True Friend...

What is a true friend?

A true friend says what they think their friend needs to hear even when they know that their friend may get angry...

A true friend doesn't leave because they are afraid to be with you...

A true friend doesn't leave when the fun stops and things get uncomfortable...

There are just of few of the values that real friends hold dear...

In short, a true friend recognizes the value of the friendship and holds it sacred...

So, are you truly a True Friend of mine?

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I am feeling very sad & disappointed...

Everytime I tried brushing it aside, it just comes back on & on... Everytime I be nice to someone, that someone would eventually step on my head over & over again...

I wonder how would they feel if they were in my shoes... I guess they couldn't be bothered to think about it...

So why would I even be bothered thinking about them & the problems that they are facing when they don't even bother thinking about me? So should I be doing things that only concerns me like what they did?

Also, there's always a reason behind everything that happen...

When The Almighty gives you wealth, there must be a reason for HIM to give you that kind of wealth...

And the promise that you said to me a few years back thru MSN, that, I definitely still remember & is still fresh in my mind... And when the time comes, I'll definitely ask you about it personally coz so far, nothing is being done to resolve it...

I guess the saying is true, when you have a bit of wealth, you seems to forget about everything that you said & even everyone that you know...

It's such a sad thing...

And fyi, now then I believe that you are taking advantage of me... You take my kindness for granted... I hope may The Almighty make you realise this in a "POSITIVE WAY"...

Shucks... I never feel this sad, this disappointed, this used & this taken advantage @ in my whole entire life...

And the best part, it has to come from you, of all people whom I know, whom I ever shared my problems with...

I am really out of words... ='(

Time & time again, I've been expressing myself with entries like these... Time & time again I've been taken advantage @... I don't know whether should I be feeling angry or pissed? But I seriously am feeling bloody sad like crazy & to the extend of shedding my tears...

Like it or not, I've to face whatever obstacles that comes by with a peaceful mind & heart...

And when The Almighty is testing you with obstacles, He's focusing right on you to see whether will you pass His Test...

Insya'allah, I'll pluck up everything that's left within me to pass thru this test... Coz I know that there's always a sunshine after the rain... And He never breaks His Promises to His Humble Servants who pass His Tests...

There is no power & no strength except allah's,the highest high, the almighty

la hawla wala quwata illa billa hil aliyil azeem

I guess I should start doing my work now before this whole entire office gets flooded with my tears...

To YOU...

You don't have to put on a fake mask & a fake smile whenever you see me & my family... I could jolly well tell it from your face that you are pushing it too hard... FYI, your face tells everything...

I heard soooooo many things about what you said behind our backs [And as always, you got no guts to even tell it straight up to our faces...] Pity us, dah dok jaoh2 kat Sengkang & tak kacau orang, maseh jugak ade yang saket hati eh?

And what I can say to you is this > I bloody hell don't give a bloody damn about every single gossips & back-bitings that you said... And, I REALLY am not the bloody "MAKCIK K-PO" type to even give a damn about you, your life or your family... So STOP GIVING A DAMN ABOUT ME & MY FAMILY & TELLING US WHAT EXACTLY IT IS THAT WE NEED TO DO!! LOOK @ YOUR OWN FLAWS BEFORE LOOKING @ OTHERS!!

Say what you want to say plus that "saket hati-ness" of yours... One day, the future will tell what sort of human you truly is... In fact, seriously, your true colours are beginning to appear already...

And that fake mask of yours? tsk tsk tsk... You should just flush it down the toilet coz no point of you wearing it anymore...

What's the use of you seeking forgiveness, hugging here & there on the 1st day of Syawal when there's still a lump of hatred in your heart... Buang current jer... Really...

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I prefer to be true to myself, even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others, rather than to be false, and to incur my own abhorrence...

It is better to displease the people by doing what I know is right, than to temporarily please them by doing what I know is wrong...

Thank you... =)

So Adorably Cute!!

Aren't they the cutest kitties you've ever seen?

Look how they snug perfectly into the coffee mugs!! Soooooooo cute!!

Every Obstacle That Comes Would Only Make Us Tougher...

I've got a long time goal to achieve...

To be a much more better mom & wife to my family...

Sometimes I think I'm crazy for setting such a goal... I mean, who don't wanna have a happy life & be successful in everything they do... Sometimes, I just think that I'm not good enough @ it? I wanna do more out of it... But hubby always says that it's all good & I'm doing just fine doing what I do... I guess I'm too "lo-so" & "ngee-yau"... Obviously I think too much la har...

And lately, I've this strong feeling that an obstacle is coming my way & it has arrive sooner than I expected...

This one is definitely gonna be 1 of the major obstacles that I'm gonna go thru... And right now, it's already testing me physically, mentally & financially...

This is just the beginning... The early stage of this huge obstacle...

Insya'allah, I'll stay strong & tackle it like how I had faced all my previous obstacles before... And I'm not gonna be facing it alone... I always have my Baba by my side... And we'll face it together like we always do [thru good & bad times]... Insya'allah... Amin... =)

Obstacles come & go... The more obstacles you get, the more tougher you become & the more resistance you are in facing them all...

And I will never give up...

P/S: What is it with humans & moodswings... hmmm... Selfish? Calculative? Ignorant? Stop it la sei... Enough already...

Weekend Spent...

"Look Ma, a Ninja Turtle... Wooo-chaaaaa!!"

It's like a routine, everytime when I'm not working, my mind's switch on to homemaker mode & the hubby never fails to say, "Ummi, have you had enough of doing chores? Need my help? Your hands & feet never stops walking around doing stuffs in the house..."

My usual reply, "It's OK la. It's my responsibility anyway, as a wife & a mother & are you not lucky to have me? (grinning)"

Him, "Diligent, hardworking and multi-task... Very few wives could do the same thing as you do... I thank Allah for giving me you as my wife... (smiling) "

So (as usual) I spent this week's long holiday cum weekend cleaning, vacuuming (seriously the amount of dust is... SPEECHLESS...), mopping, cooking, doing the laundry (and I got tonnes of laundry plus ironing to do), attending a wedding reception & grocery shopping with the hubby & kids...

There's this wedding reception from the maternal grams side of the family somewhere in Hougang... Obviously, hubby & I went there with our kids... Reception started from 2pm till 10pm... And we got ourselves lost for nearly half & hour on the road making lots of turns, going round & round... pfft...

Quite a number of people attended the reception... And there's this thing called "joget lambak" happening @ the wedding reception itself... People dancing to kara-ok songs sang by other people...

We were surprised to see that those dancing were "pakciks & makciks" aged between 40 plus to 50 plus... The rest of us just sat, observed & laughed @ the way they danced... Songs played were very "OR-BIT" to the max... And the heavy rainy weather in the evening was making the whole atmosphere even worst... Da macam kat kelab dangdut siak... They were like shaking their shoulders & asses off... OMG... Unbelievable... And here I am thinking that this type of "joget lambak" doesn't exist anymore coz obviously it still does... (-_-)"

We managed to leave early & that was only after the DJ played a few songs which consisted of famous Hindustani music... 50% of the Malay people there were dancing like crazy to "Bollywood Fever"... And did I tell you that every single 1 of them wore sarees, punjabs & kurtas?

Seriously, this is the 1st time I went to a very "kecoh-rable, joget lambak" wedding... Even the brides & grooms (yup! 2 brides & 2 grooms) were caught dancing their asses off... ahahahaha!! And I'm like, "Huh? Oh... OK..." This is another type of Malay Wedding, or no, wait, Bollywood/Deepavali Wedding or whatever it is called la har... Thank God the food were all yummy-licious... Especially the Asam Chicken... Very nice...

After which, the rest of our evening was spent with the kids @ Giant Tampines Hypermarket... The kids sure love to go there... They'll spent their time @ the toys section with their Baba, while I go around shopping for groceries & stuffs...

I had this sad dream last Friday nite...

I dreamt of my late uncle (Wak Mi) who had passed away a year ago... In that dream, he looked 20 years younger like how he used to look like when grams were staying @ 1 of her previous cribs... His face was glowing & the moment he saw me, he smiled & straight away hugged me so tightly & kissed me on my forehead just like he always did when he was alive... He didn't even say a word... He just, hugged... The hug was a comforting one that it made me burst into tears.. It's like in that dream, I was telling him about my feelings & those problems that I'm facing & about his daughter & all... I really couldn't hold back my tears... I just cried... (sigh)

I guess maybe perhaps, he somehow knew everything & he knows that I can overcome every single obstacles that comes along the way & that I'm trying my best...

I eventually woke up crying... That was the most saddest dream I've ever had... Somehow, I felt better... Maybe thanks to the hug... I guess...

Till now, I still couldn't believe that he's gone too soon...

Al-Fatehah...

Just Be Yourself...

Photo courtesy of Google...

What's with copycats nowadays huh? They are really starting to get on my freaking nerves already... Gosh!! Get a life la instead of following every single thing others do...

You people go about following every single thing that I wear, buy & do... Seriously, you people should go get a life... Eh!! Where's your sense of style? Y'all too cooped up is it? Till y'all don't even know how to explore your own style of fashion sense... So annoying you know or not...? Even everyone around me notice the same thing!! OMG!!

It's a funny thing how y'all don't even bother to put on a hijab like I do... This part you don't even bother to copycat huh? Go put on a hijab like I do... Go cover up your assets (instead of flaunting em) like I do... Guess it's impossible for anyone of you to do that, right?

If every single thing that I do, you feel like following, & claim that it's your way of style (yang "di ilhamkan dengan sendiri nyer"), please la... I wanna vomit blood sia... I'm not even blind to not notice every step that you people make... I just force myself to switch into silent mode for God's sake & pretend that I didn't see any of it!!

Get a life sia... Seriously...

A colleague of mine once said, "Perhaps your existence makes them feel threaten... Your existence of being around them makes them wanna be & look even far more better than you..."

Good luck in trying to follow every single thing that I wear & do... Coz @ the end of the day, to me, you people are nothing... Guess having me around had somehow made you feel threaten or (worst still) shaken your way of life...

Why la people love to piss me off when I don't even bother about their lives? tsk tsk tsk... Sickening humans... Pity them for being so "sengket" & cooped up in their own kinda world... =)

"Copycats try & try & try to be who they're not & that is why they don't seem real for they did steal another's deed to fill their need..."

P/S: So I guess sooner or later, y'all be finding a hubby like I do, start a family like I do, make babies (1 boy & 1 girl) like we do, buy a car like we do etc, etc, etc... Is there anything else that I do that y'all don't do?