Innalillahi Wa Inna Ilaihi Rojiun..

Family photos of us taken during Hari Raya 2014 & a photo of the only "cucu" who would always clipped her Nenek's long nails whenever she had the chance to spend time with her..

Al Fatehah buat Arwah Nenek ku, Hajjah Habsah Binte Haji Sahadan,

yang telah kembali ke Rahmatullah pade tanggal 20 haribulan Julai,

2014 bersamaan 22 Ramadan 1435 Hijriah..

May Allah forgive all your deeds & place you among the righteous ones in Jannah.. Amin..

I've told all the Uncles & Aunties about the "amanah" that you had passed on to me when you're still alive.. Now it's all up to them to fulfill it.. I've done my part.. My prayers will always be with you Nek.. It always will & have always been..

The part that saddens me most was recalling all those memories that I had with you during my childhood days & till I am a mother of 3..

Dulu kecik2, nenek yang slalu mandikan Lily.. Tapi di hari pengebumian Nenek, Lily yang mandikan jenazah Nenek.. I will never forget the moment, that pink towel was lifted up from your face before we all bathed you.. Your face was glowing & you're smiling.. It's like you're happy that you're leaving us all & to be in another world.. I smiled with happiness trying to hide my tears knowing you will be well taken care of by Him..

Allah knows how sad & devastated I was that day.. But I tried my very best not to shed my tears infront of your lifeless body.. "Kalau Nenek mati, Nenek tak nak Lily nanges depan mayat Nenek.. Lily pegang tau cakap Nenek ni eh.. Ingat tau.." I've kept my promise to you until you're safely buried in your grave & I hope you're proud of me for doing what I did..

I will remember that particular smell on the night before you passed away. That flower scent we used to smell in every Muslim funeral.. It lingered on me till morning, on the day you passed away.. I just knew, you didn't have the energy to fight for your life no more..

I will miss your voice, your "melatah-ness" & how you made funny faces when everyone of us joked around with you.. I will miss those moments where you never fail to give us your advice.. Your scent.. And there will be no more Nenek to call me up in the office just to have a little chit chat.. No more.. Just memories that I will always treasure in my heart for the rest of my life.. Till we meet again in the Akhirat Nek.. Sayang Nenek..

Family ties between us all won't ever gonna be same once you're gone Nek.. It will never be.. ='(