Al Fatehah..

Grave of my late maternal grams..

Grave of my late paternal grams..

Grave of the hub's late maternal grams..

Grave of my beloved late maternal uncle, Wak Mi..

Grave of my beloved late paternal aunt, Mak Ucu..

The thought to blog about this makes me feel emotional.. All of them had been a true inspiration to us both back when they were still alive.. Their words of motivation, encouragement & advice left a huge impact in our lives.. The ones who always told us not to give up hope in everything that we do in life.. And the importance of "Nawaitu.."

I may not have met the hub's late maternal grams, but 1 thing is for sure, from all the stories that I was told about her by hub & his mom, she was a sweet & strong-willed lady.. And the hub loves her alot..

Mom-inlaw was so happy to be able to visit her late mom's grave.. The look on her face was priceless.. All our efforts were paid off, for the fact that hub & I spent hours & were sweating like crazy searching for all the graves under the scorching sun.. It was all worth it..

Ya Allah, please tell them that we miss them all so dearly.. Every single thing about them.. Please keep them safe, away from "azab kubor", forgive all their sins when they were still alive & put them all in a special place in your Jannah.. And let us all be reunited in it as well.. Amin..

My sincere condolence to 1st sister inlaw & her siblings on the lost of their mother.. And to niece Atiqah as well for she had lost her grandmother whom she had been so very close with eversince she was a baby.. I know how that feel.. And I do grieve & cry sometimes whenever I think about my loved ones who had passed on before me.. Rindu mesti ade.. May Allah forgive all of their past sins & placed them in a better place.. Amin..

And that was the 1st time we all met at the cemetery after so long.. I really do miss those times we had together.. But I guess, memories were meant to be kept & treasured for that's all there's left to everything that we once had..

For the fact that, we knew & will always remember the people who went around telling tales about us to all of you & then getting everyone to believe in every single tale that they said, made us feel sad, disappointed & furious.. Therefore, we let everyone of you be & stay happy in the company of each other.. Our bad, for not being able to be the "kaki bodek", "kaki ampu" type of people; "those who loves to curry favour others" in order to gain one's liking.. Such pure fakeness.. What's there to proof superficially when deep in one's heart they don't mean it & then behind your back, THEY bitch about you? There isn't any sense of sincerity to bond with one another at all.. We've had enough of being treated in such a way.. And we will let time heal everything..

Frankly, I'm happy living life as it is now.. Minding my own family business with the hub & our babies.. Less sins to bear & answer.. And to have parents-inlaw keeping an eye on our kids & home when we're not around.. Alhamdulillah, I'm very thankful for the life that I have now.. Just us, living our lives in a 'sendirian berhad" kinda way..

But, I will not forgive nor will I forget EVERY SINGLE SHIT ASS THINGS that some of YOU did to us & said about us to everyone.. Never.. There's still a score that needs to be settled one fine day if Allah permits.. And I look forward to it when that day comes.. InshaAllah..

The Hub's Other Nephew..

Bumped into this budak kecik the other day while having a "le-park" session at the parents crib..

Khairul, the hub's other nephew from another brother.. 1st brother to be precised..

Gosh!! It's been 2 years of not seeing this fella!! This kecik is "not so kecik" anymore!! Hahahaha!! He's all grown up.. Suare pon dah pecah, macam Abang2.. Dulu time mase tinggal kat Yishun, slalu ajak diye & Adam klua jalan2 sesame..

I hope he's doing & coping well with life.. And hopefully, he'll be able to land himself in a good company, holding a good post one day.. Amin, inshaAllah.. =)

This Is SO Funny!!

"Da LOOK" when you've not met someone for a very long time, happened to bump into them, start a convo with them & they noticed that you lost weight.. AHAHAHAHAHAH!! Siak ar ni!!

Snap! Snap!

When the situation gets kinda "mendak", all you can do is snap a few photos & have some fun with it!! HAHA!!

It's Good To Be Me..

Post pregnancy fats, buck teeth, bulbous nose & a tonne of eyebags will not stop me from feeling good about myself..

It takes a HUGE amount of courage, confidence & time to put aside the insecurities & just embrace all the changes knowing that life itself is a great blessing from Allah..

Jom Selfie!!

And we did a few selfies in the car after Saturday night's Raya visits!! Why? Coz we're cool like that.. *peace* (Asil dah lepak dulu.. LOL)

Raya-ing To The East Side (Part 2)..

So we went for a Raya visit to hub's 2nd bro inlaw's crib as well.. Apparently, the rest of the clan went to JB with my mom inlaw except for Khairullah, Yaya, my dad inlaw & their family pet cats..

Khairullah & Yaya, 2 out of 6 nieces & nephews from the 2nd bro inlaw's clan.. How time flies.. Yaya is slowly blooming into a beautiful lovely flower... Sweet & pretty!! Khairullah on the other hand, has grown so tall & handsome!! And as usual, he would always be the one to entertain us whenever we came over during Raya visits.. Member tolong hidangkan makanan & minoman.. Sejok mate memandang.. Anak bujang sape ni yang pandai layan tetamu?! Untong anak dare yg dapat tackle diye.. Hee hee..

Dulu pendek jer budak2 ni sume.. Skarang, satu2 punye la tinggi.. And even after I got married to their youngest uncle, they still prefer to address me as "Aunty Lily" instead of "Mak Busu".. Frankly, Mak Busu sounds kinda old skool to me.. Heh..


This has got to be my favourite photo taken with them.. Candid photos of us taken by the hub.. Them kids wanna join in the fun as well.. Asyura seems to be so fond of her Kakak Yaya.. Melekat giler budak ni dgn Yaya.. And forever, never can we get a proper photo taken with them kids.. LOL..


Happy faces coz they got to play with all their Pak Ngah's cats.. Sempat plak tu kecek aku mintak suro pujok Baba dorg simpan satu kuceng kat ruma.. Sape nk gi jage kuceng tu Nak? Korg nye land tortoise, freshwater turtle & pet budgie ni sume Ummi korg yg jage.. Nk mintak tambah lagi satu? Dgn bulu kuceng, najis kencing diye lagi.. Foooooh, bole fengsanzzzzzzzz..

Raya-ing To The East Side (Part 1)..

Thank you for the hospitality & for having us over Fidzah & family!! We love your crib A LOT!! Very well organised & super clean too!!

And I hereby, declare that your little Arissa likes me!! HAHAHAHAHA!! She didn't cry a bit even from day 1 I met & carried her eversince her 1st birthday party!! Orang lain mintak dokong diye nanges.. Hee hee.. Dgn aku je diye diam.. Cute or what this little girl?!

Oh & in future, I gotta remind myself to seal the sampol duit raye tightly when it comes to Arissa.. HAHAHAHAHA!! Buat malu jer, on the spot member koyakkan tu sampol surat & kluakan tu duit buat main.. HAHAHAHA!!


And I finally got to see this awesome lady in person after so long!! Gosh!! Like finally!!

She's a year my senior during our secondary school years.. Though we joined the same ECA & that was the Malay Dance Club,we didn't communicate much to each other.. Just the usual smiles, hi & bye.. And surprisingly, we both got to know that she & her siblings are distant cousins of the hub.. HAHA!! What a small world!!

Thank you for having us over  Rufaida & family!! Love the bird's eye view from your humble home & how down to earth you guys are!!

Us..

We looked so young back then!!

Those were the days when I was only into wraps & turbans..

And the hub.. My king so handsome lah!! Ya Allah, that long hairdo.. I miss brushing my fingers on those hair!! 

Our Littlest One..

Sbelom kite main slide kat playground, jom kite bace doa dulu.. Hee hee.. This little surprise gift from Allah never fail to put a smile on our tired faces.. Love everything about him..

Thank You ALL For Coming!!

Paternal Pak Long's clan.. Most of my funniest teenage-hood days were spent with that woman in black.. Awesomest ka-ray-zee-est geng kekek paternal cousin eva!! HAHAHAHA!!


Paternal side of the family again frm right.. Pak Cik, Mak Cik, Pak Uteh & Pak Ucu.. The ones who never fail to keep us laughing out loud with their silly jokes!! I will never forget the day where you guys tried to make me laugh right after I had all 4 of my wisdom tooth removed!! Me trying to bear the pain frm the surgery & also frm laughing to all the jokes.. Kecoh!! AHAHAHAHAHA!!


Paternal Pak Ngah's clan.. Spent some of my childhood days with them.. Hanging out with their daughters as well.. The "geng havoc" type of cousins.. LOL.. Ingat2 balek it was fun.. Coz it's just us girls & no boys..


Last but not least, maternal side of the family.. Mama Li's clan.. Every year without fail, rain or shine they will always come by during Eid for a visit.. Love you guys many2 la..

Thank you ALL for taking your time to visit our humble abode.. =]

And also much thanks to the hub's 2nd Bro & family.. I must admit that I kinda feel awkward after not seeing the 2nd Bro inlaw & his wife for so long.. Nak amek gamba pon rase mcm awkward.. But seeing those cheerful faces from hub's nieces & nephews, laughing & interacting with them melt my heart.. Nurul, Khairullah, Khidir, Yaya, Khabir.. They've all grown up into handsome young chaps & sweet looking young ladies in hijab!! I've yet to see the eldest son in their family, Akid as he's not able to make it.. Hope to bump into him one day.. InshaAllah..

Thank you ALL for coming.. We really appreciate your time & the effort made.. =)

Raya Visiting @ Mimi & Rina's Abode..

Thank YOU for having us all over @ your crib.. Awesome food with awesome company, no doubt about it..

Am wearing the hijab shawl that the bro gave to me as a birthday present.. I LOVE IT ALOT laaaaaaaaa!! So pretty!! Thank YOU Alep ku!! I lap you many2!!

Mom surprised the hub with a belated birthday cake.. Thank YOU Mama!! Cake Tom & Jerry!! AHAHAHAHAHA!! Cute or what my mother?!!

Yang buat aku sebak tu, part Rina & Mimi bukak wedding video dorg & then ade muke arwah Nenek.. Sume sebak tngk video tu.. Everyone of us went silent for a long while..

Kids National Day Eve Celebration..

And so the theme for this year's National Day Eve celebration in school was red..

My girl looked gorgeously "jambu" in Baju Kurong with her long silky hair clipped at the side.. Dah mcm "Perempuan Melayu KAT CHILDCARE CINE Terakhir".. AHAHAHAHAHA!! Alhamdulillah for giving me a sweet looking daughter of my own, Ya Allah..

Those future Mat Rep, Mat Bawah Kolong, Mat Motor & segale mcm MAT.. Dare walk over my hijab shawl first if you wanna go out on a date with my little girl.. She will always be my 1 & only little girl (for now la har.. future blom tahu kalau Allah nak beri rezki lagi.. insha'allah.. hee hee..) even when she grows up into an "anak dare".. Jangan nak sedap2 suke2 klua dgn anak dare aku.. I will make sure that she is hard to get & the lucky guy will have try his very best to get her, cherish her & RESPECT HER..

Seeing my bigger babies now & comparing them back then.. They've grown up so fast.. I miss how cute they were when they were little.. How time flies..

Ummi & Baba love you both Abang Asil & Adek Asyura .. You're still our little babies.. Always.. 

National Day Eve Punye Crite..

House tidied & cleaned.. Laundry done & am left with a few loads more to go..

Sent Asyura to school & then fetched Asil @ the same time.. And now after eating the curry puffs that I've air fried for us to eat, he's just chilling in front of the TV like a boss.. Boss "kementot"..

MC or not, life as a mom MUST go on!! Ape kite buat ni sume amal, ye tk? InshaAllah Allah berikan ganjaran Nye.. Amin!!

And also for the fact that I dislike seeing & coming back to a messy / sticky / untidy / unorganised / smelly home everyday & forever love to chill in a clean home with my cuppa.. Jempot minom!! 

A Year Older & A Year Wiser To My King..

When one door closes, it opens you up to another.. Each door has a different opportunity in store.. For every failure & sadness, there's a blessing in disguise.. Coz He will not burden His slaves for things they can't cope.. Innallaha Ma'as Sabireen..

I'm happy to see you loving what you do out there & coming home to us with a smile on your face.. Never give up on your dreams & keep pursuing it!! Kerane Allah Maha Memberi segale sesuatu yang kite inginkan.. It's only a matter of time.. Slowly but surely with His help, you'll get there.. Amin..

August 8th.. A year older n a year wiser to you.. Alhamdulillah.. May He always be there for you, WITH you.. Rain or shine.. Amin.. 💋

Red Hooded Muslimah For The Day..

Underneath that smile, lies my thoughts & feelings that only Allah has the answer.. I may not know all of the answers now, but InshaAllah slowly & surely He will give it all to me as days go by..

Super LOVE the colour RED on my lips.. Matches perfectly well with my red hooded dress.. Thanks to the Bro's fiancee for the belated birthday gift.. Ku suke skali!! Merah nyah!!

Last post before I hit the sack.. Selfie!!

Alhamdulillah For Your Neverending Blessings..

I'm aware that I'm less than some people prefer me to be, but most of them are unaware that I'm so much more than what they see..

I've been thru the good days & I've also been thru the worse..

I don't have everything that I want but I do have all that I need..

My life may not be perfect, but I'm blessed..

Alhamdulillah..

Rumahku, Syurgaku..

Forever stickin' it plain & simple to black, white & grey for this space..

Marriage photos from 2 generations; maternal (mine) & paternal (hub's).. Above it is Surah Al-Ikhlas, my favourite Surah that I asked from hub as my only mahr or should I say, Mas Kahwen.. The other ayat above the black sofa is the 99 names of Allah.. Handsewn & bought in Mekkah.. A gift from my parents inlaw before they sold their crib out.. That's the only thing hub needed when his parents asked him if he wanted anything from their old crib for keepsake..

Both framed-up Surah & Ayat hold a special place in our hearts.. =)

The Smallest One..

Woke up to this..

Something that I don't get to see everyday when I'm out working.. =]

Officially on 8 Days MC.. Woot Woot!!

Thanks to all 4 of my wisdom tooth, I will only get back to work next week.. So for now, it's mommy's duty time!! I'm thankful that school is just beside our home & I'm able to keep a lookout for the eldest son when he goes to school from the comfort of our own home..


While Abang Asil's in school, Ummi brought the rest of his siblings for lunch.. Selfies are a must!! LOL!! The littlest one looked kinda grumpy coz he's jealous of Kakak Asyura who took a selfie with his Ummi.. That explains why he's frowning.. LOL!!

True Friends Last A Lifetime..

Thank you for visiting our humble abode.. =))

More Eid Mubarak 2014 Photos..

It will take forever to have a proper family photo of us together. Look at 'em, kids! LOL!

Couple selfiesssss! Laki bini tk de keje! HAHA!

Asyura & Uncle Mimi can make a tag team when it comes to funny faces!

All of us Raya-ing @ another cousin's crib in Bedok.. =]

Mom with Mama Li.. I must admit that Mama Li is the carbon copy of my late maternal grams.. She looks exactly like her.. Agak2 rindu nk tngk muke nenek in real life, bole tngk n peloh ciom muke Mama Li.. Glad you are still who you are until now.. Just hope that you remain as you are, as what you always was before.. Coz I don't want you to change into someone that I don't want you to be.. Love you Mama Li.. Always..

One of my cute nieces! Baby Daania Alvira.. Aku panggil diye Pau Cine. LOL!

Us at Mak Long's crib.. It's been a while.. Gotta thank Mat Sarip for inviting us all over.. The cookies, kuehs, agar2, food n other goodies tasted so good!!

Lastly, muke ku yg nampak penat & ngantok.. Eyebags 10 kilo nak campak mane pon aku tk tahu.. LOL!! Pancet wor..

Raya visiting together again next year? Maybe? InshaAllah, kalau diizinkan lagi.. =]