Sunday, December 27, 2009
Asil's First Hair Cut @ The Barber Shop...
As Salam Peepz!!
I've no idea what's wrong with SLIDE.com coz I tried uploading again all the photos from Asil's mini birthday celebration plus all the other photos that I took recently, but it's just a "no can't do" that sort of thingy... Couldn't upload all the photos la sei... Tak per, akan ku try upload lagi bile aku ade mase... In the meantime, I'm just gonna upload it the good old fashion way... hee hee...
So yesterday night was a short trip to the Barber Shop with my mini little family... We decided to give little Asil a nice haircut before he starts school next year... =)
For your info, it was his first time to be in a barber shop and to be getting his hair cut there... And I am so proud of him for being so well-behaved... His Baba has always been the one giving him the hair cut eversince he's born... hee hee... For the Baba, it's the usual "shave-off hair with an electric shaver" thingy whenever he needs to cut his son's hair... So kirekan, ni first time jugak la, kitorang bawak Asil gi Kedai Gunting Rambot...
Situated @ Block 418, Yishun Avenue 11, "96 Barber Shop" is own by Mr Jacky Chin... His haircut charges are below $10 depending on the type of hairstyle that you'd like your hair to be trimmed and cut...
Little Asil's haircut was charged at only SGD$5/-... And thru Jacky's work that both hubby and I saw at his shop yesterday, we could say that he is a very meticulous barber... There's something neat about his work, the way he cuts his customer's hair... There's this guy who had came in earlier than us... His haircut was charged at only SGD$7/- la sei... Pretty cheap unlike other Barber Shops that we went to whenever hubby wants to get his hair cut... Oh!! And this Barber Shop is very clean (excluding the hairs on the floors la hor coz that's pretty normal to see in a Barber Shop... lol)... Eh! But seriously, the place is REALLY VERY CLEAN...
So if any of you out there who are interested to try out something new... I mean, if you guys would like to have your boyfriend's, hubby's or son's hair cut, you could try coming here... This guy, Mr Jacky, he did a good job of cutting my son's hair and we are pretty well satisfied with it...
And the part when he applied the hair gel on Asil, really made my boy looked so cute and ready to meet up with his school teachers and friends next year...
So I guess we'll see more of "96 Barber Shop" in months to come...
Thanks Jacky, for the haircut done!! A job well done!! =)
P/S: Next in the list - A hair cut for my little Asyura...
Saturday, December 26, 2009
"Merry X'Mas" Bollywood Style...
Huwaaaargh!! What a short PH la sei...!! I'm already back in the office coz it's my turn to be on duty for this weekend... pfft...
Went to the Sengkang Sports & Recreation Centre yesterday with my mini little family, bro Yus & his wife, Muz...
Asil & Asyura had so much fun playing in the baby pool with me... Didn't manage to take any photos that day coz I was so busy with the kids... Aku pon tak teringat nak suroh Sis Muz amekkan gamba... hee hee... The hubby and his bro, they had their time in the pool by doing their laps while my Sis Muz kept her eyes on our stuffs... hee hee...
So OK, I was actually reading my office e-mails this morning when I saw this particularly hilarious video clip sent to me by one of my colleagues via e-mail attachment... Freakingly hilarious I tell you!! Aku kekek sorang2 kat ofis tengok ni video...
Love this video clip la sei...!! Check it out y'all!!
P/S: Don't forget to turn on your speaker...
Office Pantry Notes...









You know how there's this "anonymous eater" at home who quietly eats my stuffs in the fridge right? And how when I ask the people in the house (excluding the babies & hubby) about my eaten stuffs and where had it all gone to? And the part where everyone in the house kept on saying, "Don't know... No idea..." while shrugging their shoulders and shooking their heads innocently?
I think I should put up notes like these in & on the fridge since I had such similar occasions back at home... lol...
Oh and the part where they kept saying, "Don't know... No idea..." that kinda thing had made me come into a conclusion (just to please myself & make me feel a bit better) of maybe, just MAYBE, it was my darling pet cat (Black) who had opened up the fridge with his cute furry paws and ate up all my food without asking permission... lol...
Anyway, 5 more days to year 2010 y'all... Woo hoo!! I'm counting down till the very last day of year 2009... Yeah!!
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Please Help To Donate Free Rice...

As Salam Peepz!!
OK, it's X'mas Eve and I know some of you guys are on your way home right now (Gerek sei!!)... Al maklom la kan, coz some companies are on a half day every eve of a Public Holiday (unlike mine... boo hoo... pfft...)...
Oh!! And to all friends, readers & blog-hoppers who will be celebrating X'mas Day tomorow, "Wishing You A Merry X'mas & A Happy New Year Ahead..." =)
OK, need a little favour here... The reason why I blog is this...
A niece of mine... Iqa's her name... She twitted me this particular website where we could join in to help those in need... It's not much la actually... You guys just need to support the website in order to help donate free rice to those who are in hunger... For each answer you get right, they'll be donating 10 grains of rice through the UN World Food Program to help end hunger...
Bole kan? Tolong buat amal siket OK... Gam ba tek!! hee hee...
So here's the website: http://www.freerice.com/
Thank you for your time y'all... =)
7 More Days To Go...

A new year...
A new start...
A new way of living...
Insya'allah...
Amin...
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Why Are You Guys So Vain Huh?
I'm actually so freaking pissed off with some people... >:(
Well, here I am packing a remainder of little Asil's left over birthday cake (from last Sunday's mini little birthday celebration that we had) for my mini little family to eat later on and so I placed the nicely packed cake in the fridge... The next freaking day, I found out, SOMEONE (Aku tak tahu la eh sape yang badok tu kek coz tiap2 kali kalau aku tanye, sume orang dalam rumah tu slalu cakap, "Entah... Tak tahu..."... It has been like that, ni sentences da macam trademark untok dorang, "Entah... Tak tahu..." So tak gune aku gi tanye... Buang current jer...)has been eating a portion of the cake WITHOUT even asking permission or whose cake does it belongs to!! Gosh!! I was so freaking pissed off!!
I mean, wei!! You guys are so freaking uncivilise and no manners siak!! You guys go around celebrating other people's birthday not even bother to remember or ask about my little boy's birthday that's also around the corner... And when we dropped by over @ Tampines, just to chill and gather around with other family members, you guys treated us like we are invisible humans...? Kitorang datang singgah penat2 dengan anak2, rush skejap lepas balek jempotan, korang step nak tak nak layan kitorang? Kitorang ni ape? Tunggol...? Kitorang bukan nak mintak disembah ke ape la eh... At least treat us like your family members... Coz afterall WE ARE a part of YOUR FAMILY... But you people jolly well treated us like we are INVICIBLE...!! Bile part kitorang senang siket, sume nak join same2... Bile part kitorang susah siket, korang sume step escape...
The part where you guys had forgotten (dengan tak sengaje lupe or eksyen lupe pon hanye Allah sahaje yang tahu la eh) about my little Asil's birthday... Huwaaaargh!! This part is so freaking unforgettable for me... Da la birthday laki aku korang step lupe... Birthday Asyura pon korang step lupe... Birthday aku lagi... Kalau tak kerane MAKCIK aku remind korang, aku rase korang pon lupe la eh... Funny thing how when it comes to YOUR BIRTHDAY, korang nak kitorang ingat... Birthday anak aku, baik Asyura or Asil or even my hubby?... Korang step escape??? Korang step lupe...? Sume nak kena orang ingatkan ke per... Abeh birthday korang nak kitorang step "AUTO-REMEMBER"... Please la eh... Have some freaking thoughts la for other people... Korang ingat korang aje ade feeling? Korang tak nak aku step complain to other people pasal korang... Korang nak kitorang step act mature and solve matters accordingly... But what about you guys? You people go around talking about my mini little family behind our backs and to you people, you think that's FINE? Eh seriously la eh... Korang berat sbelah la sei...
And the best part is... You guys didn't even wish my little boy, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" and the part where I found out you guys had the freaking guts to eat up a portion of my little Asil's birthday cake without even asking is so freakingly pissing me OFF!! Really... I'm so freaking pissed off...
Macam ni korang cakap korang "ade care"...? Korang ni so-called "ade adat" nye orang? Kalau orang lain, korang pandai tegor... Korang pandai step mengumpat... Eh please la eh...!! Sbelom nak step cakap pasal orang, gi la cermin diri sendiri dulu!!
And the part where korang ingat bile korang need our help, baru korang nak step talipon terhegeh2 asking for our company...? Please la... We don't buy any of those crap anymore!!
Seriously, I'm pissed... Suke2 step lupe pasal anak aku nye birthday... Then, suke2 isi perot makan birthday kek anak aku? Huwaaaaargh!! Ni namenye ade care, ade adat... Fooooh!! A standing ovation la from me to you... Keep up the nice work...
I don't ask you guys to shower my kids with presents, money and other stuffs... It's good enough that you guys shower them with SINCERITY... No need for a freaking fake masks on your faces coz we can sense it well enough...
Such a sad thing to see something like this coming out from people like you...
Korang da la buat laki aku and aku macam invisible humans... So now what? You guys wanna treat my kids the same way too? Go ahead... Suatu hari bile anak2 aku da besa nanti, they themselves can judge sape yang betol2 ikhlas dengan dorang...
Anyway, a few more days to year 2010...
A new year... A new start...
OK, I'm done...
Monday, December 21, 2009
Hapy 3rd Birthday To My Little Asil (December 21st)...
I hope you know how much I love you so,
I might embarrass you from time to time
By giving lots of love and needless kisses,
But you need to know Ummi loves you so,
Before you were born I didn't know just
how much I would love you so,
But when I looked into your eyes for
the first time,
I felt my heart grow and grow,
A Mothers love is hard to explain,
Not everyone will feel the same,
Now that you are getting older I felt
the need to tell you,
Just how much I love you so,
Time may pass day after day or year
after year,
But the love I have for you grows
nearer and dearer to my heart each
day and year,
To My Son I hope you know just how much
I love you so...
Selamat menyambot ulang tahon yang ke 3 wahai anakku Muhamad Isyraq Asil... Smoge Allah memberkati dan melindongi diri mu selalu... Insya'allah, amin... Dan smoge kamu menjadi anak yang soleh dan cerdik... Insya'allah, amin...
Ummi dan Baba akan sentiase mendoakan kesejahteraan dirimu dan adekmu... We love both of you very very very much... Sayang Abang and Adek selalu... =)
P/S: Tried uploading photos via SLIDE... Freaking website is so freaking slow in uploading all the photos that I took on Asil's mini birthday celebration... pfft... Will try uploading again soon... Oh! And I've got me a Muslimah Swimsuit thks to my hubby!! Woo hoo!!
We Met!! At Last!! Alhamdulillah...
If it weren't for that, we would have to wait for another one fine day to meet...
As always, it's weekend at 3rd bro's crib... The usual hangout and all... Asil's birthday falls on Monday, December 21st, 2009 (I'll talk about that later on in my next post) instead of celebrating it on the actual day, we decided to celebrate it one day in advance since it was my weekend off duty...
My blogfriend, Nadh had sms-ed me earlier about her booth selling Tees in a Flea Market located at Youth Park down town... I replied her sms saying that I'll try my best to drop by... And I did managed to drag my mini little family, 3rd bro (Yus) and his wife (Muz) to see my blogfriends... Trime kaseh sume kerane sanggop melayan karenah aku ni yer... hee hee...
So yup!! I'm glad I met them all thru blogging... And meeting up with Nadhirah and Raff at the Flea Market was something so memorable... I managed to purchase a Tee-Shirt from them for the hubby... But ended up wearing it... lol... Coz the hubby couldn't fit in the size... hee hee... [Baba, badan da berisi nampak!!]
So to Nadh: Beb!! Dapat sms aku tak? Jangan lupe tau... Reserve lagi satu same pattern but size L for my hubby... Kite bole meet up nanti once you've got the size... K?
My opinion about Nadh when I first saw her in person... She's a bubbly, chubby looking lady wo!! Nice to hug... Aku suke pelok diye... Badan mampat giler... [Nadh!! Lain kali aku nak pelok kau lame2 bole tak? Best betol la pelok kau ni... lol...] and my opinion about Raff... Foooh!! This lady is one freaking HOT MAMA... Da jadi Mak Buyong pon body still maintain the powerness [Raff!! Let me know when you're about to deliver your baby so that I can visit you in the hospital...]
Seriously, meeting them for only a short while macam tak puas gitu... With the crowd, noise from the gig and all... Ai yo yo yo... But I'm glad I met both of them even though it's for a short while... =) Hope to meet up with them again soon... More to come, insya'allah... Amin...
To the rest of my blog friends: Wei!! Aku nak sangat jumpe korang la... Korang buat macam Nadh and Raff OK... Buat macam dorang... Kalau ade jual barang kat Flea Market, korang inform aku... Kalau aku sempat, insya'allah, aku akan turon meet up dengan korang... =)
Friday, December 18, 2009
Salam Ma'al Hijrah 1431H...
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Dan Sebenarnya...
Enggan melayan diriku lagi
Pabila
Airmata membasahi pipi
Dah lagu-lagu di radio
Seolah-olah memerli aku
Pabila
Kau bersama yang lain
Adakah perasaan benci ini
Sebenarnya cinta
Yang masih
Bersemadi untukmu
Dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
Disebalik senyuman mu itu
Kau juga
Merindui aku
Ku enggan
Berpura-pura ku bahagia
Ku enggan
Melihat kau bersama si dia
Oh ku akui cemburu
Mula menular dalam diri
Pabila
Kau bersama yang lain
Pabila kau merenung matanya
Ku rebah
Jatuh ke bumi
Disaat kau benar benar mahu pergi
Seperti
Ku bernafas dalam air
Dan sebenarnya
Aku rindu
Aku tak mampu
Tanpamu
I fell in love with YUNA the moment I heard her song being played on hubby's iPhone...
I made my brother (Alep) strummed his guitar to the rythm of this song while I sang along... Fooooh!! Da lame jugak aku tak dok nyanyi... It's been a while since I last had a mini little jamming at home with my brother... So kirekan semalam aku lepaskan gian lor... hee hee...
Seriously, this cool "minah ferring" lady (Yuna) is so pretty talented... I love her lots coz she's not like some of those lady singers yang nak step tangkap famous, tangkap "slang" plus jambu with heavy make ups and all... She's just so humbly HER... Oh!! And the way she wore her clothings... Huwaaaargh!! So down to earth and bersahaje gitu... I like... =)
Aku suke sangat2 dengan lagu yang ni... So just wanna share it with you guys lor... I'm sure some of you guys heard it before...
Kindly refer to the links below if you wanna know more about her...
http://www.myspace.com/yunaroomrecords
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRjkC_OKoRo
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Allah Knows My Intentions Are Good...
I'm not a heartless human being...I've no other choice...
You had force me to turn into someone who might look heartless to you... I don't mean to hurt anyone... Really... I'm not mean...
Only Allah and all those people who are close to me knows that my intentions are good... I'm doing this for the sake of my family...
I don't wanna hear anymore gossips... I don't wanna hear anymore backbitings... I don't wanna see anymore "long-faces" from you... I don't wanna hear anymore complains... And I definitely don't wanna have anymore feeling of doubt and hatred in me... Enough of all those hypocrisies that I've seen and heard, both infront and at the back of me...
I just want a peace of mind...
This change... I'm sure gonna look forward to...
This change... That's definitely gonna make me miss all those memories that I spent with you...
This change... That I hope will never make me turn into someone that I don't wanna be...
I'm still me...
I'm still your Lily...
Even if you hate me... Even if you talk bad about me and treat me like a trash... I'm still your Lily...
The one who always think of you even when you never (for once) have a kind thought about me... I'm still your Lily...
And even how hurt it is I feel after all those things that you said about me and my family... I still love you...
My prayers will always be with you even if you treat me like I'm a speck of dust... ;'(
A change would do us all good...
Trime kaseh wahai suamiku kerane slalu ade disisiku disaat aku sedih dan memerlukan mu... Thru good and bad times, we'll always be together... Insya'allah, amin... Love you always, Baba...
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Is It Too Long...?
So I sent a few sms-es to my cousin, Lala yesterday night asking her on some stuffs... And this was how the conversation goes like...
Me, "La, the photos da kasi Fidzah blom? OK tak? She got say anything about the gamba tak? Nid to change?"
Lala, "Gave already. She said OK. Your kids have officially broken our record of having the longest name ever. Ahaha."
Me, "Ahahahaha! Serious ah?! Asal sei...? Ahahahaha! So far tak perna ade yang name panjang2 ke per... Ahahahaha!"
Lala, "Ahah. Ader ah. But not as long as your kid's... Kecohh. Ahah."
Just so you know,
Asyura's full name - Nur Ikramina Asyura (Given by her Ummi)
In case some of you are wondering on what our sms-es were about... OK, I actually had enrolled my 2 kids to a Child Care Centre where Cousin Lala is presently working at... Can't tell you guys the name of the Child Care Centre just yet... Nanti la... Besok2 baru aku kasi tahu k... I'll update you guys on the Child Care thingy soon...
It's already confirmed that starting from January 2010 onwards, both of my kids would be in this Child Care Centre under the supervision and guidance of "Teacher Lala" and her colleagues... ahahahahaha!! (Sorry La, I've been longing to call you that... Can't help it la sei... Suke betol aku dengan name tu, "Teacher Lala" instead of "Teacher Saurah"... ahahahahaha!!)
So yeap... This is just one of a few changes that's gonna be happening next year... More changes to come but I'm not gonna elaborate on them now... Not so soon coz ade banyak perkare yang haros aku settlekan dulu... I'll talk about next year's upcoming changes as soon as I settle those major problems first...
Whatever it is, I'm definitely looking forward to Year 2010... A new year... A new start... Insya'allah... =)
P/S: I'm so hoping to write a review about this Child Care Centre... Soon I hope (Sume nye soon... hee hee...) Wanna seek permission from Ms Fidzah (the Principal) first... heh...
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
I Hear My Heart Talking...
And as rich,
As those highly educated-working moms,
Who holds a diploma or even a degree...
Although to some,
Being a homemaker isn't as glamorous,
As what some people might think,
I still dreamt of living the life of it...
A homemaker...
This dream I'm trying to pursue...
This dream I've been keeping inside of me,
For so long...
There's only one thing in my heart...
To guide and nurture my children...
To be a good wife and mom to my family...
A successful homemaker...
That's what I want to be...
Ummi Lily...
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We can achieve whatever we want to and strive for it... But if we fail to build up a good family, that means we fail at everything...
Tiade gune nye tangan menggenggam ijazah setinggi langet jikalau hidop porak perande dan anak2 menjadi anak yang durhake...
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Asil's First Guitar...
At last, dapat jugak Baba belikan guitar for Asil... Our little Asil has been persuading his Baba every single day for a guitar of his own...
Hari2 tanye Baba macam ni, "Baba, can I buy guitar?" And the Baba as usual would say, "OK one day we'll go Giant to buy your guitar K..." So everyday this little Asil of ours, tak jelak2 tanye the same question over and over again while the Baba tak jelak2 layan kan junior diye tu... hee hee... I just smiled upon hearing their "father and son" talk... So cute...
Memandangkan tiap2 weekend off kitorg slalu dok lepak kat ruma Bro Yus and wife (Sis Muz), and Giant Tampines was just an 8 minutes drive from their crib, we decided to singgah Giant skejap and ajak dorang ikot kitorang skali...
So the Baba and Pak Uteh plus little Asil went for guitar hunting while the Ummi and Mak Uteh plus little Asyura went grocery shopping... hee hee...
Aku tak amek gamba kitorang kat Giant... Tgh sebok buat "marketing"... hee hee... Cume gamba Asil tengah pose dengan guitar baru diye jer yang aku amek... So korang tengok jer la karenah hero kecik ku ni in the SLIDE above...
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Hari Raya Haji/Aidiladha 2009...
As promised, here're all the photos that I took during this year's Hari Raya Aidiladha's celebration...
Frankly, mood aku tahon ni untok celebrate Hari Raye Aidiladha mcm tk de... Entah kenape eh, compared with this year's Hari Raye Aidilfitri, aku rase sedih sangat2 bile nk menyambot Hari Raye Haji tahon ni...
Celebrating Hari Raye Haji without my late uncle, Wak Mi who had passed away recently lagi buat aku bertambah sedih...
Meet ups with the rest of my relatives from the maternal side of the family was done at the hospital coz Grams still in there, unwell and slowly recuperating...
Like I said, in one of my previous blog entries, there're bound to be some changes for me and my mini little family beginning next year... I hope Year 2010 would be a much more better year for us... Insya'allah, amin... Sedih tu memang la sedih bile aku fikerkan pasal perubahan baru ni but I guess it's for our own good...
I had some memory flashbacks... Felt sad bile tringatkan all those bitter sweet memories that I spent with everyone of my family members... Perhaps I'm being too over "emo-ish"... Tapi, memang pon aku ni kuat emo, gembeng, cengeng... Like what hubby usually said to me, "Ummi, you ni sensitif sangat la... Siket2 nanges..." Yes, I would cry even for the slightest thing that touches my heart... Call me whatever you want but this is ME... I'm not a hypocrite and neither am I a heartless human being...
That day at the hospital, I tried my very best to smile infront of everyone and brushed off the emo feeling aside... I sat at a corner, observing everyone of my relatives and thinking of those whom I love had passed before me... My feeling again? Sad... ='(
Took a bunchful of pictures just to distract my mind off the sadness that day... It really helps... =)
SLIDE uploaded...
Monday, November 30, 2009
Home Made Chicken Rice & Henderson Waves...
As Salam Peepz!!
OMG!! I'm so lagged... I've been so busy with so many stuffs lately... And as usual, I've lots of gamba yang aku blom upload... So OK... Here goes the 1st SLIDE...
Seperti hari2 hujong minggu yang lalu, my mini little family and I, kitorang slalu gi dok melepak kat ruma hubby's 3rd bro, Yus, whenever I'm not on duty in the office on weekends... And as usual, there would be a family outing and all... Memang fun... Tiap2 kali kalau gi sane, aku dan hubby rase tenang sangat2 bile kitorg dok melepak dengan dorang... No busybodies, no k-po-chies and all those yang sewaktu dengan nye la... Aman giler...
Dan seperti hari weekends yang sbelom nye juge, Sis Muz and I, we would cook up a storm in the kitchen while our hubbies play with the babies... Menu for that weekend was home-made Chicken Rice with Chinese Style Chap Chye Veggies, boiled Chinese Dumplings plus deep fried chicken wings and oyster mushrooms...
Cooking was so freaking fun... Kecoh kitorang masak kat dapo... Maklom la, first time masak Nasi Ayam tu sume... hee hee... It was a challenge really... And our efforts pretty much paid off although there was a little plus minus here and there in the overall cooking... Well, like they say it, "Practice makes PERFECT!!" We'll definitely improve on our cookings together... Insya'allah, amin... hee hee... The best part was Nasi Ayam kitorang laku la sei... Alhamdulillah, tak sia2 kitorg masak 3 gayong beras... lol...
Our night trip to Henderson Waves was a hilarious one... Penat, kecoh dan klaka... Siak ah, da lame aku tak daki bukit, skali daki tros pancet siak... Sempat jugak kitorang posing bergamba... Oh!! And we had our late dinner some where in West Coast area (I think)... Not pretty familiar of the place but OK la... Food was great... =)
So many photos to see so aku nak elaborate banyak2 pon mcm malas, korang tengok kan je la SLIDE di atas ni eh...
P/S: Alhamdulillah, I'm thankful to Allah coz my Grams is slowly recuperating... Syukur... Insya'allah, she'll be fine... Hari Raya Haji was spent visiting her in the hospital and photo-taking... Will elaborate a little on this in my next post... =) Photos for the above SLIDE was taken on November 21sth and 22nd... Most photos taken are courtesy of Sis Muz's... (Thks Sis!!)
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Wishing You A Blessed Eid Mubarak...
Collection From yummyflashy.blogspot.com
Yours truly,
Ummi Lily & Family... =)
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Grams Warded Into The Hospital Again...
She had an asthma attack and by the time my uncle, Wak Lan arrrived at the hospital's A&E Department with her, she was already unconscious. Her fingers had turned bluish... Wak Lan had to carry her out from the cab and into the A&E Department...
My heart sank the moment I received the message... I got more panic when I called my aunt, Mama Poi and I heard her crying on the phone asking me to come down to the hospital as fast as I could coz Grams condition had worsen...
So, blom sempat aku dudok dalam ofis, aku da nak kena patah balik ruma, amek anak2 aku and then tros rushed down to the hospital together with hubby and mom to see Grams...
On the way there, I was talking to myself, "This couldn't be happening again... I've just lost my uncle a month ago... Now this... Nenek aku pulak... Unconsious and admitted into the ICU... Ya Allah... I'm not done yet with the grievance over my uncle's death and You've already given me another test? Please Ya Allah, kindly have mercy upon me... Year 2009 has been a year fill with sadness for me... If You were to take away my Grams just like You had taken away my uncle so suddenly... This time, I would be so very devastated..."
Yes, devastated... I've been into so much pain and my life has been fill with so much sadness this year... I'm trying my best to cope with everything, slow and steady... Yes, I know Life is a Test... And He wouldn't have given me all these Tests if He don't love me... For that I'm thankful to Him... A reminder for me to always be grateful to Him...
The moment I saw Grams in bed with tubes and wires plus the oxygen tank around her, my eyes were filled with tears... Aku tros tringatkan arwah Nenek Yishun aku (my other Grams from the paternal side of the family)... Before my paternal Grams passed away, she too was warded into the ICU at Tan Tock Seng Hospital... Same thing, tubes and wires all over... Then a few weeks later, she was gone...
So it's like a memory flashback for me to see my maternal Grams now in the same condition... It was traumatizing...
"You've to prepare yourself for the worst Ummi... Anything can happen... Seeing Nenek Bedok now in the same stage as your Arwah Nenek Yishun... You have to be very prepared in case the worst scenario happens to her...", these words said by my hubby...
I'm just praying and hoping she's gonna be alright... :'(
No more sad news please... I don't know if I could cope with all this sadness all at once... Aku hanye insan yang lemah... Yang hanye memerlukan pertolongan Mu sahaje...
P/S: I've a feeling this year's Hari Raya Haji's celebration spent with everyone would be at the hospital... Plus, not having my arwah Wak Mi around to celebrate Hari Raya with us akan lagi menyedihkan suasana Hari Raya Haji tahon ni... Aku sedih sangat2... :'(
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Bercinta Sampai Ke Syurga...

Di sini ku berjanji disaksi rembulan
Andainya ku pergi dulu
Jikalau ku pergi dulu
Ku nantimu di pintu syurga
Tiada insan yang sengaja mencari derita. Seperti ikan mencari air, si dahaga mendamba seteguk minum, mata mengantuk mencari bantal, demikianlah setiap insan mengerumuni cinta. Demi sesuatu yang menjanjikan bahagia.
Namun dalam asyiknya manusia bercinta, di kala itu jualah manusia semakin derita. Rumahtangga musnah, hidup berantakan. Tatkala inai masih di jari, anak belum pun sempat berdiri, tiang rumah dan tangga cinta roboh dirempuh badai.
Luar biasa…
Mereka bukan dipaksa menerima. Kahwin itu bukan kahwin dera atau kahwin paksa. Ia adalah cinta sama cinta, suka sama suka. Jika kedua belah pihak sudah saling menerima dan kenal isi kulit pasangan sehati sejiwa, di manakah cacat di manakah celanya hingga hujan tidak sempat menunggu petang? Bukankah Syurga Dunia yang dibina itu mahu dilangsungkan hingga ke Syurga Sana?
Pada hari itu teman-teman akrab setengahnya akan menjadi musuh kepada setengahnya yang lain, kecuali orang-orang yang perhubungannya berdasarkan Taqwa [al-Dzukhruf 43: 67]
Itulah realitinya.
Bahawa biar sehangat mana pun cinta yang membakar perhubungan dua insan yang berkasih sayang, mereka akan menjadi musuh di antara satu sama lain di padang Mahsyar. Jika dahulunya mereka menolak pertolongan yang ditawarkan demi kebahagiaan sebenar, hari itu mereka pula saling bermusuh dengan permusuhan yang tidak lagi mampu ditolong.
Mengapa cinta menjadi permusuhan?
Apakah yang menguji manusia di Mahsyar hingga pasangan yang akrab menjadi musuh yang saling mementingkan diri?
Sesungguhnya Mahsyar itu mengheret manusia kepada sebuah TEKANAN. Itulah ujian terbesarnya. Segala yang didustakan selama ini terbentang di depan mata. Barulah kelihatan kesan segala perbuatan. Bahawa dunia memang sementara, namun kesan amal berkekalan selamanya. Dan hari Mahsyar itu setiap insan berada di bawah TEKANAN yang maha dahsyat.
Ibu sanggup menggadaikan anak demi untuk menyelamatkan diri.
Dua kekasih sanggup mengorbankan pasangannya demi terbebas dari seksaan yang sedang menanti.
Dalam keadaan yang begitu terdesak dan penuh tekanan, cinta berubah menjadi permusuhan. Dua kekasih saling menyerang pasangan masing-masing, mementingkan diri, demi sebuah keselamatan.
Kecuali manusia bertaqwa.
Wahai pasangan yang bermadu kasih, ingatkah kalian pada khutbah yang mengiringi lafaz AKU TERIMA NIKAHNYA suatu hari dahulu? Tiga ayat yang dibacakan kepadamu, segalanya berbicara tentang TAQWA.
Pesan itu adalah pesan Tuhanmu. Pesan yang disampaikan di lisan Nabimu. Pesan yang diperpanjangkan kepada khutbah nikahmu. Bahawa tiada bahagia tanpa taqwa. Hanya derita pemusnah cinta, manusia tersungkur di pantai derita, meneguk neraka dunia sebelum Neraka di Sana.
Neraka dunia yang menghancurkan bahagia datang bersama tekanan. Ujian yang amat menghimpit beban. Soal anak, soal pekerjaan, soal keinginan, soal ketidakpuasan, soal kemahuan, soal kesangsian. Rumahtangga yang belayar di tasik madu, menjelang senja dihiris sembilu.
“Lepaskan saya. Saya sudah tidak sanggup lagi,” bentak isteri yang terbeban oleh tekanan perasaan.
“Sabarlah isteriku. Mari duduk mencari petunjuk,” pujuk suami dengan linangan air mata.
Anak-anak menggeletar terperosok di sudut gementar. Melihat ayah dan ibu bergaduh cakar mencakar.
“Bukankah kami hadir kerana cintamu?” bisik si anak kepada hatinya, merayu kepada Tuhan agar mendamaikan sepasang insan tempat dirinya berpaut hidup.
“Sudah-sudah. Tidak perlu dibincang-bincangkan lagi. Lepaskan saya. Hantarkan saya balik ke rumah emak di kampung!” si isteri terus mengamuk.
“Bagaimana dengan anak-anak kita?” suami merenung wajah anak-anak yang kebingungan. Terasa hangat pipi dihujani hiba.
“Semuanya salah abang. Sudah berapa kali saya beri peluang. Abang masih tidak berubah. Abang bekerja untuk keluarga, hingga hancur keluarga. Kalau selama ini kami bahagia tanpa abang, kenapa perlu lagi saya menderita menanti abang. Saya ada cita-cita sendiri!” si isteri mengesat wajahnya dengan lengan. Kata-katanya penuh simpang siur perasaan. Tidak pasti apa yang dimahukan.
Kecuali sebuah penceraian…
Suatu hari nanti
Kau akan tahu sucinya cintaku
Kau akan menyesal
Dan kau sebut namaku selaluSuatu masa nanti
Kan terhurai segala rahsia
Bahawa cintaku kepadamu
Abadi selamanyaKau akan menangis
Menatap gambarku
Gambar-gambar kita
Pasangan yang istimewaOleh itu kasih
Janganlah terburu
Jangan ikut rasa
Kelak jiwa kan meranaPerkara yang kecil
Jangan suka dibesar-besarkan
Perkara yang samar
Jangan pula dibenar-benarkanUsahlah dibunuh
Kecintaan ini
Biarkan bersemi
Sampai kekal dan abadiLagu dan Lirik: Suhaimi Mior Hassan
Tekanan bukan sahaja menjadikan seorang kekasih memusuhi kekasihnya di Akhirat, bahkan tekanan itu juga menghilangkan cinta tatkala menempuh kehidupan dunia. Hingga tidak sempat-sempat menuju penceraian, semata-mata ingin lari daripada sebuah tekanan.
Itulah yang banyak berlaku hari ini.
Pelik sekali, setelah ghairah bercinta kita melangkah ke alam rumahtangga. Belum sempat anak membesar bergegas pula menuju penceraian. Dan janggal sekali, selepas bercerai barulah timbulnya damai... Boleh keluar makan bersama, boleh bergilir melayan anak-anak. Suami isteri payah serasi, biar sekadar teman yang mesra. Semuanya kerana gagalnya manusia, menguruskan tekanan, realiti kehidupan.
Justeru wahai insan yang mabuk cinta, siasatlah benang yang menyulam kasihmu. Apakah ia sebuah taqwa, atau cinta buta yang tidak berpijak di bumi nyata? Sesungguhnya cinta yang tidak bersendikan taqwa adalah cinta yang berakhir dengan permusuhan. Jika tidak di neraka dunia, pastinya Neraka abadi di alam Sana.
“… kecuali orang-orang yang bertaqwa” [al-Dzukhruf 43: 67]
“(Mereka diberi penghormatan serta diseru oleh Allah Taala dengan firman-Nya): “Wahai hamba-hambaku! Pada hari ini kamu tidak akan merasai sebarang kebimbangan dan kamu pula tidak akan berdukacita. (Mereka itu ialah) orang-orang yang beriman akan ayat-ayat keterangan Kami, serta mereka menjadi orang-orang Islam yang taat patuh.(Mereka diberi sebaik-baik balasan dengan dikatakan kepada mereka): “Masuklah kamu ke dalam syurga bersama-sama isteri-isteri kamu, dengan menikmati sepenuh-penuh kegembiraan dan kesenangan” [al-Dzukhruf 43: 68-70]
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Thank you Mdm Azizah for this wonderful e-mail article... =)
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
I'm Gonna Miss You Guys... Soon...
All those times we spent together; having you guys with us... Those happy and sad moments we shared... Moments when each of us needed one another's assistance, needed each other's ears to lend and discuss... The jokes and all... It was fun and unforgettable...
Thank you for being there... My mini little family and I, we really appreciate your companionship... =)
Though there might be some changes going on... I hope we'll still keep in touch and meet each other as often as we could OK...
Best of Cousins always... Mmmmmmuah!!
