I'm Still A Mess..

Say: "Whether ye hide what is in your hearts or reveal it, Allah knows it all: He knows what is in the heavens, and what is on earth. And Allah has power over all things.

قُلْ إِن تُخْفُوا۟ مَا فِى صُدُورِكُمْ أَوْ تُبْدُوهُ يَعْلَمْهُ ٱللَّهُ ۗ وَيَعْلَمُ مَا فِى ٱلسَّمَـٰوَٰتِ وَمَا فِى ٱلْأَرْضِ ۗ وَٱللَّهُ عَلَىٰ كُلِّ شَىْءٍ قَدِيرٌ

Qul in tukhfoo ma fee sudoorikum aw tubdoohu yaAAlamhu Allahu wayaAAlamu ma fee alssamawati wama fee alardi waAllahu AAala kulli shayin qadeerun

[Quran 3:29]

Kita dipandang baik kadangkala bukanlah kita benar-benar baik, tapi kerana Allah menutop aib yg ada pada diri kita.

Malu bila orang anggap kita ni baik. Sedangkan kita sendiri tahu bagaimana diri kita sebenarnya.

Barangkali kalau aib kita dibuka & didedahkan, tidak ada satu kebaikan apa pun pada diri kita di mata manusia.

Being disliked & looking like a bad person in the eyes of others is really not a problem for me. What I'm really afraid of is that people think I'm a good person even though I'm still a mess..

Goodnite 🌹

40..

 

40.. [31.07.1981 ~ 2021]

Ya Rabb, You are The Potter,

While I am the clay..

A lowly wandering traveller who realise how brief life in this momentary world is..

My days are numbered but You are for eternity..

I am but a speck of dust falling thru the fingers of time..

My sins are far too many,

Yet You showed me endless love & mercy..

Forever, I can never repay You..

Forever, I can never thank You enough..

And forever, I am in Your Debt..

Alhamdulillah Syukur.. ❤

It's been such a long while since I posted something here. I miss doing this..

Just Give Me A Reason (Pink)..

Right from the start
You were a thief, you stole my heart
And I your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me, that weren't all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them
Now you've been talking in your sleep oh oh
Things you never say to me oh oh
Tell me that you've had enough
Of our love, our love

Just give me a reason, just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again
It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again

I'm sorry I don't understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine (Oh we had everything)
Your head is running wild again
My dear we still have everythin'
And it's all in your mind (Yeah but this is happenin')
You've been havin' real bad dreams oh oh
You used to lie so close to me oh oh
There's nothing more than empty sheets between our love, our love
Oh our love, our love

Just give me a reason, just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again
I never stop, you're still written in the scars on my heart
You're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again

Oh tear ducts and rust
I'll fix it for us
We're collecting dust, but our love's enough
You're holding it in
You're pouring a drink
No nothing is as bad as it seems
We'll come clean

Just give me a reason just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again
It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts
That we're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again

Just give me a reason, just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again
It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts
That we're not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again

Oh we can learn to love again
Oh we can learn to love again oh oh
Oh that we're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again

Ungrateful People..

If you have nothing nice to say, then say nothing at all. Diam pon cantek.

A complaining tongue reveals an ungrateful heart. People will never remember all those times & sacrifices you've done for them but only the ones you don't. The hurtful thing is you're still there for them but you're always never gonna be good enough for them.

The sentiment is lost when appreciation becomes expectations; complaining, comparing & never good enough. Mentally & emotionally depressing your soul. Gradually..

"Always keep your happiness to yourself..", they say.. "And how about your resentment & misery? That too?" "And, that too.. Even if you have to bottle & choke it all up until the brim of your neck.."

Just Saying..

Always be a 1st rate version of yourself & do your own things. Stay true to yourself by doing what you love in your own way & NEVER try be a COPY. Coz AUTHENTICITY is WORTH MORE than being just a copy.

Some say imitation is a form of flattery.. Well darling, it's time to go dig for your own ideas/style instead of trying to be a 2nd rate version of others & then show it all off for everyone to see (time lambat ar ni sume).

I have 10 kilos worth of eyebags each & I am not ashame to show THEM off without having to conceal 'em & the rest of my face. Bet you don't even have the audacity to imitate this & show yours.

Fitnah Dicipta Oleh Si Pembenci, Disebar Oleh Si Dungu & Dipercayai Oleh Si Bodoh..

Betol cakap!!

Tapi memang la kan.. Dunia zaman sekarang ni, slalu je ade manusia yg tak suke tngk kebahgiaan & kesenangan hidop org lain walaupon org lain tu tak de la nak sebok2 dgn urusan yg tk de kene-mengena dalam hidop dia.. Org buat ape, pegi mane, beli ape, pakai ape, makan ape; sume nye nak amek tahu.. Dah amek tahu satu crite, menokok-nambah crite lain & fitnah nye lain.. Drama sandiwara nye plak lain.. Suke sangat nk tngk kejatohan org lain.. Adoiiii.. Tsk tsk tsk.. Tak takot dose betol..

Kene plak tu dgn tukang penyebar berita & manusia yg senang utk mempercayai sesuatu crite itu tanpa usul periksa.. Eeeeeeee.. Ni macam punye manusia pon ade eh? Kesian.. Mak bapak hantar pegi skola belajar sampai pandai, dididik dari skola mcmana nak menyoal-jawab, tapi otak tetap lah bengap.. Kesian org mcm ni, cetek akal kot?

Either that or no freakin' guts to even make a personal confrontation & clarify the whole mofo TRUTH!! But thru my experience la kan, usually people who have no guts to make a personal "1 to 1" confrontation, these type of people ALWAYS gang up & like to gather people's backup.. Dah ade bnyk org backing, baru lah datang berani dia.. Bile dia sorg, dia kecot..

Tapi pade aku la kan.. Berani itu, kerana benar.. Takot itu, kerana salah.. Selagi rasa diri tak buat kesalahan & it's all based on FACTS, PROOFS & EYEWITNESSES, THERE'S NO NEED FOR SOME GANG UP & BACKUPS.. Time lambat ar manusia2 yg suke buat gang up & mintak backing.. Kesian kan je la manusia otak bengap mcm ni..

Oh wells... Lumrah manusia.. 🤷🏽‍♀️

Girls Day Out..

It's just us today on a lovely weekend!! We should do this often.. xoxo