Do As Much As You Want With What Is Left..

You know there's always that particular sickening human who's always there to compete with you?

The ones who only God knows why the hell they have that so much enviness towards you for having a happy life?

As in, bile orang nak tunang, dorang pon sebok2 nak tunang.. Bile orang nak nikah, dorang pon sebok2 nak nikah.. Bile orang lain beli rumah besar, dorang pon sebok2 nak beli rumah besar.. Bile orang lain got a good job with a good pay, dorang pon sebok2 nak capai ke matlamat itu..

Pendek kate, ape yang orang lain ade, dorang pon sebok2 nak jugak ade.. Tapi tahap jenis yang tak nak kalah.. Jenis "lebih up" dari orang lain.. (Asal tak ikot skali gi beli sluar/baju dlm colour/brand ape yg org lain pakai eh?)

And if possible, these type of people wish to see you fall without even getting a chance to climb back up again..

I'm telling you, they will be the most happiest sickening jackasses in the whole entire universe when they find out that you fail miserably in life..

That other feeling they have in them is, Hatred..

I know some of us, we just gotta deal & face with these type of sickening people in our lives.. And the saddest thing would be, is that some of these people, are part of your family members; Parents, cousins, relatives or even in-laws..

Have you ever wonder? Why are they even like that in the first place? I mean, what they get by doing all this? Pure "satisfaction" for seeing other people's life being brought to a downfall?

And you know, these type of people, they can put on a "muke tak bersalah" mask on their faces & then start a conversation to the person WHO they really WISH for that downfall to happen.. Like wtf? Cut me some slack here & go shovel that hypocritical face else where! Sheesh.. We're not born a retard thinking you can fake that bloody face to us..

I.. just.. can't.. show myself & PRETEND.. that I'm happily OK.. talking to these type of people with a smile on my face.. Whoa.. I can't..

After all the shit they did & every single freaking ass things they've been telling to people about my family with all the "Indian spices" that they added into their stories..

Yet again, I still asked myself this, "WHAT THE BLOODY HELL THEY GET BY DOING WHAT THEY DID?" NAK TNGK SAUDARE SESAME SENDIRI JATO..? NAK MATIKAN SAUDARE SESAME SENDIRI..? Whereby THEY know that they've been in THAT kinda position before, having others putting hatred & enviness towards them & wanting to see them fall..

Sigh.. I don't know.. Too blinded to even recall those moments, I guess? Maybe too proud with what they have right now..

Nak matikan orang sampai bile? Soon, all these taking advantage of others, back-biting, bitch-mouthing & hoping to watch other people's downfall will end.. And yes, I'm referring to a bunch of YOU..

It's all gonna be over soon.. So take advantage, back-bite & bitch-mouth as MUCH as you want with what's left.. Coz I know, that's what YOU people are doing right now..

I'm cool.. But just remember, what goes around, will always comes around.. =]

There's Always Something For You, Even When You Least Expect It...

Life is full of ups & downs..

You'll meet & get to know different kinds of people.. Making new friends & enemies along the way.. But only those who really know you will accept you as who you are & will always stay true to that friendship, no matter what happens..

And I do believe that there's always something behind everything.. Why certain things happened that way.. Just gotta swallow whatever that's left behind & move on with life..

To those of you & you know who you are.. Don't tryna pretend & act like you think I (or should I say, we) didn't see it coming.. Those bad things you said about us to everyone you know.. My dear, haven't you heard the saying that even "the walls have ears"? So please, we ain't that stupid nor are we blind, not being able to see, hear & feel those things that's happening around & about us..

A little advice, "Don't throw water to clean the back of others, when your own back is covered with DIRT.."

I suggest you go watch your back (plus your mouth too) before karma hits your life by surprise.. Coz remember, what goes around, eventually comes around.. Jangan nak slalu mengate, mengaib & memfitnah orang lain, diri sendiri blom tentu betol.. Pernah blaja ugame kan? Pandai2 la jawab di Akhirat nanti yer.. =)

Oh! And Salam Ma'al Hijrah to all Muslims.. A new year & a new beginning, insya'allah.. =)

In fact, something did happened recently.. There's this saying, "Kalau Allah nak berikan sesuatu, dalam ape jua keadaan skali pon, Dia tetap akan memberi.." & He did.. Another little bundle of joy, an addition to the family.. Alhamdulillah..

Everyone were asking, "But I thought you guys are on family planning, right?"

Yes, indeed.. Eversince we had Asyura.. But then again, if Allah gives you that chance to have another baby, anything can happen, even if you're on family planning.. Indeed, both hub & I, we were taken aback by surprise with the news of having a new member in our family.. Our little tumtum, another bundle of joy.. "Kaye anak.." Alhamdulillah.. =)

Alhamdulillah, a new Islamic year, a new start for us.. Insya'allah.. Amin..

Ode To My Family...

Understand the things I say, don't turn away from me,
'Cause I spent half my life out there, you wouldn't disagree.
Do you see me? Do you see? Do you like me?
Do you like me standing there? Do you notice?
Do you know? Do you see me? Do you see me?
Does anyone care?

Unhappiness where's when I was young,
And we didn't give a damn,
'Cause we were raised,
To see life as fun and take it if we can.
My mother, my mother,
She hold me, she hold me, when I was out there.
My father, my father,
He liked me, oh he liked me. Does anyone care?

Understand what I've become, it wasn't my design.
And people everywhere think, something better than I am.
But I miss you, I miss, 'cause I liked it,
'Cause I liked it, when I was out there. Do you know this?
Do you know you did not find me. You did not find.
Does anyone care?

Unhappiness where's when I was young,
And we didn't give a damn,
'Cause we were raised,
To see life as fun and take it if we can.
My mother, my mother,
She hold me, she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father,
He liked me, oh he liked me.

Does anyone care?

[Cranberries]

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Back when I was a teenager, I used to sit at the neighbourhood park or the reservoir with earphones plugged in, listening to this song..

I would watched passersby, admiring happy families having fun times together & enjoying the peaceful serenity alone..

I've always love this song. It never fails to cheer me up back in those days when my life (as a daughter) was pretty much of a sorrow kinda thing.. sigh.. Those were the days..

The Cranberries will be performing in Singapore this coming August 1st..

I guess watching live concerts would have to wait until kids get a little independently grown up..

Only then, will Baba & Ummi, go on live concert dates together.. =)

Insya'allah..

Assalamua'laikum.. =)

I've not been blogging for quite some time now ever since I started twitting.. I kinda miss my blog; the place where I rant & speak almost about anything & everything..

Now, Twitter has become my no. 1 favourite.. Micro-blogging at my fingertips anytime & anywhere I want..

A lot of things happened along the way.. Ups & downs.. Friendships lost.. Back-stabbing & back-biting relatives.. bla bla bla.. And the list goes on & on.. I couldn't be bothered already.. I'm gonna sit & watch Karma do the work for me..

Life; I gain some, I lose some.. And I learned not to trust people too easily; be it friends or even my relatives.. At least I know that there are those who're always there for me & accept me as I am & for what I am.. Most importantly, my family.. Love them to bits..

Kids are doing pretty well in school.. Getting more mischievously cute.. Just wish they could stay that way & not, grow up..

Hub & I, are pretty much happy & contented with our lives.. Well, minus off the "manusia-manusia cilake & mulot-mulot puake" who never fails to keep bugging in our lives & get pissed with every-single-thing that we do..

Mind you, we are staying pretty faraway & minding our own business, yet there are still those who have issues with us..

For fark sake.. Why can't they mind their own freaking lives? Check their own flaws? Everyone of us have flaws.. We're not even close to PERFECT.. We all make mistakes & should learn from those mistakes..

Seriously people, you got your own filthy backyard to clean instead of bothering about others.. Get a LIFE..

I'll try to keep coming over to blog once in a while.. Nothing else for me to say @ the moment..

Last but not least, Salam Nisfu Syaaban to everyone.. =)

The Historical Significance Of Asyura...

Hazrat Ibn Abbas (Radiyallahu 'anh) reports that the Holy Nabi (Sall Allahu alaihi wa Aalihi wa Sallim) arrived in Madinah and found the Jews observing fast on the day of ‘Ashura… They said: "It is the day of great (significance) when Allah delivered Hazrat Musa ('Alaihis-Salaam) and his people and drowned Pharoah and his people, and Sayyidina Musa ('Alaihis-Salaam) observed fast out of gratitude. And we also observe it." The Holy Messenger of Allah (Sall Allahu alaihi wa Aalihi wa Sallim) responded: "We have more right, and we have closer connection with Sayyidina Musa ('Alaihis-Salaam) than you have"; so Allah’s Messenger (Sall Allahu alaihi wa Aalihi wa Sallim) observed fast (on the day of ‘Ashura) and gave us orders to observe it. [Sahih Bukhari and Muslim]

‘Ashura is a day of great historical significance. On this day: Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) accepted the repentance of Sayyidina Adam ('Alaihis-Salaam) after his exile from Paradise; Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) saved Sayyidina Nuh ('Alaihis-Salaam) and his companions in the ark; Allah extinguished the fire in which Sayyidina Ibrahim ('Alaihis-Salaam) was thrown by Nimrod; And Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) spoke directly to Sayyidina Musa ('Alaihis-Salaam) and gave him the Commandments. On this same 10th of Muharram, Sayyidina Ayyub ('Alaihis-Salaam) was restored to health (from leprosy); Sayyidina Yusuf ('Alaihis-Salaam) was reunited with his father Ya’qub ('Alaihis-Salaam); Sayyidina Yunus ('Alaihis-Salaam) was taken out from the belly of the fish; and the sea was divided as the nation of israel was delivered from captivity and Pharoah’s army was destroyed. ‘Ashura is also the day when the kingdom of Sulaiman ('Alaihis-Salaam) was restored; Sayyidina Isa ('Alaihis-Salaam) was raised to Jannah; and Sayyidina al- Imam Husayn (Radiyallahu 'anh) (the Holy Nabi’s, Sall Allahu alaihi wa Aalihi wa Sallim, grandson) achieved the honor of Martyrdom.

Worship Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) as much as you can on ‘Ashura. Whoever fasts on this day is like one who fasts all his life. Whoever clothes a naked person Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) will release him from a painful punishment. He who visits a sick person, Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) will grant him a reward that will not be decreased. Whoever places his hand on an orphan’s head, or feeds a hungry person or gives water to a thirsty man, Allah will feed him a feast from Paradise and will quench his thirst with Salsabil (a wine that does not intoxicate). And who ever takes a Ghusl on this day will enjoy excellent health and freedom from sickness and indolence. Whoever provides generously for his family on this day, Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) will be generous to him throughout this year. And whoever applies Kuhl to his eyes will never suffer from eye-sore again, Insha’Allah al-Aziz

O’ Allah! Bless us to perform good deeds and gain their reward on ‘Ashura. Make the new year one of unity, cooperation and success for Muslims in this city and around the world. Ameen.

(Taken from http://www.ummah.com/Al_adaab/months/ashura.html)

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There's something about the Day of Asyura that never fails to fascinate me...

In the Islamic Calendar, every 10th Muharram is the Day of Asyura... Many Islamic historical events occurred on this day...

Allah s.w.t has His way of making those historical events happened in different years & centuries but on the same particular date... He knows what we do not know... He definitely has His reason to it... =)

Or maybe, there's more other past historical events that we do not know of but only He knows...

Wallahualam...

Oh, and just for sharing also...

The command to fast in the month of Ramadan was revealed by Allah on the second year of Hijrah. In the first year, the Prophet s.a.w command Muslims to fast on the Day of Asyura... =)

Salam Ma'al Hijrah 1432H...

The past has brought the present,
The present will carry to the future,
Whatever has been will be again, now or later,
The only hope we have is what we do now,
For the present will soon change to the past & become the future...

Insya'allah, amin...


Salam Ma'al Hijrah from Ummi Lily & Family...

Thanks Aunt Jonah For This Wonderful email...

Guide To A Better Life...

A man who died of pancreatic cancer in 2008 & who wrote one of the bestsellers "The Last Lecture" in 2007 back then, wrote this beautiful letter to his wife & children to follow...

A legacy to leave behind...

May you be blessed by his insight...


POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE

Personality:

1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
3. Don't over do; keep your limits.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does.
5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossips.
6. Dream more while you are awake.
7. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
8. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
9. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
10. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
11. Smile & laugh more.
12. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:

1. Call your family often.
2. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
3. Try to make at least 3 people smile each day.
4. What other people think of you is none of your business.
5. Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family & friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

1. Do the right things.
2. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
3. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up & show up
4. The best is yet to come.
5. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
6. When you awake alive & healthy in the morning, thank your parents for giving you this life, sing a song & be contented with everything, like the birds who stride the sky!

While you practise all of the above, share this knowledge with the people you love, people you hate, people you play with, people you work with & people you live with...

Not only will it enrich YOUR life, but also that of those around you...

[Thanks Aunt Jonah for sending me this email... It means alot to me...]

=I

Untitled...

I am feeling very sad & disappointed...

Everytime I tried brushing it aside, it just comes back on & on... Everytime I be nice to someone, that someone would eventually step on my head over & over again...

I wonder how would they feel if they were in my shoes... I guess they couldn't be bothered to think about it...

So why would I even be bothered thinking about them & the problems that they are facing when they don't even bother thinking about me? So should I be doing things that only concerns me like what they did?

Also, there's always a reason behind everything that happen...

When The Almighty gives you wealth, there must be a reason for HIM to give you that kind of wealth...

And the promise that you said to me a few years back thru MSN, that, I definitely still remember & is still fresh in my mind... And when the time comes, I'll definitely ask you about it personally coz so far, nothing is being done to resolve it...

I guess the saying is true, when you have a bit of wealth, you seems to forget about everything that you said & even everyone that you know...

It's such a sad thing...

And fyi, now then I believe that you are taking advantage of me... You take my kindness for granted... I hope may The Almighty make you realise this in a "POSITIVE WAY"...

Shucks... I never feel this sad, this disappointed, this used & this taken advantage @ in my whole entire life...

And the best part, it has to come from you, of all people whom I know, whom I ever shared my problems with...

I am really out of words... ='(

Time & time again, I've been expressing myself with entries like these... Time & time again I've been taken advantage @... I don't know whether should I be feeling angry or pissed? But I seriously am feeling bloody sad like crazy & to the extend of shedding my tears...

Like it or not, I've to face whatever obstacles that comes by with a peaceful mind & heart...

And when The Almighty is testing you with obstacles, He's focusing right on you to see whether will you pass His Test...

Insya'allah, I'll pluck up everything that's left within me to pass thru this test... Coz I know that there's always a sunshine after the rain... And He never breaks His Promises to His Humble Servants who pass His Tests...

There is no power & no strength except allah's,the highest high, the almighty

la hawla wala quwata illa billa hil aliyil azeem

I guess I should start doing my work now before this whole entire office gets flooded with my tears...

To YOU...

You don't have to put on a fake mask & a fake smile whenever you see me & my family... I could jolly well tell it from your face that you are pushing it too hard... FYI, your face tells everything...

I heard soooooo many things about what you said behind our backs [And as always, you got no guts to even tell it straight up to our faces...] Pity us, dah dok jaoh2 kat Sengkang & tak kacau orang, maseh jugak ade yang saket hati eh?

And what I can say to you is this > I bloody hell don't give a bloody damn about every single gossips & back-bitings that you said... And, I REALLY am not the bloody "MAKCIK K-PO" type to even give a damn about you, your life or your family... So STOP GIVING A DAMN ABOUT ME & MY FAMILY & TELLING US WHAT EXACTLY IT IS THAT WE NEED TO DO!! LOOK @ YOUR OWN FLAWS BEFORE LOOKING @ OTHERS!!

Say what you want to say plus that "saket hati-ness" of yours... One day, the future will tell what sort of human you truly is... In fact, seriously, your true colours are beginning to appear already...

And that fake mask of yours? tsk tsk tsk... You should just flush it down the toilet coz no point of you wearing it anymore...

What's the use of you seeking forgiveness, hugging here & there on the 1st day of Syawal when there's still a lump of hatred in your heart... Buang current jer... Really...

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I prefer to be true to myself, even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others, rather than to be false, and to incur my own abhorrence...

It is better to displease the people by doing what I know is right, than to temporarily please them by doing what I know is wrong...

Thank you... =)

Every Obstacle That Comes Would Only Make Us Tougher...

I've got a long time goal to achieve...

To be a much more better mom & wife to my family...

Sometimes I think I'm crazy for setting such a goal... I mean, who don't wanna have a happy life & be successful in everything they do... Sometimes, I just think that I'm not good enough @ it? I wanna do more out of it... But hubby always says that it's all good & I'm doing just fine doing what I do... I guess I'm too "lo-so" & "ngee-yau"... Obviously I think too much la har...

And lately, I've this strong feeling that an obstacle is coming my way & it has arrive sooner than I expected...

This one is definitely gonna be 1 of the major obstacles that I'm gonna go thru... And right now, it's already testing me physically, mentally & financially...

This is just the beginning... The early stage of this huge obstacle...

Insya'allah, I'll stay strong & tackle it like how I had faced all my previous obstacles before... And I'm not gonna be facing it alone... I always have my Baba by my side... And we'll face it together like we always do [thru good & bad times]... Insya'allah... Amin... =)

Obstacles come & go... The more obstacles you get, the more tougher you become & the more resistance you are in facing them all...

And I will never give up...

P/S: What is it with humans & moodswings... hmmm... Selfish? Calculative? Ignorant? Stop it la sei... Enough already...

Weekend Spent...

"Look Ma, a Ninja Turtle... Wooo-chaaaaa!!"

It's like a routine, everytime when I'm not working, my mind's switch on to homemaker mode & the hubby never fails to say, "Ummi, have you had enough of doing chores? Need my help? Your hands & feet never stops walking around doing stuffs in the house..."

My usual reply, "It's OK la. It's my responsibility anyway, as a wife & a mother & are you not lucky to have me? (grinning)"

Him, "Diligent, hardworking and multi-task... Very few wives could do the same thing as you do... I thank Allah for giving me you as my wife... (smiling) "

So (as usual) I spent this week's long holiday cum weekend cleaning, vacuuming (seriously the amount of dust is... SPEECHLESS...), mopping, cooking, doing the laundry (and I got tonnes of laundry plus ironing to do), attending a wedding reception & grocery shopping with the hubby & kids...

There's this wedding reception from the maternal grams side of the family somewhere in Hougang... Obviously, hubby & I went there with our kids... Reception started from 2pm till 10pm... And we got ourselves lost for nearly half & hour on the road making lots of turns, going round & round... pfft...

Quite a number of people attended the reception... And there's this thing called "joget lambak" happening @ the wedding reception itself... People dancing to kara-ok songs sang by other people...

We were surprised to see that those dancing were "pakciks & makciks" aged between 40 plus to 50 plus... The rest of us just sat, observed & laughed @ the way they danced... Songs played were very "OR-BIT" to the max... And the heavy rainy weather in the evening was making the whole atmosphere even worst... Da macam kat kelab dangdut siak... They were like shaking their shoulders & asses off... OMG... Unbelievable... And here I am thinking that this type of "joget lambak" doesn't exist anymore coz obviously it still does... (-_-)"

We managed to leave early & that was only after the DJ played a few songs which consisted of famous Hindustani music... 50% of the Malay people there were dancing like crazy to "Bollywood Fever"... And did I tell you that every single 1 of them wore sarees, punjabs & kurtas?

Seriously, this is the 1st time I went to a very "kecoh-rable, joget lambak" wedding... Even the brides & grooms (yup! 2 brides & 2 grooms) were caught dancing their asses off... ahahahaha!! And I'm like, "Huh? Oh... OK..." This is another type of Malay Wedding, or no, wait, Bollywood/Deepavali Wedding or whatever it is called la har... Thank God the food were all yummy-licious... Especially the Asam Chicken... Very nice...

After which, the rest of our evening was spent with the kids @ Giant Tampines Hypermarket... The kids sure love to go there... They'll spent their time @ the toys section with their Baba, while I go around shopping for groceries & stuffs...

I had this sad dream last Friday nite...

I dreamt of my late uncle (Wak Mi) who had passed away a year ago... In that dream, he looked 20 years younger like how he used to look like when grams were staying @ 1 of her previous cribs... His face was glowing & the moment he saw me, he smiled & straight away hugged me so tightly & kissed me on my forehead just like he always did when he was alive... He didn't even say a word... He just, hugged... The hug was a comforting one that it made me burst into tears.. It's like in that dream, I was telling him about my feelings & those problems that I'm facing & about his daughter & all... I really couldn't hold back my tears... I just cried... (sigh)

I guess maybe perhaps, he somehow knew everything & he knows that I can overcome every single obstacles that comes along the way & that I'm trying my best...

I eventually woke up crying... That was the most saddest dream I've ever had... Somehow, I felt better... Maybe thanks to the hug... I guess...

Till now, I still couldn't believe that he's gone too soon...

Al-Fatehah...

Just Be Yourself...

Photo courtesy of Google...

What's with copycats nowadays huh? They are really starting to get on my freaking nerves already... Gosh!! Get a life la instead of following every single thing others do...

You people go about following every single thing that I wear, buy & do... Seriously, you people should go get a life... Eh!! Where's your sense of style? Y'all too cooped up is it? Till y'all don't even know how to explore your own style of fashion sense... So annoying you know or not...? Even everyone around me notice the same thing!! OMG!!

It's a funny thing how y'all don't even bother to put on a hijab like I do... This part you don't even bother to copycat huh? Go put on a hijab like I do... Go cover up your assets (instead of flaunting em) like I do... Guess it's impossible for anyone of you to do that, right?

If every single thing that I do, you feel like following, & claim that it's your way of style (yang "di ilhamkan dengan sendiri nyer"), please la... I wanna vomit blood sia... I'm not even blind to not notice every step that you people make... I just force myself to switch into silent mode for God's sake & pretend that I didn't see any of it!!

Get a life sia... Seriously...

A colleague of mine once said, "Perhaps your existence makes them feel threaten... Your existence of being around them makes them wanna be & look even far more better than you..."

Good luck in trying to follow every single thing that I wear & do... Coz @ the end of the day, to me, you people are nothing... Guess having me around had somehow made you feel threaten or (worst still) shaken your way of life...

Why la people love to piss me off when I don't even bother about their lives? tsk tsk tsk... Sickening humans... Pity them for being so "sengket" & cooped up in their own kinda world... =)

"Copycats try & try & try to be who they're not & that is why they don't seem real for they did steal another's deed to fill their need..."

P/S: So I guess sooner or later, y'all be finding a hubby like I do, start a family like I do, make babies (1 boy & 1 girl) like we do, buy a car like we do etc, etc, etc... Is there anything else that I do that y'all don't do?

Life Is A Test...

My kids are sick again... =(

Previously there's this HFMD... Now, thanks to this "mood-of-a-swing" weather kinda thing, both of them are hit with a bad cough & flu... And their fever's been going up & down for the past few days... Hubby's hit too & yet he tries his best to be of a great help even in his sick condition... [Thank you Baba]

My nites have been a sleepless one... Kids been waking up crying in the middle of the night & wee morning... And those dark circles around my eyes look pretty awful sia... Wah lao...

I wish I could take a day off to a Facial & Body Spa where I could pamper myself into & relax this tense & tiring body of mine... And I definitely need a good nite sleep... A GOOD SLEEP IS WHAT I NEED THE MOST... Can I? (sigh) Maybe not now la har... Life's been pretty well-occupied with so many things...

And I seem to be drifting apart from work... Office work, I mean... I dread going to the office... Lately, I've been waking up with a "not-so-smiley face"... The kinda face that I usually put on whenever I need to attend for any examination papers back in my school days...

It's during this kinda times that I hate working for people... Hate! Hate! Hate! Coz my heart & mind are focus on my family... When will that day of becoming a WAHM be? ...Hmmmm... Allah knows best...

And I hate it when there are still some of those sickening jackass selfish people who never seems to get sick & tired of taking advantage others in times like this...

Eh! Enough already la of your freaking ass nonsense! Y'all don't feel tired having this sickening attitude of yours ah? If others were to take advantage of you, do you think you would be able to accept it? I doubt so... Y'all fall on the category type of people who would never think twice of hurting others but when others were to do the same thing to you, y'all couldn't even tolerate it...

Seriously, y'all are a bunch of sickening selfish fools... Only think of your own survival in this world & not of others as well... FYI, everything in this world are not yours to keep & the sight of you people make me SICK!!

What goes around would eventually comes around... I am so waiting for that 1 fine day where y'all would feel the same way how I feel... Really... Let Him teach y'all a lesson or 2 on what "taking advantage of other people" means...

OK, gonna get back to work... Lunch time's up... Sian... Looking at my table with all these work stuffs... (sigh) "Forever cannot finish"...

Hopefully, my kids & their Baba would get well soon... Insya'allah... Amin...


P/S: My pet cat, Black looks exactly the same like the one in the photo uploaded above... I miss hugging, cuddling & kissing him... At the moment he's staying @ my mom's crib... Hopefully, I could have him back when the time comes... Black is the 1 & only pet cat that never fails to accompany me whenever I do my laundry late @ nights when everyone are sleeping & when I'm feeling low... ='(

Cousins, Kids, Me & MBS...

All these photos were taken a few months ago... LOL... Just got the time to upload it... heh...

Cousins (Lala, Sufi, Yaya & Shafiq), my kids & me sight-seeing @ Marina Bay Sands... Very huge place & stuffs sold there are VERY VERY pricey... I bought a regular size bottled mineral water for 2 bucks sia!! Damn expensive!! Hanye orang yang betol2 mampu (dan kaye) jer bole beli barang2 kat sane...

And surprisingly, those people who visited the Casino were mostly old uncles & aunties... =)

Helloooooo Hazy Singapore...

The haze is back y'all...

I came way early for work this morning... Decided to take a little stroll by the sea @ my work place & the view that I saw was, hmmmm... You could say it's not that nice la har...

Haze everywhere... I could hardly even see Johor Bahru, Malaysia from where I was standing... =(

Managed to take some pictures & uploaded it here in my blog... Can you see how terrible the hazy weather is?

Everytime when the haze hits, either one of my family members (even me), catches a bad sore throat, cough & phlegm stuck in between the nose & throat airway... Even worst, we could even catch a fever...

At the moment, only my little Asil & me who are beginning to have this symptom...

Hopefully this haze will go away soon... The weather is really not that good lately... Hot, humid, stuffy & hazy... pfft...

Photos From The Bollywood Veggies...

Finally!!

I've uploaded all the photos that I took when I followed my kids for their school field trip to the Bollywood Veggies that's located in Kranji (a little countryside version of urban Singapore in the old days)...

If you're a nature & a kampong lover, this is just the right place for you to visit with your family... =)

For more infos on Bollywood Veggies, kindly click HERE

Lunch's gonna be over soon, so, "chao meow"... =)

Random Thoughts...

In The Name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful...

What is it with HFMD & kids? My goodness, I seriously am getting sick & tired of entertaining this freaking virus...

No vaccine? Can someone AT LEAST try finding a vaccine for this HFMD thingy for the kids? You guys are too busy finding vaccines for BIGGER viruses & illnesses, well, HFMD IS A VIRUS too, you know... Both of my kids contracted with this virus TWICE in less than 5 months!!

Kids who had contracted with the HFMD virus are barred from going to school. They had to be home quarantined & couldn't even get out of the house... They loose their appetite due to the painful mouth ulcers... They feel very tired & fever-ish with all the blisters on their hands & feet...

We, parents got affected too... Some parents, like me & hubby, we don't have a maid nor do we depend on our parents or others to keep an eye on our kids... So how did we deal with this situation? We took care of our kids ourselves & as for me, my office work is done @ home... I cooked, did the laundry, vacuumed, mopped the floors & @ the same time, took care of my kids while doing my office work... Tiring much? It is, sometimes, well, a mother got to do what a mother got to do... And a woman will not be able to feel & experience all of these, until she has become a mother... This saying is so true...

I went back to the office yesterday... Brought my kids along with me coz hubby had to go for an immobilization standby thingy or whatever you call it in reservist terms la har... This immobilization thingy is really getting on my nerves sometimes, I mean, they called my husband up @ the very last minute (the night before, mind you) & expect him to be ready once they activated the call? My goodness! Not all wives are homemakers OK! Some (like me), need to work on weekends & we have KIDS (little kids to be precised)! We don't have a MAID nor do we stay with our parents...

Not everyone of us, lead a life where we could always depend on others for help, HALO? Some of us need to fend for ourselves... And to have my hubby called @ the very last minute, seriously it's so inconvenient coz I happened to be on duty in the office for this weekend! The best part was, I just got to know from hubby yesterday that his squad would always be called up for this standby thingy any moment & @ any time... Baik per... -.-"

I should've slept early yesterday but I didn't... Migraine's killing me & I was basically tossing & turning in bed... I kept staring at the ceiling & that's when the usual stuffs started flooding my mind... (sigh)

Sometimes in life, we might feel unhappy with certain accounts or issues in our lives... But I guess @ the end of the day, to compare my live with others, amidst all those obstacles I went thru, truly I am bless that The Almighty had completed my life with not only a responsible husband, but also my cute little boy & girl to help me pull thru my days with ease... =)

The great thing is, He gave me this strength to be strong in facing all those nonsensical humans that comes along the way...

So much so for being plain old me... My bad I guess, for being nice to everyone... From the look of it, I don't think they appreciate it... And like I said before, I'll only be nice to those who are nice to me... If you treat me & my family like invisible humans, that's exactly how I am gonna make sure my family treats you too... What makes you think you deserve the RESPECT, when you don't even bother respecting others? So screw you...

Like it or not, that's the way it is for me now coz I've had enough of this crap... And it's such a sad thing that I'm seeing a lot of this self-centred egotistical people among my family members ; both young and old...

Buat ape aku nak step terhegeh2 bual baik2 dgn org yg langsong tk interested nk jumpe atau nk berbual baik dgn aku & bile nmpk aku satu kluarge dorg tk layan? Don't worry, even if I happened to bumped into anyone of you somewhere out there, I too can't be bothered to give a damn about you... Seriously...

Back to lunch y'all...

RSAF Helicopter Makes Emergency Landing...

Photos were taken from Channel NewsAsia Photos Gallery

Hubby was supposed to fetched me @ 6.30pm at work yesterday... But he was caught up in the traffic due to this helicopter emergency landing thingy... There was some sort of a road blocked or something & all eyes were on the broken helicopter...

Both hubby & I worked in Senoko (somewhere in between Woodlands & Sembawang neighbourhood), so you could say that the route we usually take to go to & from work is along the road near the open field that's between Woodlands Avenue 12 and Woodlands Drive 64 (that's the area where the helicopter had made an emergency landing).

Read more about it HERE & HERE

Thank God no one was injured in the incident... =)

Back In The Office... Mendak Ke Per... pfft...

"Selamat Hari Raya - Maaf, Zahir & Batin..."

So after a short holiday (Yup! 6 days of Leave were way too "siket" for me...) due to the festive season, I'm back to work... Piles of things to be done... E-mails to reply, paperworks to clear... Walao... Vomit blood!

Both of my kids didn't even feel like going to school... They kept whining & showing their tantrums the moment their Baba & Ummi woke them up for school...

Asil, "Ummiiiiiii... I don't want to go to school... I want to stay @ home with you & Adek & Baba..."

Asyura, "Ummiiiii.... I don wan go kool, I wan schleeep..."

We, parents, just smiled to each other, listening to their cries... Obviously, we did a little "sweet talking" & persuaded them in a nice way but the moment when they reached school, Asyura started crying & Asil was giving me a sad looking face (like he's gonna cry anytime the moment I leave him in the Centre)... Awwwww... I was so the very tak sampai hati to leave them but I had to... We both had to actually... Kalau tak, who would want to care & look after them while we're out working?

Our Hari Raya celebration went pretty well this year, alhamdulillah... We did the usual visits from house to house... I got to see most of my cousins, aunties & uncles whom I've not met up with, for quite some time... Miss them all... Oh! Not forgetting all those hand-made Hari Raya cookies & cakes that my aunts made... Gosh!! I ate those cookies like nobody's business sia!! They were all SUPER DELICIOUSLY GOOD!!

I know it's not nice to always be thinking of those who had passed away... But seriously, I miss my late Nenek Yishun (paternal grams) & my late uncle (Wak Mi) the most this year... Not having them around makes me feel like something's amidst... Their smile, their laughter & their hugs... Allah knows how much I miss them both...

I miss my one & only paternal aunt (Mak Ani) & her entire family who're staying in KL, Malaysia... I've longed so much to see them but I didn't have the chance to see them all... I'm glad that I got the chance to talk to her for a while on the phone during the 3rd day of Hari Raya...

To Mak Ani, Kak Ipah & family, Kak Ana, Nani : I miss you all la sei... Insya'allah, we'll meet up one day k... =') Rizal kirem salam kat sume...

Dan sesunggoh nyer raot wajah Mak Ani ku membuat ku terkenangkan kepade arwah Nenek Yishun ku... She looks exactly like my late grams (Her mom)... Wah seh... OK, I'm actually beginning to feel emo-ish right now...

Well, Hari Raya celebration lasts for the whole entire month of Syawal... Hopefully, both hubby & I, we got the time to visit the rest of our relatives within that period...

Till I blog again... Insya'allah...


P/S: I'm still thinking of all those people who, even during in this month of "bermaaf-maafan", still couldn't loose their sickening egos... Wonder what they get by it...

Salam Eid Mubarak (in advance)...

As usual, our preparations for the arrival of Syawal this year, was a simple one (ala kadar sahaje). Just a set of Hari Raya clothings & shoes coz traditional clothings for us are worn only on certain occasions like festive seasons & wedding functions... So tak yah ler bazir2 duit beli 2 3 pasang... Baju tahon2 yang lepas maseh elok lagi... heh...

Just like any other year, we would pick one colour for our family Hari Raya clothings (this is standard procedure la har)... So Hubby loves the colour (sebab membe jugak yang pileh colour tu) & I love it too!

It's just that when the actual day came for us to get the Hari Raya clothings @ Geylang Serai, there seems to be a little "glitch" in the colour concept thingy... pfft... When we got the colour that we wanted, it's either there wasn't any size available or the fabrics were way too different from what we expected... lol...

With Asil's clinging on his Baba while Asyura clinging on her Ummi, we walked to & fro (I mean we literally WALK & PAST THRU THE CROWD OF PEOPLE & SMOKE FROM THE BBQ DENDENG STALLS! WA LAO!!) in search of our baju lor... In the end we gave up & ended buying those baju that pleases our eyes the most la har & of course we still stayed true to the colour that we chose (tak dapat exact colour, the closest colour next to it pon jadi la kan... asalkan ade colour contrast)...

So don't be surprised if on the 1st day of Hari Raya, my little Asyura looks like a 'Bhangra' dancer, my little Asil looks like a 'Kung Fu' fighter, my Baba looks like "Hang Tuah" & I look like I just got married... lol...

Seriously, this year's baju Raya is such a challenge to find... Baba had to park his car right behind Joo Chiat Complex & we had to freakingly walk all the way thru out the entire Geylang Bazaar with our kids clinging on us... (>.<) Kaaaaau!! Berlendir siak ketiak!! Satu badan bau asap dageng dendeng bakar!! lol...

Kueh Raye beli pon tak banyak coz my 3rd sis-in-law [Muz] had already made some Hari Raya biscuits & cookies of her own with her mommy... So we decided to contribute a few cartons of canned drinks in the house... [Oi Moteh! Rajen sei minah! Next year kau try la buat kek skali... Bole jugak aku testing... Kueh Raye kau, aku nak testing malam Raye nanti... hee hee...]

So we're left with cleaning up? I guess... & that's about it... heh...

You know, I was actually thinking about those months when I was pregnant with my kids... How I completed my fasting for the entire month of Ramadhan while they were still in my tummy... I'm kinda smiling @ myself right now looking back at how strong of a young mummy I was enduring the thirst & hunger during Ramadhan while conceiving both of my babies... Masya'allah... I still couldn't believe that I actually went thru all the fasting process without even skipping a single day... Alhamdulillah...

The best part was, both of my kids @ that time, were actually fasting along with me & how sweet could that be, to have your unborn babies practice fasting as early as when they were still in your tummy? It's touching much for me... Really...

I hope this experience of me fasting during both of my pregnancies would give some motivation & encouragement not only to my little Asyura, but also to all Muslim mums-to-be in the future... If you have the will to do something that benefits you, Insya'allah, you can do it... Antare nak dengan tak nak jer kan? =)

And I guess Syawal is drawing nearer & nearer to us while Ramadhan will slowly draw itself away from us... I definitely will miss Ramadhan kerane sesunggoh nyer Ramadhan tahun ini sangat la bermakne buat diri ku... Those iftar moments I had with my Baba & our kids... Just us 4...

The most memorable iftar we had as a family was the one @ Changi Beach... Where we bought the famous Changi Nasi Lemak, some fruits & drinks, then drove down to the beach & got ourselves a nice spot @ one of the picnic shelters there, enjoying the sunset while waiting for iftar... It's one of the nicest moments for us... Berbuke pose cume beralaskan surat khabar... I actually said this to my hubby, "Ba, kite dok kat pondok ni buke pose da mcm anak yatim piatu eh... Macam tak de mak bapak... Macam tak de tempat tinggal..."

Hubby's reply was, "Tak per, we still have each other & our kids & most importantly Allah, who is always there for us..."

I smiled when hubby said that but while eating, somehow, it kept me thinking of all the poor & the needy... Macamane agak nyer eh dorang sambot bulan Ramadhan & Syawal nanti? May Allah have mercy upon them... Insya'allah... Kesian dorang...

So to end my blog entry for today, I would like to wish everyone of my family members, Muslim brothers & sister & all those who know me...

"SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN - SALAM EID MUBARAK..."

This might sounds too early but OK la har, coz I noticed that I'm too busy to blog lately & now that I'm hook to Twitter, I seldom blog liao... hee hee... So since I've got this weeny bit of time, why not blog right?

Enjoy your holiday everyone & kalau sesape yang ade kenderaan tu, tolong la pandu berhati2 yer... =)

Till I blog again...

As Salam...