Salam Lebaran To All...

As Salam Peepz,

Here's a cute Hari Raya E-Card for all... Especially dedicated to all my fellow friends, family, relatives and readers... So sit back, relax and enjoy the whole song too ya...

Suasana Hari Raya by YummyFlashy.blogspot.com

I would like to take this opportunity to wish everyone of you out there, "Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri"... Ampon dan maaf dipinte jikalau ade terkasar bahase dan tersilap kate...

Last but not least, have a blast holiday you guys!! Woo hoo!! Cuti panjang wo!!

{ Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri }

{ Maaf Zahir & Batin }

From Ummi Lily & Family

A Little Info On Hari Raya Puasa (also known as Hari Raya Aidilfitri)...

Hari Raya Puasa is a very important occasion that is celebrated by Muslims all over the world. It is also known as the festival that marks the end of one month fasting period. The words ‘Hari Raya’ mean 'day of celebration.' Many mistake Hari Raya Puasa for the Muslim New Year but it is not.

Ramadan

What is Ramadan? Ramadan is the name of the one-month fasting period when Muslims fast for a period of almost 12 hours. They fast from dawn till sunset. It is a known fact that during the period of fasting, apart from eating and drinking Muslims are also forbidden from smoking and having sexual relations. Only the sick are excused from fasting during this month. Muslims are expected to avoid lying, breaking promise or cheating during the month of Ramadan. The primary purpose of fasting during Ramadan is to remind all Muslims of self-control and submitting to Allah, The Holy One. Even young kids are taught to fast when they are young.

Preparations

In a country like Singapore where there are a number of Muslims, Hari Raya preparations can be seen at least one month before the festival. Geylang Serai, the place that is known for the Muslims to gather, is always filled with large crowds during Ramadan. Bazaars would be set up and they would be selling numerous festive items for Muslims. Carpets, clothes, bags, food, music CDs, household items and VCDs would also be sold at Geylang. At night the place is lit up with glittering lights. There would also be a wide variety of food which would be sold at the fairs and they include kuehs, otah-otah, cakes, buns, breads, curry, noodles and even curry puffs. Most of the Muslims shop here to get the food to bring home to eat when they are breaking the fast. The time when the Muslims break the fast is usually around 7 to 7:15pm.

Celebrations

Celebration for Hari Raya Puasa starts at least a month ahead, during the fasting period of Ramadan. Women start to sew beautiful curtains and buy new clothes for the family. Some families also do renovation for the house so that the house would look better when the guests visit it during the festival. After fulfilling their one-month of fasting, the Muslims would be joyful to celebrate Hari Raya Puasa. On the morning of the festival, the Muslims would wear their new clothes and go to the mosque to pray. They offer their thanks to Allah and after that they would ask for forgiveness from their elders. This is an important custom followed by the Muslims.

They feel that the young ones asking forgiveness from their elders is very essential. On the day, they also visit their relatives and friends to celebrate the happy occasion. If you visit Muslims' homes on Hari Raya Puasa you can expect to taste a wide variety of delicious spicy dishes. Some favorite dishes that can be found in Muslims homes on this special occasion are ketupat, lontong, nasi padang and beef rendang. The Muslims also have the habit of giving packets of money to kids when they go visiting. The packets are usually be in green color and children often look forward to getting these money tokens on Hari Raya Puasa. Overall, Hari Raya Puasa is a delightful festival for the Muslims.

A Little Shout Out For My 2 Ummi Bloggers...

(Above) Hari Raya E-Card from Ummi Hanani...

(Above) Hari Raya E-Card from Ummi Hanie...

I received these E-Cards a few days back... Baru la ni dapat tempek... hee hee... Trima kaseh ye wahai Ummi2 ku sekalian... Da tempek da pon... Ni ha Lily nak tanye, "Kueh Raye da buat brape mcm?"

Iftar, Grocery Shopping & Sis Moralle's Bread Pudding Recipe...

As Salam Peepz!!

Weather's pretty soothing today... Lain dari yang lain gitu... Mood for today is pretty OK... Tried uploading pictures thru SLIDE but somehow the whole uploading thingy seems to lag... I mean really lag...

A few days ago, babies and me followed hubby to get his car rims changed. Then, we had iftar @ Sri Sun... Deliciously nice... The Puri la, Thosai la, Prata la, Briyani la were fantastically nice... Situated somewhere in Yishun, somewhere around block 400+ area? I think... The best part was food were sold at affordable prices!! Amma-gedegak!!

Then we went for a little grocery shopping @ Giant Tampines Hypermarket... It's been quite a while since we last been there... Saw lots of Hari Raya Kuehs and so we decided to buy some for the coming festive season... Lerrrr tak banyak pon, aku cume beli 7 macam Kueh jer... hee hee...

Tahon ni aku buat "kueh tunjok2" je... Mcm tahon2 yg lain eversince I have my little babies around... It's a bit difficult to work while juggling with family at the same time... Nanti la, insya'allah when my babies da besar siket baru ler bole buat kueh... Itu ari aku buat bread pudding 'ala Sis Moralle' pon dorg da sebok2... Oh!! Talk about the bread pudding... Ya ya ya!! Bread pudding aku menjadi laaaaaaaa!! Alhamdulillah!! Woo hoo!! Suke aku!! The whole bread pudding was gone in less than an hour!! Laku giler... lol...

Thanks Sis Moralle for the recipe ya... Sedap giler bile dimakan dengan SUSU... *slurp*

SLIDE uploaded...

Mencari Lailatul Qadar...

Pesan Junjungan Besar Nabi Muhammad s.a.w adalah malam Qadar berlaku pada satu malam daripada 10 malam terakhir (hari ganjil) bulan Ramadhan.

Petua oleh Imam Ghazali dan lain2 Ulama' untuk mencari malam Lailatul Qadar

Jika awal Ramadhan jatuh pada hari:

1. Ahah atau Rabu - Malam Qadar dijangka berlaku pada malam 29 Ramadhan.
2. Isnin - Malam Qadar dijangka berlaku pada malam 21 Ramadhan.
3. Selasa atau Jumaat - Malam Qadar dijangka berlaku pada malam 27 Ramadhan.
4. Khamis - Malam Qadar dijangka berlaku pada malam 25 Ramadhan.
5. Sabtu - Malam Qadar dijangka berlaku pada malam 23 Ramadhan.

Kata Sheikh Abu Hassan bahawa mula dia baligh, dia sentiasa dapat menghidupkan Lailatul Qadar pada malam yang tepat mengikut petua di atas.

Berdasarkan petua di atas, Insya'Allah malam Qadar akan jatuh pada malam ke 23 Ramadhan bersamaan dengan malam selepas siang 13 September 2009. Walau bagaimanapun, janganlah ibadat pada malam ini sahaja. Carilah malam Qadar pada malam2 ganjil yang lain juga!

Tanda malam Qadar ialah:

1. Malam itu tenang, tidak dingin dan tidak panas.
2. Siangnya cahaya matahari warnanya pucat.
3. Pada malam itu Malaikat Jibril akan menyalami orang yang beribadat pada malam itu dan tandanya ialah kita tiba2 rasa sangat sayu dan kemudiannya menangis teresak2 secara tiba2.

Upset... Really...

As Salam Peepz...

First of all, this entry is a piece of my reflection on some of the things that have been happening in my life lately... Up to my fellow readers to judge... What can I say, "Rambot same hitam tapi hati lain2..."

It's been quite a while since I last made a personal entry... I'm not in a pretty good mood today... Feeling a little bit upset on certain issues... It's so true that Allah s.w.t is Great... Sepandai mane seseorg itu cuba merahsiakan sesuatu dari aku dan suamiku, suatu hari kami pasti akan dpt tahu jugak...

Why do we prefer spending quality time among ourselves; our little toddlers, hubby and I...? It's because there are people who always take our kindness for granted and keep wanting more from us... They love giving "sweet talks" but at the end of the day, back-stabbed us... They speak like they really mean it sincerely from the bottom of their hearts but actually they don't... They do not want us to put them aside instead (as a family), we should prioritise and always keep them in our minds...

On the other hand, let me say this, "Did you people really keep us in your minds? Did you think of us whenever you guys are planning on a family gathering? Did you really sincerely mean what you say when you said you cared about me and my family?" Only Allah knows best...

Why do hubby and I not get ourselves involve and too close with you people... Why? Coz we're always to be blame for the things that we didn't do... Why? Coz we're the youngest and we're the most vulnerable to your sarcasms and your accusations... Sebab konon nye kite ni paling kecik dan yg kecik la slalu kena bully!!

Seriously, I'm sick and tired of all this fake masks all over your faces!!

You people want respect, we've given you respect and we WILL keep giving you the respect that you people need... Insya'allah, nothing more and nothing less... I just HATE people who love putting on freaking FAKE MASKS on their freaking faces and faking on things... I hate it!! I really do!! And the saddest part is some of these people are your closest family members and your friends...

And why is it so that Mr Rizal and his family prefer to spent their time among themselves? It's because we're thrown around like a ball... Or even worst, try imagining us being beef patties that got stuck in between 2 buns, like a beef burger... That's how the situation is like for us... And that's why we always address ourselves as, "Rizal & Family Sendirian Berhad"... Why? Coz we are only called when needed and because of that, we prefer to spend time on our own with our babies!!

I'm really really upset with you guys... I really do... What kind of trust could I gain from all of you...? Nothing... And I hope you guys are happy doing what you did... The next time there's a problem in your life, please, I beg of you people, DON'T EVER COME AND LOOK FOR US... Coz I'm sick of all the crap!!

I'm sorry if this entry is gonna piss anyone of you out there... But I have to somehow let this feelings out and put them into words... And my blog is one of the greatest things that had ever happen in my life... I'm just sad that those people whom I trust could keep a secret from me and my hubby... Even SECRETS do leak out, eventually...

Cures for Anger from the Sunnah

Several Cures for Anger from the Sunnah

1. To say "Audhu billahi minashaytan nirajim." [Bukhari, Muslim]

2. If he is standing, then he should sit. If the anger fails to subside, then he should lie down. [Abu Dawood]

3. A person should remain silent. [Imam Ahmad]

4. Make wudhu. [Abu Dawood]

5. Make ghusl [Abu Nuaim]

(Summary of 'Jami'ul Uloom waal Hikam fi sharhi khamsina haditham min jawa mi'il kaleem' by ibn Rajab)

"The strong man is not the one who is the wrestler [or body-builder] but the strong man is the one who holds himself back at the time of anger."

In the last edition, we provided different cures for anger, in fact five were mentioned from different narrations. In this issue, we would like to provide a further elaboration.

The first cure for anger was to say ta'wwudh [ie "audhu billahi minashaytan nirajeem". ] This cure was given by the Prophet (saw) when a man showed anger in a situation where he was in front of the Prophet (saw). The Prophet (saw) said "I know something that if he says it, his anger will go away and this is "audhu billahi minashaytan nirajeem." What does this have to do with curing anger? Since anger comes from shaytan, you should seek refuge with Allah from the accursed shaytan.

The second cure which is mentioned in the hadeeth mentioned by Abu Dawood is that if a person is standing, he should sit and if his anger doesn't go away, then he should lie down. This is a very important cure for anger. The Scholars say that the reason that the Prophet (saw) gave this cure is because that when a person is angry and he is standing he is more capable of taking revenge whereas if he sits down, he will be less able and if the anger still does not subside, then he should lay down which will prevent him from acting out in a manner that he will regret later one.

The third cure that was mentioned was not speaking at the time of anger. Ibn Rajab ® declared this to be a very great cure that Rasulullah (saw) has mentioned since it is in the state of anger that a person states a lot of things that he or she may regret later on. Sometimes, regretting one's actions will not help since once words are spoken, the damage will take effect. For example, a person in anger may question Allah (swt) or raise an objection (may Allah (swt) forbid this). In anger, a husband may divorce his wife. In anger, people say things that destroy relationships and may take years to rebuild. Breaking one's heart is very easy while joining the hearts is very difficult. Damaging a relationship can be done with one word while building relationships may, in some cases, take years. That is why it is best to refrain from speaking when in anger and to wait until the anger subsides and speak in a calm manner so that a person does not regret what he is saying.

The fourth and fifth cures were in regards to making wudhu and taking a bath. Both of these things have to do with using water because some narrations indicate that anger is from shaytan and shaytan has been created from the fire and the way to extinguish this fire is to use water whether it is in the manner of making wudhu or taking a bath. Someone's anger may go away by just making wudhu and someone else might have to take a bath in order for his anger to subside. A person can see also through experience that when he is angry, his body is very hot so that the way to cool him down is to put water over his body either through wudhu or through a bath.

We must remember one thing that what has been mentioned here is that the anger that has been mentioned here is the type of anger that is disliked in Islam since there are two types of anger. The first type is the anger which is disliked while the other is the type which is liked. The anger which is disliked is the one where a person takes revenge from someone because of himself or herself. The Prophet (saw) never did this and provided the cures for this type of anger which have been mentioned above. The type of anger which is liked is the type of anger when a person sees a commandment of Allah (swt) and His Rasul (saw) being broken. This is not only a sign of iman [faith] and liked but is also at times necessary. The Prophet (saw) became angry like this many times to the degree that his complexion would change. This is the type of anger that Imam Shafi'i (ra) was referring to when he said that "whoever does not get angry, he is a donkey."

Do Not Get Angry...

Abû Hurayrah relates that a man said to the Prophet (peace be upon him): “Counsel me.” The Prophet (peace be upon him) said: “Do not get angry.” The man repeated his request many times, but the Prophet (peace be upon him) kept saying: “Do not get angry.” [Sahîh al-Bukhârî]

The Importance Of This Hadith

The secret behind this hadīth's importance lies in the fact that the Prophet (peace be upon him) limited his counsel to this person in one short instruction: “Do not get angry.” Abû Muhammad `Al-Nawawî informs us that Abd Allah b. Abî Zayd said: “Everything that constitutes good manners can be derived from four hadith…” and mentioned among them the Prophet's statement “…to the one to whom he limited his counsel with: 'Do not get angry'.”

This statement, given in this context, is rich in meaning. First, by limiting his counsel to this one short instruction, the Prophet (peace be upon us) indicates the importance of controlling one's anger, and that doing so has far-reaching implications for a person's welfare both in the worldly life and in the Hereafter.

Ibn Hajar, in his commentary on this hadith, observes:

The man stated his question repeatedly, hoping to solicit an answer that was more beneficial, or more explanatory, or more general; however he did not give him anything more than that.” [Fath al-Bârî]

Secondly, the categorical nature of this brief statement gives the prohibition sweeping implications – since it can be understood to indicate many things, for instance, that we should prevent ourselves from getting angry in the first place, and that we should forbid ourselves from acting according to the dictates of our anger in the event that we become angry.

The Emotion Of Anger

Anger is a very powerful emotion. It rages through a person, creating a desire for revenge and for striking out at the object of anger. Anger is an emotion that inspires action, and the action that it inspires is one of injury. The emotion of anger invokes within a person the very antithesis of mercy, compassion, self-restraint, and kindness.

This is what makes the emotion so dangerous. If left unchecked and uncontrolled, it is the emotion that can lead a person to the evilest of deeds and to the worst and most tragic consequences.

Prevention Of Anger

The statement “Do not get angry”, taken on its face value, is commanding us not to experience the emotion of anger at all. We know that this cannot be the intended meaning in an absolute sense, since it is an impossible instruction to uphold. Anger is a natural, human emotion. It is impossible for a person to avoid it absolutely.

Though this hadith may not be prohibiting us from ever experiencing the emotion of anger, it is, at the very least, advising us strongly to avoid that emotion as much as possible. And, indeed, there are measures that a person can take to limit his chances of getting angry. First, he can condition himself to remain cool-tempered. When a person's temper is under control, he is less likely to become angry when an occasion for anger arises, and more likely to control himself when he, in spite of himself, does become angry.

Another way that a person can limit his chances of getting angry is for him to know what causes anger and remove those causes from his life.

Among the chief causes of anger are pride and arrogance, since a prideful person is most easily offended and the most painfully stung by criticism. Another cause of anger is being argumentative. The more a person disputes with others, the less likely he is to accept the truth. His views become increasingly polarized and emotionally charged. A Muslim is, therefore, encouraged to avoid these negative character traits. In doing so, he will be less likely to get angry.

Self-Restraint In Anger

The statement “Do not get angry” can be understood in another way. Instead of commanding us not to experience the emotion of anger in our hearts, it is telling us not to act upon that emotion when we are beset by it. There is no doubt that this hadith is commanding us to, at the very least, exercise self-restraint when we feel angry. This much is obligatory upon us.

This meaning is clearly conveyed to us by many texts, some of which praise those who control themselves in anger. This implies that feeling anger is not always sinful or blameworthy in and of itself. Indeed, when a person conducts himself properly in anger, he is in fact doing something worthy of praise.

Allah describes the God-fearing as those who restrain themselves in anger. He says: “And hasten to forgiveness from your Lord and a garden whose width is that of the heavens and the Earth, prepared for the God-fearing. Who spend in times of ease and times of hardship and who restrain their anger and who pardon people. And Allah loves those who do good.” [Sûrah `Âl `Imrân : 133-134]

He also says: “And what is with Allah is better and more enduring for those who believe and who rely upon their Lord. And those who avoid the major sins and indecencies, and when they become angry, they forgive.” [Sûrah al-Shûrâ : 36-37]

The Prophet (peace be upon him) said: “The strong man is not the one who can throw another down. The strong man is the one who can keep hold of himself when he is angry.” [Sahîh al-Bukhârî and Sahîh Muslim]

We should seek refuge with Allah when we become angry. Two men began hurling insults at one another in the presence of the Prophet (peace be upon him), each one insulting the other with such anger that his face had turned red. Th e Prophet (peace be upon him) said: “I know a word that if one were to say it, what stresses him would go away. If he would but say: ‘I seek refuge with Allah from Satan the Accursed'.” [Sahîh al-Bukhârî and Sahîh Muslim]

The Prophet (peace be upon him) advised us not to speak when we are angry. He said: “If one of you gets angry, he should be quiet.” [Musnad Ahmad]

The Prophet (peace be upon him) gave us other practical advice. He said: “If one of you gets angry and he is standing, then he should sit down until his anger subsides. If it does not, then he should lie down.” [Sunan Abî Dâwûd]

He also said: “Anger is from Satan, and Satan was created from fire. Fire is but extinguished by water, so if one of you gets angry, he should perform wudû'.” [Sûnan Abî Dâwûd and Musnad Ahmad]

Righteous Anger

We need to mention that not all anger is sinful. Anger that inspires a person to avenge his own personal feelings is indeed blameworthy. However, anger can also be felt for the sake of Allah and for His religion. This is the anger that a Muslim should feel when his religion is attacked, his beliefs blasphemed, and the honor and lives of the people are transgressed against. However, this anger, if it is truly and sincerely for Allah's sake, will only inspire us to noble deeds and to personal sacrifice, and never to base, unjust, or ignoble actions.

The Companions relate that the Prophet (peace be upon him) would never became angry for anything. However, if the sanctity of Allah was profaned, then nothing could assuage his anger. [Sahîh al-Bukhârî and Sahîh Muslim]

The Prophet (peace be upon him) never acted angrily for personal reasons. He never once so much as raised his voice to his servants or his family. Anas relates that he worked as the Prophet's servant for ten years, and not once did the Prophet (peace be upon him) so much as say “ uff ” to him, or ask him when he did something “Why did you do that?” or ask him when he neglected something: “Why didn't you do that?” [Sahîh al-Bukhârî and Sahîh Muslim]

The Companions relate: “The Prophet (peace be upon him) exhibited more shyness than a maiden in seclusion. If he saw something that he disliked, we would see it in his face.” [Sahîh al-Bukhârî]

[ISLAM TODAY]

"Rib-Created Women"...

"The Revelation of this Book is from Allah, the Exalted in Power, Full of Wisdom... He created you (all) from a single Person:... created, (out of it) of like nature his mate... and from them twain scattered (like seeds) countless men and women" (S. 39:1,6: S: 4:1)

Abu Hurairah (ra) relates that the Prophet Muhammad (saw) said: Treat women kindly. Woman has been created from a rib and the most crooked part of the rib is the uppermost. If you try to straighten it, you will break it and if you leave it, alone, it will remain crooked. So treat women kindly. (Bukhari and Muslim)

Another version is: A woman is like a rib; if you try and straighten it, you will break it and i you wish to draw benefit from it, you can do so despite its crookedness.

Another version is: Woman has been created from a rib and you cannot straighten her. If you wish to draw benefit from her, do so despite its crookedness. If you try to straighten her, you will break her and breaking her means divorcing her.

In Islam, women are not viewed biologically warped nor generally speaking of a criminal mentality (crooked), they are human beings of a similar nature (S. 4:1) to men and were also created "in the best of moulds" (S. 95:4). As already stated it may well be that an actual rib was take from Adam and then clothed with flesh in the formation of Hawa.

Whether the rib is real or allegorical, the fact remains that in the final analysis, "another creature", generally termed "woman", whose creation process differed from Adam and was unique, was formed of the same essence as he for a specific Divine purpose. Thus, Hawa's biology also composed water and clay that was moulded, "in the best of moulds" (S. 95:4), into a shape "of like nature" to Adam. Consequently, if viewed as an allegory, this notion of a "rib-created woman" should be interpreted positively using Divine purpose behind Hawa's creation as the basis. The Torah says "God said, 'it is not good that man should be alone; I will make for him an help meet'", and the Holy Qur'an speaks of humanity's "Guardian-Lord... (creating) from a single person, ...of like nature, his zaowja (wife/mate)". It is clear from both statements that the Creators intention was to create a person who would be a zaowja (wife) "of like nature", not surprisingly Adam, according to the Torah, named his "help meet" "woman", because he saw in her a person who was similar in her biological essence, spiritual make-up (with her own "breath of life" - soul - from the creator) and how she functioned psychologically - having much the same ability as he to acquire knowledge, reason, articulate and exercise free will to discriminate morally. On that basis an explanation could be that the rib is symbolic of the husband's duty to his wife and of the wife's relationship to her husband and the dominant aspect of her character. The notion that Hawa was in reality created from a rib taken from Adam's side also imply acceptance of the level of duty that is put upon husbands: namely to provide, maintain and protect their wives as part of their own selves (S. 4:34).

For Hawa and all women their position in marriage is also clarified by the fact that the rib was taken from Adam's side. The natural position of women, as wives, is to be at their husbands' side, to fit in with them while associating with them, and just as a man's rib, as part of his body, is subjected to and obedient to the man's will, so too must all "righteous women [be] devoutly (to their husbands), and guard in (the husband's) absence what Allah would have them guard" (S. 4:34).

To be a wife and a mother is no easy task and so Hawa and all women had to be especially equipped. Women have been given a greater intensity of emotions thus enabling them to be constant as a helper: always giving, caring to a fault - with her husband and children she sometimes shows them undeserved kindness, daring to pass through the doors of pain again and again - suffering great discomfort during pregnancy and the pangs at child birth - to present as a gift to husbands their ultimate treasures of pleasure in the guise of sexual intercourse and children. Without the presence of this emotional quality in women it would be more difficult for men "to draw (the above or any other) benefit from them", while making women more intuitive, having this capacity for greater intensity of emotions also carries with it a corresponding greater intensity of desires. Therefore, of far reaching importance to women (indeed it is relevant to all humankind) is the Qur'anic injunction to "stand out firmly for justice, as witness to Allah.. follow not the lusts (of your heart), lest ye swerve, and... ye distort (justice or decline to do justice)" (S. 4:135). Since the presence of a greater intensity of emotions and desires is necessary for the proper discharge of the women's duty as wives and mothers, this ability has been Divinely fixed as part of their natural make-up, thus making them "crooked" - more vulnerable and therefore prone to distort or not do justice. To straighten women involves trying to force them to go against their Divine given nature, "breaking" their nature by removing from it that which is the source of "benefit" to men and which makes women good wives and mothers - ceasing to be such can only mean divorce will follow as a direct consequence. Men who require this are evil and unjust and are themselves trying to avoid their Islamic duty to "forgive and overlook and cover up their (women's) faults)" (S. 64:14) and not "treat them with harshness... on the contrary, live with them on the footing of kindness and equity" (S. 4:19). Nevertheless, these Qur'anic injunctions are not to be abuse by women who see their emotional nature as an excuse for wrong-doings. Like men, women are also capable of being disciplined, knowledgeable and just, so it is perfectly just and proper that husbands, while keeping in mind their wives' emotional make-up, should encourage them to strive for their own level of excellence.

I therefore have no difficulty in accepting that the idea of a "rib-created women" has both a physical and spiritual signification. Physical because Hawa could most probably have been created from a bone taken from Adam, and spiritual because despite her emotional make-up, like him, she and every other women are also capable of being disciplined and submissive to Allah (SWT).

Mekaeel Maknoon

Article taken from: http://www.islamawareness.net/Adam/adam.html