bini bekerja pon duit tiap2 bulan tk cukop, pinjam sana sini.. Ada orang kalau pasal hal anak orang lain pandai mengata, cuba tngk kesudahan dengan anak sendiri tu mcmana pulak nanti..

KAU TAK AKAN FAHAM APA PERASAAN ITU BILA KAU DIPERKATAKAN & DIPULAUKAN LAKI BINI OLEH AHLI KELUARGA KAU SENDIRI DISEBABKAN OLEH PERBUATAN MULOT2 PUAKA AHLI KELUARGA KAU YANG LAIN, YANG TAK KAN PERNAH HAPPY TNGK HIDOP KAU SENANG WALAU SEDIKIT PON.. Aku rase kalau kau kena mcmana aku kene oleh perbuatan kau, kau da buat kecoh satu kampong carik "backing" (as usual).. Sedangkan hal family aku, satu kampong da tahu mcm2 crite, baik yg betol & yg tidak betol.. Tu pon dari mulot longkang kau.. But don't worry la, aku tak jahat & tak berhati busok mcm kau yg tk bole happy tngk org lain happy.. Aku biarkan ALLAH sahaja membalas segala perbuatan yg kau da buat kat family aku.. Islam ade kifarah, what you did towards others, you will always get it back in return; sooner or later.. =))

When you are given the chance to be in other's shoes, only then will you know how it all feel..

Akhir zaman ni Allah nak beri balasan skejap je.. Tak payah tunggu Akhirat kelak.. Dia bagi CASH & CARRY.. As time goes by, one by one, everything that you did towards me & my family, eventually goes back to you & your family, without you realizing it..

Sendiri mau ingat, sendiri mau hadam & sendiri gi dok diam2 muhasabah diri..