My Little Darlings In Their New School...

(above) It's brushing of teeth time!!

(above) Asil with his Aunty Lala... Ooops!! Correction!! It's Teacher Lala... lol...

(above) Lunch time...

(above) Tengok tu!! Comot mulot nye...

(above) Asyura with her schoolmate, Xavier...

(above) Tak layan nampak!!

As Salam Peepz & Hello World!!

How's everyone doing? I hope your days been pretty fine, peaceful & healthy... =)

I've uploaded above some photos of my little darlings in their new School cum Childcare Centre... Much thanks to my dearest Cousin Lala for the photos... hee hee... [Wei Aunty Lala!! Aku "self service" amek gamba anak2 aku dari kau nye Multiply... hee hee...]

Their 1st few weeks in school was filled with tears, wails & cries... It was heartfelt for both hubby & me coz as you know, there's no more Nenek to take care of them... Then there's this daily routine of us, waking up & getting ready early in the morning to sent the kids there... Tiap2 pagi kalau kejot Asil & Asyura bangon dari tido, dorang slalunye akan nanges... Asyura would cling herself onto me... Asil, on the other hand would follow me everywhere I go in the house coz he needs the attention as much as his little sister does... So bile da sampai kat school, we parents have to hand our kids over to their teachers & tu part yang buat kitorang rase sedih coz we pity our babies, kecik2 da nak kena get used to waking up early & go to school... What's more, both Asil & Asyura will be in the Centre from as early as 8 in the morning until about 7 in the evening... Both of them have to wait for us there until we parents are done with our work...

This is the part where I'm gonna just start to feel guilty as a mom... Then, I'll start to breakdown... Then, I'll start to think of the kids... Kecik2 dorang da nak kena masok Childcare... Their time spent would be in school with their friends & teachers instead of their parents... Just pity them lor coz they have to stay there for nearly 12 hours without having us around... Time spent with us would only be during the night after office hours & also during the weekends when we parents aren't working... So aku rase sedih sangat2 lor... =(

And there was this day when the school called up asking me to fetch my little Asil immediately coz he was unwell & was frequently vomitting out all the food he consumed... The part when his teacher told me that his feet & hands turned cold due to the vomitting and all lagi buat aku panic giler... Blom apape, air mate aku da meleleh... So aku apelagi, called the hubby up & we both rushed to the Centre lor, fetched our little boy & brought him to the doctor...

And also, there was this other day when Asyura was struck with a high fever... Huwaaaargh!! Another "child sick" situation... I got me a pair of panda-looking eye patch underneath my eyes coz I was awake majority of the time in the wee hours of the morning, attending to her... Hubby & I, we even took turns half a day each to take care of her... It's quite sad seeing both of our kids sick... They looked so tak bermaye like that...

Life's been pretty challenging having them in that kind of situation but alhamdulillah we managed to pull thru... And we're so grateful to Sis Muz, Bro Yus for helping us out whenever we need their assistance... And also to my dearest cousin, Lala for keeping her eyes on our babies in school while we went out to work... It's a good thing that she's working in the school where our babies are in... Alhamdulillah... And it's a good thing that Sengkang & Punggol is just an 8 minutes drive away... =)

[Thanks y'all... May Allah repay your kindness towards us... Insya'allah, amin...]

So OK, like I said earlier, I've some photos uploaded... Take a look... Oh!! And just so you know, the name of the school where my kids go to everyday is BRIGHT KIDS SCHOOL HOUSE PTE LTD...

If interested, kindly visit the website HERE

One thing I like about this school is the part where kalau budak2 "poo-poo" ("berak" la eh dalam bahase melayu), sume teachers kat sane tak pakai toilet paper main "set-let" bersihkan tahi kat bontot bile nak cebokkan budak2... Dorang sume cebok bontot budak2 pakai air... Tu yang buat aku so keen to put them in this school sebab tu paling important apart from the way they educate the children & all... And the part where the school frequently organizes educational field trips for the children is such a great thing coz kids would definitely love the idea of going out on excursions & field trips instead of being cooped up in school every month of the year...

Handhone Ku Hilang... =(

"Oh handphone ku... Di mane kau berada skarang...??"

Huwaaaaargh!!

Yesterday's the day that I've lost my handphone... My beloved LG KS20 da hilang!! I only realised about it the moment I was at Yishun MRT Station...

Aku nak crite panjang2 pon macam tak de mood... Makin ingat balek maken sedih... Everything is in that handphone!! I mean EVERYTHING!! Contacts, photos, videoclips, songs... EVERYTHING!! Huwaaaaaargh!! Melalak siak aku skejap pasal ni semalam...

That handphone was given to me by my hubby la sei... So ade sentimental value la kat handphone tu... Suami da belikan but then lepas tu aku hilangkan... Huwaaaaargh!! Sedih sangat2... Felt guilty you know... =(

Ari ni gi keje pon aku tak de mood... Buat keje lagi langsong tak de mood... Crite pasal handphone aku hilang pon terbawak2 dalam mimpi semalam... Macam kelakar eh... hee hee...

The touching part was when hubby smiled, held my hand and said, "It's OK Ummi, at least I don't loose you..." So the very the touching gitu... sob sob... Caaaaayang aku kat suami ku sorang ni... Oh! Love my babies too!! hee hee...

The most sickening part was when most of the Production Operators kat tempat aku keje ni gi beli nombor 4D as soon as they found out that I've lost my handphone... Macam siak!! lol... Betol2 nye ade mase dorang2 ni sume... 4D nye pasal...

Them; Production Operators, "Wei! Lily... Kite sume ade dengar brite lu hilang lu punye handphone ah? Wah seh... Banyak lugi wo!!"

Me, "Ya... Wah seh!! Pasal handphone saye hilang satu kilang suda tahu ah? Wah lao, you all ah... Saye banyak sayang itu handphone leh... Husband saye belikan kasi saye lor... Skarang hilang liao lo... Wah lao..."

Them, "Tak ape kite sume akan kasi lu happy... Lu punye handphone nombor kite sume suda tahu mah... Driver ade kasi lu punye nombor same kite mah... Driver sume ade beli juge mah... Jadi kite sume mau beli lu punye nombor lor... Kalau dapat menang 1st prize masok duit, kite sume belikan lu satu handphone balu OK... iphone... Lu mau?"

Me, "Wei!! Lu orang sume siao ah?!! Tak de keje beli nombor!! Kalau kenek pon aku tak nak la... Siao!! San chin ping!! Dah!! Dah!! Gi buat keje!! Jangan nak merepek!!"

Them, "(laughing like crazy)"


Haaaai... Tebiyat nye budak2 Operator... Siao... Buat bazir2 duit jer beli 4D ni sume... tsk tsk tsk...

So OK, back to my handphone story...

I tried calling my handphone incase there's any good samaritan out there who happens to stumble upon my handphone & would have the so-called "kind heart" to return it back to me... But it turns out that my handphone line was cut off (bloody hell)... So makne nye handphone aku da dijumpe & dikebas orang lor... huu huu huu...

So, what to do... Handphone ku memang da ditakdirkan untok hilang ari tu... Mungken Allah s.w.t berikan aku chance untok beli handphone baru kot... hee hee... Well, who knows right?

Walau apepon yang terjadi, I know Allah has His way of doing things for me & it's for my own good... Mungken ade hikmah disebalek ape yang terjadi... Insya'allah, Amin... Alhamdulillah... =)

Tak per lor... Handphone da nak hilang, abeh, nak buat macamane lagi...? Ye tak? Tapi memang pon aku sayang sangat2 kat handphone pemberian suamiku but what to do? Lost liao lo... =(

At the moment ni, aku tak de handphone lor... Tengah look see, look see...

So TO ALL OF MY CONTACTS (Tak kisah lor whether you're my friends, relatives or even my colleagues): Kindly e-mail your contact number to me again, CAN? Or if those of you who knows how to contact me thru my office number or thru my hubby or thru whoever la... PLEAAAAAASE!! I NEED YOUR CONTACT NUMBER LA SEI...!! Huwaaaaargh!! In desperate need ni... You guys are so the very the important to ME hor... =) Must contact me back hor... THANK YOU DARLINGS!!

P/S: Anyway, the person who found my handphone would for sure be "super frustrated" coz I've locked my handphone up with a personal password... Mwahahahaha!! Even if they really wanna break the password & access my handphone, they have to restart it all over again & all the data in it will be deleted automatically... Mwahahahaha!! Padan muke!! Amek kau!!

My Dream Home...

The Bayou Water Village @ Horizon Hills Leisure Farm Resort...

I'm so in love with this place the moment I saw it in the Internet... It's like the dream home that I ever wanted...

Read the article about this place HERE

Located in Southern Johor Bahru, Malaysia, The Bayou Water Village @ Horizon Hills Leisure Farm Resort has houses with riverside balconies... You could go fishing right in your own home la sei!! Seriously!! Gerek siak!! Bole panceng ikan wo!!

I'm so so in love with this place... Really really in love... Suke sangat2!!

All the houses there are guarded by Nepalese army guards who're on 24-hour security patrol... There's a private golf course too!! And also horse-riding facilities!! Huwaaaargh!! Yok naik kuda yok!!

Tapi kan, dulu nye rules & regulation kalau nak beli ruma kat Johor was that the houses have to be at least 2-storeys high and had to cost a minimum of only RM250,000... But now, the price had doubled to a minimum cost of RM500,000... Nak terbatok aku skejap... hek hek...

I wonder when will this dream become a reality for us?

Hanye Allah sahaje yang tahu...

One thing's for sure, it takes hard work, patience & perserverance... And like my hubby said, "Persefahaman is @#%*ing important..." lol...

Akan ku nantikan impian ini untok menjadi kenyataan...

Insya'allah... Amin...

Boss, I Want An Increment...

One day you send a letter to your boss asking for an increase in your salary...


Dear Bo$$,

In thi$ life, we all need $omething mo$t de$perately. I think you $hould be under$tanding of the need$ of u$ worker$ who have given $o much $upport including $weat and $ervice to your company.

I am $ure you will gue$$ what I mean and re$pond $oon.

Your$ $incerely,

EMPLOYEE


The next day, you received this letter of reply...


My dear EMPLOYEE,

I kNOw you have been working very hard. NOwadays, NOthing much has changed. You must have NOticed that our company is NOt doing NOticeably well as yet.

NOw the newspaper are saying the world's leading ecoNOmists are NOt sure if the United States may go into aNOther recession. After the NOvember presidential elections, things may turn bad.

I have NOthing more to add NOw. You kNOw what I mean...

Yours truly,

BOSS

It's Been A Long While...

As Salam Peepz,

First of all, I'd like to say, "Happy 2010" to everyone!! How's everyone doing in this new year? Mudah2an dimurahkan rezki dan dipermudahkan segale urusan olehNye... Insya'allah, amin... =)

A lot of things happened lately... New Year's Eve lunch celebration with my colleagues... My mini little family's "Moving Out Day" from Yishun to Sengkang... Asil & Asyura's first day in their new Child Care Centre... The day when I heard that one of my cousin went missing...

The part where I heard that my cousin went missing was quite a shock... I wasn't prepared for the news... Itupon aku dapat tahu when I overheard mom talking about it to someone over the phone... Baik per, sedare aku lari rumah & not a single human informed me... pfft...

My heart dropped the moment I knew that the news of her went missing was true... I straight away tried calling her mobile phone and got more panicky plus teary the moment I found out that the phone line was no longer in use... Seriously aku panic giler... Then there came the memory flashbacks... Then I started crying...

She's the cousin who had just lost her dad recently (My late Uncle, Wak Mi)... Then there's her mom who's pregnant with her youngest brother... And she has another brother who now have to be both the elder sister and son towards his pregnant mommy...

And the part when I read my other cousin's (Lala) recent blog entry about her mom (Aunt Mama Yang) who dreamt of my late Wak Mi in her sleep was already making tears running down my cheek... ='( And now this...? Anak diye lak went missing... I feel like I'm not being a better cousin to her... I feel guilty for not giving my cousin enough advise for all the things that she went thru... I feel at fault for not giving her more advise and be more closer to her... Felt really really bad and sad...

To my Cousin Sutinah (I know you are somewhere out there reading my blog): Kak, kau balek la Kak... Kitorang sume sayang & risau kan kakak... Kenape Kakak tak call or sms Kak Lily bile ade problem... Yang kat hospital bile Nenek saket, sape kau ajak berbual pasal problem kau? Aku & Kak Lala kan? Yang bile Ayah kau meninggal & you couldn't take the pain that you went thru with your family & all, sape kau ajak berbual? Aku & Kak Lala jugak kan... ? Kenape kau tak nak cari kitorang... We can sit, talk & listen to your problems... Sekurang2 nye you can talk to Kak Lala coz I know you are more closer to Kak Lala than me... You shouldn't be doing what you did Kak coz your late Ayah for sure would disapproves of it... Ayah pasti sedih Kak kau buat macam ni... I know you have your fair share of family problems & siblings rivalry... Aku pon... Kak Lala pon... Everyone of us have our fair share of crap... Please Kak, I'm beggin you... Balek la Kak... Kesian kan adek2 kau... Kesian kan arwah Ayah... Kesian kan Ibu... Ibu really needs your emotional and physical support right now... Your unborn brother will come out soon Kak... Please la Kak... Come back... Sume orang risau pasal kau Kak... Remember this, walaumacamane siak you think they are, they are still your family... They are your blood... Darah dageng kau... Kau pon tahu kan, what I've been thru during my teenage years... I told you everything... One thing I know, WE ALL LOVE & CARE FOR YOU... There are some of us who might seemed angry or even disappointed for the actions that you took... But Kak, believe me... Kitorang sume sayangkan kau Kak... Please come back...

And to Cousin Sutinah's boyfriend: I know who you are & my gut feeling tells me that my cousin is with you all this while eversince she went missing... You are so not a gentleman... Kau tak gentle ah... You claim that you kept the promise that you made between you & my late Wak Mi & that is to take good care of Sutinah for him... Now, WHERE IS YOUR PROMISE? KAU BIARKAN ADEK SEDARE AKU KLUA RUMA? Kau ade terfiker tak untok bawak diye balek...? Imagine this, if Sutinah happens to be your sister OR your cousin OR your daughter, how would you feel? Ape perasaan kau? Yes, from what I heard, Sutinah said that you're a good guy... You taught her a lot of good things and even gave her good advise... But the part when my cousin decided to go missing all of a sudden? Halo? I didn't get you there? Where is your piece of advice and where is the promise you kept towards my late uncle? Please think la eh... Refresh your memory a bit can?

And when my mini little family had made a rush decision to move out from Yishun to Sengkang was like a "terjon botol" kind of thing... We really to need to get out from Yishun and stay in a new place... This was where it tests me both physically & emotionally... Bangon pagi2 anta budak2 pegi Child Care naik lori with the help of Bro in-law, Yus...

We have our own reasons for moving out... We couldn't stand the gossips, the hypocrisies & lies in Yishun... They were all FAKES...

Yes, the change seems so sudden... But we had no other choice... I know there are some family members who disagree about this... They can say whatever crap they want about me & my hubby... They don't know us really... Jangan nak pandai2 letak hukum kat se2orang sebab korang bukan Allah Ta'ala... You guys couldn't even read our hearts nor our minds...

Say what you people wanna say... At least we know that all these while you guys have been faking craps infront of us... We stay in Sengkang, so what? Kitorang susah ade korang tolong? Ade korang amek tahu? Please la eh... Tompang senang, yes... Tapi bile mintak tolong, foooooh...!! Mengire dan mengate lagi ade...

One more thing... YOU said to my hubby before we left Yishun that aku ni hati busok & that one day if I came back crawling to YOU, the person that YOU'll look for would definitely be my hubby... Jahat sangat pemikiran korang eh...

The part where you guys were so looking forward that "something" would happen in our marriage... It really pisses me off... Instead of doakan yang terbaik, korang mengharapkan perkare burok akan berlaku... Ni yang korang cakap korang ni ade care punye orang? Baik per... Tergamak korang sangke burok macam tu eh... Hati sape yang busok ni?

And one more thing, kalau hati aku ni BUSOK sepertimane yang korang sangke kan, well let me briefly sum up a few things here...

Kalau hati aku ni busok, I won't:

- Sacrificed my teenage life for the sake of the family...
- Worked at a young age trying to help the family out financially when I should've furthered my studies & pursued my dream instead......
- Brought my brothers out even when I went out on dates & outings...
- Bought treats, gifts & stuffs for the family when I earned extra income...
- Have protected my mom & brothers when they were whacked up like dogs with bruises & blood on their faces!!

These are just to mention a few...

And kalau hati aku ni BUSOK, I would've just abandoned my mom & my siblings with all the FREAKING STRESS that I went thru as the eldest sibling in the family trying to cope with my studies and everything, when YOU as a DAD abandoned YOUR responsibilities as a DAD... Leaving the DAD responsibilities to my mom and the MOM responsibilities to ME!!

So DAD, "Where were you when you were truly needed? Where were you when you left mom & your children, leaving us to fend for ourselves...? Seriously, I'm lacking of DADDY's love here... And even eversince the arrival of both of my brothers to this world & the part where both YOU & MOM had showed your favouritism side towards sons more than daughter until NOW, I still CARE for the family... Yet, this is what I got? BUSOK HATI? Syukor Alhamdulillah... Ni balasan yang aku dapat... Syukor Alhamdulillah..."

And the part when you said that tahap aku "blom sampai"... Please la eh... What makes you think that your tahap da sampai? Allah tells you that your "tahap" da sampai is it? Please la eh... Who are you or should I say who are we to judge others & ourselves this way... Kite manusia, same2 buat kesilapan... Nobody is perfect...

And the part when you said something like suami aku rajin solat tapi akhlak tak ade... Fooooh!! This part lagi best... The part when you made your own judgement thinking that my hubby solely depends on my working income to survive our mini little family with, was so not true!! Sorry la eh... At least laki aku bukan jenis kedekot, kemot, malas, kaki lepak & panas baran... Alhamdulillah, my hubby is a responsible man & Insya'allah, I always pray that he stays that way (Amin)... Say whatever you guys wanna say, yes? Puaskanlah hati korang... And like my hubby always says, " Suatu hari di akhirat, baru sume orang tahu..."

The part where both of my kids have to go Child Care everyday was something sad... No more "Nenek" to take care of them coz there wasn't any sincerity as it was all about the money & being calculative... pffft... If only they knew what we both parents went thru...

OK, aku rase crite aku ni macam the very the panjang lebar... Makin crite makin EMO... So, that's it for today's entry...

A reminder to some... This blog is about my life, my thoughts & my say... Kalau ade diluar sane tu yang tak berkenan with what is written in here & kalau korang rase korang nak step kecoh2 then be it... Sekurang2 nye aku tak mengumpat & mengate from one mouth to another... I throw everything in this blog... And I feel much more better to vent out my feelings this way rather than to gossip around & menambahkan dose...

And if you think that by reading this entry you could sense that I'm pissed, YES!! I am so freakingly pissed!! Pissed, angry, sad & disappointed...