Last Day of 2018..

Last day of 2018 & I brought the whole squad to work!! LOL!!

Find A Solution, Not Excuses!!

One can always take the easy way out & give up without trying hard enough to find a solution..

Truth is, real strength comes when you decide to keep pushing yourself forward no matter what the circumstances may be..

Life is never easy, it is mostly SCARY.. It is a challenge; days upon days, one after another.. Nobody said that nothing's worth having to come by easy..

And some people just need to get this knocked in their senses by a sledge hammer coz I am sick & tired of having people who loves pushing their problems & responsibilities away & then expects others to help solve it for them!!

Where Goes The Responsibility?

By simply pushing your problems to others & expect them to settle your problems for you while you live your life with excuses upon excuses, brings you NO WHERE..

Eventually people will get sick & tired of all those shit & those crap..

So what makes you think you're the only one in this world with issues & problems to solve while others don't? Have you ever think about that? What others are facing in their daily lives.. What others are going thru.. Having to juggle with their lives; Mentally, Physically, Emotionally & Financially..

Well, I guess you don't..

On another note, "One who's been spoonfed their entire life will NEVER see eye to eye with the one who had to go thru fire to get it.."

To YOU.. Sila HADAM!!

I chanced upon this in IG today & just needed it to be up in my blog.. The need for me to let it out..

To the "hypocrite-pretending-to-be-nice" woman who has a lot to say & backbite about me, who compares & competes in everything I do, who loves showing it off & to sum it all, despises me for no reason!!

The fact is, I have NO ISSUE with people & don't intend to.. It's a DIFFERENT STORY when the one who started this whole feud is YOU, YOUR DAMN FOUL MOUTH & UGLY ATTITUDE.. I mind my own business.. I do things that make me happy.. I wear what makes me feel good & comfortable.. I go anywhere I want to.. In other words, whatever that's within my affordable budget, I'm all in.. And most importantly, I don't go begging & borrowing money from others (unlike some people) even though I don't hold a high executive post & work in 1 of those big organizations somewhere in central CBD..

The fact that you're somehow related to me, not by blood but of family ties.. Till now, I do wonder how could someone like you, who have done & said so many mean things towards ME & MY FAMILY, could still have the CHEEK to face us all & PRETEND like nothing ever happened whenever we meet!!

I have people telling me, to let it go, forgive & forget.. "Alaaaa.. Yang sudah tu, sudah je la..", they said.. No! I won't! Why?! Coz these people have no idea what I went thru!! What we ALL went thru!! Having to struggle & juggle with it all.. Having other family members despising us, giving us that "one kind" look & gossips, treating us in such a way that we felt so LEFT OUT from the rest of the family members, believing in every single fabricated words you have been telling around about us & our well-being.. That pain & suffering; PHYSICALLY, EMOTIONALLY & FINANCIALLY.. Kite sewa ruma pon jadi bahan kata!! Kita ada kreta pon jadi bahan kata.. Org ingat kita hidop senang dengan hasil duit sewa ruma, tapi mereka tk kan faham situasi kita pade ketika itu.. Walaupon dikata orang, Alhamdulillah, aku bangga dengan diri kita, suami istri.. Dengan berkat pertolongan oleh Nya, kita tidak menyusahkan hidop orang lain dengan meminjam wang sana sini walaupon kita sudah beranak 2 & with 1 on the way at that time.. (Unlike SOME people yang hanya pandai mengata tentang kehidopan orang lain tetapi kehidopan diri sendiri pon tk betol..) Mind you, I was at my early stage of my 3rd pregnancy & I was feeling the impact of it all.. ME!!

Frankly, from my point of view about you, I feel that YOU ARE JUST SO DAMN INSECURE to the extend that it makes you feel jealous & envious of the life, Allah has blessed others with.. Maybe that explains the need for you to go around backbiting, fabricating stories & telling other family members (outsiders included) about me & my family.. And maybe that explains your inferiority complex behaviour; the need for you to compete & compare with others.. And then showing it off for everyone to see.. Oh we ALL have eyes & we DO see it all thru your actions.. "EVERYONE OF US".. But then again, sorry la eh.. TIME LAMBAT ar nak step main "show-off / compete / compare / berbual world" ni sume.. Time zaman orang kampong dulu2 bole ar..

I pity you.. I really do..

However, though years have passed, I will not let bygones be bygones for all that you said & done.. And I will never ever gonna forgive you, your damn foul mouth & ugly attitude..

ORANG LAIN TIDAK AKAN MERASAI & FAHAM APE YG KITA LALUI MELAINKAN, JIKALAU ALLAH SENDIRI BERIKAN KEPADA MEREKA PELUANG YANG SAMA UNTOK MELALUI APA YG TELAH KITA RASA & LALUI!!

KAU TAK AKAN FAHAM APA ERTI MENJADI SEORANG IBU YANG BERKORBAN, MEMBAHAGIKAN WAKTU & PENAT LELAH NYA UNTUK BEKERJA, MENOLONG SUAMI & KELUARGA MELAINKAN ALLAH SENDIRI YG AKAN MEMBERIKAN KAU KESEMPATAN ITU.. Ada orang baru anak satu da kecoh laki bini.. Ada orang belom ada anak, laki bini bekerja pon duit tiap2 bulan tk cukop, pinjam sana sini.. Ada orang kalau pasal hal anak orang lain pandai mengata, cuba tngk kesudahan dengan anak sendiri tu mcmana pulak nanti..

KAU TAK AKAN FAHAM APA PERASAAN ITU BILA KAU DIPERKATAKAN & DIPULAUKAN LAKI BINI OLEH AHLI KELUARGA KAU SENDIRI DISEBABKAN OLEH PERBUATAN MULOT2 PUAKA AHLI KELUARGA KAU YANG LAIN, YANG TAK KAN PERNAH HAPPY TNGK HIDOP KAU SENANG WALAU SEDIKIT PON.. Aku rase kalau kau kena mcmana aku kene oleh perbuatan kau, kau da buat kecoh satu kampong carik "backing" (as usual).. Sedangkan hal family aku, satu kampong da tahu mcm2 crite, baik yg betol & yg tidak betol.. Tu pon dari mulot longkang kau.. But don't worry la, aku tak jahat & tak berhati busok mcm kau yg tk bole happy tngk org lain happy.. Aku biarkan ALLAH sahaja membalas segala perbuatan yg kau da buat kat family aku.. Islam ade kifarah, what you did towards others, you will always get it back in return; sooner or later.. =))

When you are given the chance to be in other's shoes, only then will you know how it all feel..

Akhir zaman ni Allah nak beri balasan skejap je.. Tak payah tunggu Akhirat kelak.. Dia bagi CASH & CARRY.. As time goes by, one by one, everything that you did towards me & my family, eventually goes back to you & your family, without you realizing it..

Sendiri mau ingat, sendiri mau hadam & sendiri gi dok diam2 muhasabah diri.. 

Mana Yang Lebih Baik?

“Diriwayatkan dari Abu Hurairah Abdirrahman bin Syahrin radhiyallahu ‘anhu, ‘Rasulullah Shallallahu Alaihi wa Sallam bersabda, ‘Sesungguhnya Allah tidak melihat kepada tubuh kalian dan tidak pula kepada rupa kalian, tetapi Dia melihat kepada hati dan amal kalian.”

So Sick Of "You Have To Respect Your Elders"..

RESPECT IS EARNED.. HONESTY IS APPRECIATED.. TRUST IS GAINED.. LOYALTY IS RETURNED..

BE IT 10, 20, 30, 40, 50, 60, 70, 80, 90 OR EVEN A CENTURY OLD..

IT IS WHAT IT IS & I DONT GIVE A SHIT NO MATTER HOW OLD OR WHO YOU ARE!! WHAT YOU GIVE IS WHAT YOU GET!!

JUST BECOZ YOU'RE OLDER, THAT DOESN'T GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO TREAT THOSE WHO ARE YOUNGER IN A HORRIBLE WAY & EXPECT THEM TO PRETEND LIKE NOTHING EVER HAPPENED & BE OK WITH IT!!

SICK OF ALL THIS BULLSHIT!!

Liar! Liar! Pants On Fire!

2 things I can't tolerate..

A liar..

A liar who gets mad or plays the victim when you don't believe the lies they're trying to convince you with..

Thought of The Day..

Lumrah hidop manusia.. Oh well..

Ibu Yang Baik..

Love this..

When You Treat Chores As A Form of Worship..

"What you do in your house is worth as much as if you did it up in heaven for our Lord.." - That's when you treat household chores as a form of worship..

Well, some literally live their lives with excuses upon excuses & without doing anything, while expecting others to do everything for them even when they are bless with good health; to be spoon-fed..

Org2 mcm ni nanti Allah bagi saket betol2 baru tahu.. 😒

It Doesn't Matter To Me Either; What You Give Is What You Get..

Another good news is..

Since we cannot make people like, love, understand, validate, accept or be nice to us & we can't control them either, then they gotta brace themselves if we give them the same kind of treatment as well..

Gotta thank my IG friend for sharing this post.. 😊🖒

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#canwinoscarliaoforbestact

Words Are Meaningless When Your Actions Prove Nothing..

This.. ❤❤❤..

Actions speak louder than words..

Don't trust their words, trust their actions coz actions will prove why words are meaningless..

But then again, empty vessels always make the most noise..

My Thoughts For Today..

I've made mistakes in life..

I've allowed people to take advantage of me & accepted things way less than I truly deserve..

It usually takes such hurtful experience to change my ways & how I perceive things..

People who don't see any issue in their actions can't be changed.. People whose actions doesn't match their speech.. People who are so very inconsiderate, self-centred & whose lives are fueled by drama 24/7; episodes upon episodes..

These people are the ones who will never change..

They just become more of who they really are; worst than ever..

The ones who have not walk my journey & living the life I'm living won't be able to feel what I felt until they experience it themselves..

I bet they would stumble & fall the moment they start walking & won't be able to complete the whole entire journey just like I did..

Asyura With Her Baba..

I showed my girl this video I took of her & her Baba; talking, holding hands & walking together..

Told her how blessed she was for having a doting father whom she could easily talk, give hugs & kisses to anytime she wants.. A father who is very protective of his only daughter & one who expresses & showers her with so much love.. A father who is always looking forward to head home straight after work just to rest & spend as much time as he can with his family..

I told her to treasure having such a father coz when I was her age, I wasn't treated in such a way.. And that when I was her age, I yearned for such moment with my own dad.. But somehow, I understood & had come to accept that my dad had his own way of showing how much he cares & loves his children.. Nevertheless, I love my Papa still.. And if it weren't for him & all that I had gone thru, I won't be who I am today..

Told her that I'm gonna put this video up in my blog & that one day, she will miss this moment when her father is no longer living in this world.. And I will make sure that every moment we spent as a family be kept in this blog too..

One day, when we passed away, our children could always look up into that blog of mine whenever they miss us.. ❤

Some People Will Never Change..

Some people will never change..

Every time & effort to change these people will usually go barren coz they will never see anything wrong with everything they say & do.. Life evolves ONLY around them; ALWAYS finding ways of seeking attention.. They usually notice the change in your attitude towards them, but they won't even care to notice that its their sickening behaviour that made you change..

Everyone of us has a story to tell, some just never change their ways & still living a life in complete denial..

A leopard will never change its spot & a snake will still bite you, no matter how good you are with it..

Some people will never change..

They just learn how to stage their pathetic drama even better than the previous episodes & assume that others won't be able to see right thru it.. They should go for an audition at MediaCorp.. Oh well.. 😏

What's Wrong With Being Too Nice?

Never take advantage of the person who does the most for you & is always there to ensure your well-being..

When you're being nice & forgiving, people take advantage of it.. And when you start to set some boundaries, people said you're just being plain mean..

Sometimes, I regret being nice, forgiving & for making selfish/self-centred/self-seeking people a priority in my life..

Some people will never ever change..

Memories of Yesteryear..

Bringing back the memories of yesteryear.. Zaman dating.. Zaman "krempeng" 😆 ..

When I was asked by my "boyfriend's parents" to tag along on a trip to the zoo for a little bonding sessh.. When I had my hair cut super short & it freaked my then "boyfriend" out & so I didn't have such a haircut anymore after that 😂.. When the husband had his ala2 boyish "Andy Lau" haircut 😍 (I miss running my fingers on those fringe of his by the way) & we always brought these 3 little boys along with us wherever we went.. Our nephew Khai & my siblings.. Alhamdulillah, till now, these 3 boys never fail to keep in touch with us & one another.. They looked sooooooo cute laaaaaaa!!! ❤❤❤

Cycling To Our Favourite Hangout..

Cycling with my kids to our favourite hangout.. Just becoz my king had to work & I can go berserk if I stay all coop up at home thru out the long weekend.. We're so lucky today, coz we chanced upon quite a number of squirrels up close; all thru out our little trip.. 📽: Little Akil..

Of tree climbing with my kids.. I had to persuade & carry the little one up the tree as he was freakin' out.. Muke member cuak habes.. Step maintain tk takot.. Padehal all the way kepit dgn aku atas pokok.. 😂😂😂.. We played with the fishes by the pond & just admiring Allah's creation.. ❤ 

Some peace, tranquility & the greenery will do just fine to calm my nerves down..

Till I See You Again Nek..

The last time I visited her grave, it wasn't like this.. Now there're wild flowers blooming everywhere around her grave with insects roaming, bees & butterflies flying; hovering above those lovely flowers, searching for nectars..

I wept.. Her grave looks so very beautiful, just like a mini little flower garden.. I decided to snip off the unwanted weeds & let those nice smelling flowers be, so that they may be of benefit to the flora & fauna there..

Somehow, this heart of mine never stops reassuring me that Nenek is well taken care of on the other side & the deeds she did when she was still alive must have please Almighty Allah..

You see, I saw her jenazah smiling when I bathed her for the last time.. I dreamt of her smiling, wearing the most nicest robe & with a "noor" on her face.. She didn't say a word in that dream, she just looked, smiled & hugged me like she usually did.. I witnessed how she prayed 5 times a day even on days when she wasn't feeling very well.. I witnessed how she would always recite Surah Al-Kahfi & Yassin on Thursday nite & other Surahs frm the Al Quran even on any other days.. She would make sure that she completed the entire Juz frm the beginning of Ramadhan till the end & would happily give me a call just to update & encourage me to follow in her footsteps..

Memandangkan aku dijaga oleh Nenek dari bayi, jadi Nenek org pertama yg mengajar aku mengaji, solat & lain2.. She could transform herself frm being the most lovable Nenek who pampers her grandchild to a fierce one who could whoop your ass anytime with a thick long "rotan" as her sidekick whenever she's into her "Guru Ngaji" mode.. Dia kalau mengajar org ngaji tak mintak upah.. Dia mengajar ikhlas.. Aku tk rase zaman skrg ade lagi "Guru Ngaji" mcm ni.. Yg sanggop mengajar dgn ikhlas tanpa meminta bayaran satu sen pon..

"Solat Ly.. Ngaji sebrape bole.. Buat sesuatu hati kene ikhlas kerana Allah.. Sedekah sebrape kite mampu.. Nanti bile kite mati, ni lah yg akan tolong kite," she said while holding on to her Al Quran after praying & reciting a few Surahs with it..

I love you Nek.. Allah knows how much I miss you so very much.. And I hope to be just like you one day.. Till I see you again.. ❤

Quote of the Day.. ;)

The empty vessel makes much noise & the loudest sound..

Confidence & fullness are always quiet.. Insecurities & agitation are always loud..

They who have the least wit are the greatest blabbers..

People with brains the size of peas, have mouths the size of watermelons.. 😝

Cakap tk serupe buat.. Mulot je banyak bunyi.. Org mcm ni diam pon cantek.. 🤐

July 31st, A Date To Remember..

July 31st.. The date I was born & the very same date my father inlaw passed away. We both shared another similarity; being left handed. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh nye, mengampuni segala dosa2 nye, melapangkan & menerangi kubur nya & digolongi bersama mereka yg beriman. Ameen.

To Ma & Pa, thank you for bringing me into this world. For teaching me reality of life; the hard way & that regardless of being the 1st born & the only daughter in the family, I have to always be mentally, physically & emotionally prepared in facing life's challenges. For teaching me to always instil patience, perseverance & not to depend on anyone & to always have trust & reliance on Allah in everything I do.

"Selagi bole sabar, Kakak sabar. Selagi bole buat sendiri, Kakak buat sendiri. Fiker sebelom bercakap & melakukan sesuatu."

Thank you for checking up & being with us frm the beginning till the end of the burial. Till now, you both never fail to check up on us all & ask whether is everything alright at home.

To Papa, mungkin Papa tk pernah tonjolkan kat kakak yg Papa sayangkan kakak. Sebab dari kecik Papa org nye kuat panas baran & very strict terhadap kakak. Mungkin kerana kakak satu2 nye anak pompuan Papa yg paling sulong. Semakin kakak membesar & sudah menjadi istri & ibu kpd 3 org anak, baru kakak faham kenapa Allah tentukan perjalanan hidop kakak dari kecik hingga skrg seperti yg telah ditetapkan. I used to despise you, used to ask myself why am I not treated like a daddy's girl since a child. But as I grew older & saw you shedding your tears when you personally gave my hands in marriage, I realised how much you love me. Papa sayang kakak tak nampak. Whatever you did, its for my own good in yrs to come. You wanted me to be a strong woman. Therefore I thank you & I can never repay every single life experience given to me. If it weren't for it all, I wont be who I am today. I wont be able to live life in such a way where no matter how hard life may take its toll on me, I have to always feel grateful & accept it all with open arms.

I love you Ma & Pa. Hanya Allah sahaja yg dpt membalas segala jasa baik mu & hanya Allah sahaja yg dpt menjaga mu utk ku. Ameen.

Jaga Hati..

Kadangkala kite terlalu menjage hati org lain sehingga membuat hati kite sendiri terseksa.. Kadangkala kite terpakse berkorban hati kite utk menjage perasaan org lain, walaupon hati kite sendiri yg akan saket..

Diri akan terase letih bile terlalu menjage hati org lain.. Ia menjadi lebih letih bile org lain tk pernah menjage hati kite..

Semoga Allah menjage & tabahkan hati kite bukan utk hari ini, tetapi hari2 yg akan datang.. Ameen..

The Fakes & Their Bullshit..

Those who don't socialize much aren't really anti-social.. Its coz they have zero tolerance for drama & fake people.. Its sad when these people take advantage of others by acting all innocent or play the victim game..

Its a good thing I can see thru their bullshit.. My weakness is I'm always being too damn nice, I keep giving these people chances upon chances & making such unworthy people a priority in my life..

I somehow realised who really matters, who really cares, who is truthful & who will be there in times of need.. I am thankful though, for all these difficult people in my life, coz they have shown me who I do not wanna be.. I will keep being ME..

And eventually, these people will choke on their own shit one day.. Coz what goes around comes back around.. Always.. ♻️

Truly I Feel So Very Blessed & Touched..

My 37th (skejap nak masok 40 sen siol) birthday came earlier this year.. Something that I have never hoped for or expected, from those around me..

Memang aku jenis tak look forward on birthday gifts & presents.. Dah diberi chance hidop setahon tua tu dah rase bersyukor..

Maybe, its Allah's way of cheering me up coz eversince Grams passing, birthdays aren't the same for me anymore.. Imagine having your grandma passed on to the next life, 11 days before your birthday.. Yes, the grief is still there.. The pain, hurt & anger.. Always..

And I never stop making myself happy, smile & laugh as much as I can when sadness overcomes me.. The memories of it all, are just too much..

To my brother, Alep & my sister-inlaw, Khat, thank you so much for the facial stuffs & all.. You know that its kinda pricey? Buat ape la korg gi beli2 ni? Aiyo.. You need the moolahs for your upcoming crib!! Aiyo.. Buat bazir2 la.. Next time no need k? Anyway I LOVE IT!!

To my colleague, for the "good luck" beads bracelets.. I don't believe in charms & all coz its 'shirk', so lets just take it as an ornamental bracelet, yes? Its very pretty, plain & simple! Mcm tahu2 je aku tk suke fancy2..

And to the hub, for the super comfy cross-strap sandals, knowing that I am forever into black.. Hub has given me more than enough surprises even when its not my birthday & to the part where I don't even celebrate Mothers' Day at all.. And when asked, he replied,"Its ok Ummi, you deserve it. Eversince I've known you, you tak pernah mintak-mintak, you tak pernah paksa-paksa & you tak pernah merungot yg you hidop susah dgn I.. I thank you for being very patient when I know how hard it is for you to endure our life's biggest challenge.."

And I pray that Allah will keep giving me this strength & patience for as long as I live.. Ameen.. Without it, I don't think I can face life's challenges; physically, emotionally & mentally..

I love everyone of you to bits.. ❤❤❤

Alhamdulillah..

Till We Reunite Again, One Day..

Literally in tears frm the moment I edited this slideshow using all the photos I had of them in my IG.. We will see all of you again one day.. For now, we see you in our photographs & will always cherish the memories we had together.. ❤❤❤

🎶: Photograph - Ed Sheeran

Al-Fatehah..

4 years ago today, 11 days before my birthday.. July will always be a month of sadness & happiness for me..

Words can't express this feeling I have kept & been holding back all this years since your passing..

Till I see you again in the next life, Nek.. My duas will always be with you..

Al-Fatehah buat Arwah Nenek, Hajjah Habsah Binte Haji Sahadan.. ❤❤❤

Leave My Mom Alone!!

Anak nak tunang, kau jempot mak bpk aku last min. Bila dia nikah, mak bpk aku langsong kau tak jempot. Bila dia nak sandeng, lagi seminggu, baru kau jempot. Correction, to be exact, suami kau jempot bpk & adek bradek bpk aku. Dia tak jempot mak aku walaupon mase tu mak aku ada bile dia bagi kad jempotan kat kedai kopi. Last min jugak! Lepas tu baru2 ni kau call, nak jempot mak bpk aku dtg kenduri doa selamat yg akan berlangsong Sabtu ni sebab kau nak pergi Haji. LAST MINUTE LAGI?

Paling best, kau mintak maaf dgn mak aku kat talipon nanges2, "Halalkan makan minom kau. Mintak maaf segala perbuatan kau; mana yg ada buang2 muke.." Buang2 muke eh? Finally!! U realised sape yg mula2 start buat prangai mcm budak Primary main buang2 muke. Aku maseh ingat. Kau yg start buat prangai budak2 dari Arwah Nenek aku kat hospital lagi. Aku tk kan lupe & aku slalu berdoa semoga Allah tk jadikan prangai aku mcm prangai kau. Ameen.

FYI, news of U going on Hajj were made known to us last yr by others, not frm U.

U have enough time to visit my mom, your eldest sister but U chose to call, invite her at the very LAST MIN as always & then seek forgiveness frm her ON THE PHONE? Dengar2 ruma mak bpk aku jaoh per? Kat M'sia eh? Mcm ruma org JB, whom you visit without fail every year on Eid - Org sane educated, ade class, high post & ade yg jadi celebrity gitewww.

Nak nanges2 mintak maaf bukan di talipon. Sebetolnye, kau dtg rumah jumpe mak aku. Kau mintak maaf kat dia elok2. Ruma org JB kau sanggop turon tiap tahon. Ruma mak aku yg dekat ni kau tk bole dtg? Ruma yg lain2 di merata SG bole plak kau sampai. Jijik sangat ke ruma mak bapak aku? U stay in the same neighborhood & have all the time to visit but U chose not to! Its the in-trend now is it, crying & asking forgiveness thru phone? Wow! I learned something new today from someone who's much more older than me!

If the reason for your "USUAL LAST MINUTE" call & invite, cries & seeking forgiveness is for the sake of your Hajj, I think U should look into yourself way deeper before going for that Hajj. Beli cermin bnyk2 tempek kat seluroh dinding ruma kau & hadap tngk cermin tu betol2. Aku ni agama tk brape pandai mcm korg sume. Aku bukan org mesjid. Aku bukan mcm anak2 kau, depan mak bpk step baik hormat salam org tua. Blakang mak bpk, bila tersrempak dgn mak bpk aku, salam pon tk de, jalan tros buat tk nampak. Aku kalau nk tunjok kurang ajar, biar kasi nampak tros. Walaupon mak bpk aku tk ajar aku buat mcm tu.

Jadi kau piker, ape yg kau & yg lain buat selame ni kat mak aku tu patot? U address yourself as a sister? Dari Arwah Nenek aku kat hospital sampai dia tk de, kau dgn yg lain buang muke & pulaukan mak aku. Depan jenazah Arwah Nenek aku, kau kurang ajar dgn mak aku!! Straight forward - YOU TREAT MY MOM & DAD, ESPECIALLY MY MOM WHO IS YOUR SISTER, LIKE SHE IS YOUR LAST MINUTE OPTION & TREATING HER LIKE A FOOL!!

So are U that worth of a sister to her? Tepok dada, tanya hati.. Just leave my mom alone as how she is right now.. Coz when you leave her alone, you leave ALL of us alone.. Frankly, satu respect kat kau pon tk de dlm hati aku; kau & yg lain2 yg prangai same mcm kau.. What goes around, will eventually comes back around.. Kau buat orang, satu hari kau mesti dpt balasan nye balek.. Ameen!

Mungkin ade hikmah kenape Allah tak bagi aku tesrempak dgn kau.. Sebab Dia lebih mengetahui prangai aku bile aku dlm keadaan marah..

Thought of The Day.. Facts of Life..

This..

It doesn't include mother but father as well..

Grateful that there are those who still care..

Ungrateful that there are those who behave "macam paham" but reality wise, they treat their parents like a passing baton; giving all sorts of lame excuses..

1 of the most pain in the ass excuses is son/daughter-inlaw couldn't get along well with their mother/father-inlaw.. So that gives such people the priority of not inviting their elders to stay with them; no chemistry/cannot click..

Truth is, not many of us can withstand it but its how we deal with it.. Not ESCAPE from it..

Its the responsibility that counts; first & foremost.. By bringing them over & allowing them to stay together with you, observing & tolerating their attitude & habits, in their sickness & good health..

Kalau setakat bawak org tua keluar jalan2, belikan makan, everyone of us can do those simple "chicken mak dodol" stuffs..

Living The Low Key..

Know that there's always someone out there who's gonna be better than you at something..

If you start thinking you're better than others, you're gonna have issues.. Coz in the long run, you wanna stay humble..

Life is hard & it's meant to humble you..

And if you're pushing it too hard, you're not always gonna win.. But if you're winning everytime, then your goals aren't that high enough..

Stay low.. Rush nothing.. Compete with no one.. Whatever happens, always happened for a reason..

Stay humble coz when you gain that ego of success, without realising, you're actually losing yourself..

"The humble man makes room for progress quietly.. The proud man believes that he is already there & will let the whole world sees it.."

Innallaha Ma Assabireen..

I have been facing & enduring every phases of life's challenges eversince I knew what life, is all about..

I have been working at the same place & facing its challenges for the past 17 years.. Nobody likes office politics but I endured & stayed becoz of my little family.. Alhamdulillah, I have no problem with my bosses.. Maybe perhaps that's the reason why I have people trying to find ways of bringing me down..

I have my very own personal family issues that's been there with me frm the day I knew of this saying, "blood may be thicker than water" & although being tied as blood related or thru marriage, family isn't always there for you when you truly needed them the most..

Some stayed while others left you..

Some forever giving excuses upon excuses upon excuses & even threw their part of the responsibility to you, assuming that you are able to carry that much of a burden with you; not bothering to think & feel how much you have been enduring all this while & is being tested every-single-day PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY & EMOTIONALLY..

So much for being part of The Family..

At the end of it all, I always remind myself this,"Allah has chosen me to do something that He knew I could endure.. For He won't test me if He knew my will & faith aren't strong enough to face His tests.."

And for that, I believe one fine day, after overcoming it all, He has something worth for me to wait & have much patience for.. Maybe not in this temporary World but, in the permanent Hereafter, Allah knows best..

Thank you for all the tests, knowing that You are always there watching me in every single step of the way, every single day of my life.. For teaching me to have much patience no matter how my life turns out to be..

The sentence,"Have Patience.. Sabar..", may seems easy when one says it out frm the mouth.. Reality, it is always never easy when you experience it yourself..

Forever I am in your debt.. ❤❤❤

Berani Kerana Benar.. Takot Kerana Salah..

Wrong is wrong.. It doesn't matter whether you're a family member or not.. Wrong is wrong..

You don't support family, you support what is right.. Morals come first..

Berani kerana benar.. Takut kerana salah..

Eid Mubarak Day 2.. Home of Cousin Yanee..

I thank Allah that Kak Yanee & family stayed in the same neighborhood as me.. Dekat je.. Nk beraye pon senang for everyone!!

Sempat "Boomerang-ing" satu-satu.. Tuan punye ruma pon same tk sedap.. Hee hee!!

Thank you Kak Yanee & family for your hospitality!! We had so much fun camwhoring at your place!! Hahaha!! 😘😘

Next stop for Raya & also the last house for the day - our home!! Yasssss!!

Eid Mubarak Day 2.. Home of My Only Pak Ngah..

So we made our next move to Pak Ngah's before meeting up with the rest of the paternal clan again at the home of Cousin Yanee..

Thank you for your hospitality Pak Ngah, Mak Ngah & cousin Nurlin.. We had fun laughing our hearts out with all the random convos at your crib.. 😘😘😘