As Salam Peepz...
First of all, this entry is a piece of my reflection on some of the things that have been happening in my life lately... Up to my fellow readers to judge... What can I say, "Rambot same hitam tapi hati lain2..."
It's been quite a while since I last made a personal entry... I'm not in a pretty good mood today... Feeling a little bit upset on certain issues... It's so true that Allah s.w.t is Great... Sepandai mane seseorg itu cuba merahsiakan sesuatu dari aku dan suamiku, suatu hari kami pasti akan dpt tahu jugak...
Why do we prefer spending quality time among ourselves; our little toddlers, hubby and I...? It's because there are people who always take our kindness for granted and keep wanting more from us... They love giving "sweet talks" but at the end of the day, back-stabbed us... They speak like they really mean it sincerely from the bottom of their hearts but actually they don't... They do not want us to put them aside instead (as a family), we should prioritise and always keep them in our minds...
On the other hand, let me say this, "Did you people really keep us in your minds? Did you think of us whenever you guys are planning on a family gathering? Did you really sincerely mean what you say when you said you cared about me and my family?" Only Allah knows best...
Why do hubby and I not get ourselves involve and too close with you people... Why? Coz we're always to be blame for the things that we didn't do... Why? Coz we're the youngest and we're the most vulnerable to your sarcasms and your accusations... Sebab konon nye kite ni paling kecik dan yg kecik la slalu kena bully!!
Seriously, I'm sick and tired of all this fake masks all over your faces!!
You people want respect, we've given you respect and we WILL keep giving you the respect that you people need... Insya'allah, nothing more and nothing less... I just HATE people who love putting on freaking FAKE MASKS on their freaking faces and faking on things... I hate it!! I really do!! And the saddest part is some of these people are your closest family members and your friends...
And why is it so that Mr Rizal and his family prefer to spent their time among themselves? It's because we're thrown around like a ball... Or even worst, try imagining us being beef patties that got stuck in between 2 buns, like a beef burger... That's how the situation is like for us... And that's why we always address ourselves as, "Rizal & Family Sendirian Berhad"... Why? Coz we are only called when needed and because of that, we prefer to spend time on our own with our babies!!
I'm really really upset with you guys... I really do... What kind of trust could I gain from all of you...? Nothing... And I hope you guys are happy doing what you did... The next time there's a problem in your life, please, I beg of you people, DON'T EVER COME AND LOOK FOR US... Coz I'm sick of all the crap!!
I'm sorry if this entry is gonna piss anyone of you out there... But I have to somehow let this feelings out and put them into words... And my blog is one of the greatest things that had ever happen in my life... I'm just sad that those people whom I trust could keep a secret from me and my hubby... Even SECRETS do leak out, eventually...
6 comments:
You have aired your sentiments and the unfairness treatment you receive. So how do you feel? Some load off your shoulder? It takes a lot of characters to make the world. The important thing is to be sincere in what you do and don't take revenge. Insyallah, others will understand you more.
Kak ummi, even i didnt know the story, but sabar ye? org yg baik slalu di tindas. tapi jgn risau, Allah maha kaya, insyaAllah kak Ummi n family akan di balas care baik..saba ye? nak raya dah kan? :) kene happy2.. :D
To Mdm Azizah: Yes. A whole lot of load off my shoulder. I've been keeping these mixed emotions of sadness and angriness inside of me for quite a while. Been keeping and swallowing all the mean and fake things they gave towards us for quite a while. Perhaps we've been too kind and too quiet to them and that's where we're taken advantage of. Never did we ask for them to repay the kindness that we did. All we're asking is their sincerity and not lies. Insya'allah, revenge is definitely not on my list instead, I will let them be as they are. But I will be extra careful when facing them next time considering the fact that we've been played off for so many times. It really hurts to be hurt.
To Dyalycious: I'm the type of person who seldom throw my feelings out whenever I'm pissed. Slalunye simpan di dalam hati & will relate my problems to Him or my hubby. And when I've people who played my family out, I would normally "sabar" & have the tolerance to ignore whatever crap that comes in the way. Even to the extend where they humiliated us in public. We could still ignore and sabar. Kadang2 tu it's too much for me to swallow. Sedih bercampor marah for being lied at, blamed at, back-stabbed at for no reason. Buat baik dgn org salah, buat jahat lagi salah. Betol tk? So what shud we do? Lebih baik sabar and diamkan sahaje. Perhaps we're too nice to them sebab tu slalu kena take advantage at. But I've learn my lesson from here. I still love them even after what they did. Even though it hurts to think that ade jugak manusia seperti mereka yang sanggop melukakan hati org lain.
just let go here! I am sure you felt much better after doing it right?
To Shopaholic Mama: Yes, definitely I feel much better. Hilang sume tension. I rather say it here & let those people read it "point blank". At least I'm not being a hypocrite. It stresses me sometimes when I think about it... *sob sob* Ni pon Alhamdulillah, da OK pon... hee hee...
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