To YOU...

You don't have to put on a fake mask & a fake smile whenever you see me & my family... I could jolly well tell it from your face that you are pushing it too hard... FYI, your face tells everything...

I heard soooooo many things about what you said behind our backs [And as always, you got no guts to even tell it straight up to our faces...] Pity us, dah dok jaoh2 kat Sengkang & tak kacau orang, maseh jugak ade yang saket hati eh?

And what I can say to you is this > I bloody hell don't give a bloody damn about every single gossips & back-bitings that you said... And, I REALLY am not the bloody "MAKCIK K-PO" type to even give a damn about you, your life or your family... So STOP GIVING A DAMN ABOUT ME & MY FAMILY & TELLING US WHAT EXACTLY IT IS THAT WE NEED TO DO!! LOOK @ YOUR OWN FLAWS BEFORE LOOKING @ OTHERS!!

Say what you want to say plus that "saket hati-ness" of yours... One day, the future will tell what sort of human you truly is... In fact, seriously, your true colours are beginning to appear already...

And that fake mask of yours? tsk tsk tsk... You should just flush it down the toilet coz no point of you wearing it anymore...

What's the use of you seeking forgiveness, hugging here & there on the 1st day of Syawal when there's still a lump of hatred in your heart... Buang current jer... Really...

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I prefer to be true to myself, even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others, rather than to be false, and to incur my own abhorrence...

It is better to displease the people by doing what I know is right, than to temporarily please them by doing what I know is wrong...

Thank you... =)

I Really Hope I Could Read One's Heart...

People are unreasonable, illogical & self-centered. Love them anyway.

If you do good, people may accuse you of selfish motives. Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you may win false friends & true enemies. Succeed anyway.

The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.

Honesty & transparency make you vulnerable. Be honest & transparent anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway.

People who really want help may attack you if you help them. Help them anyway.

Give the world the best you have & you may get hurt. Give the world your best anyway.

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As Salam Peepz...

Not been blogging for days... Busy with office work... Crap... Pfft... Month end closing sucks big time... Top it up with new sickening "ngee yau" customers for our billing department.... wah seh... Also our internal server was down for 2 freaking days... Huwaaaargh!! Can die I tell you... Vomit blood...

My Baba was feeling kinda sad, pissed & disappointed this morning. He shared with me his story & it made me feel the same way too... A disappointment... Really... (sigh)

May The Almigty have mercy upon all of us & may He always guide us in doing the right thing for everyone (including ourselves)... Insya'allah, amin...

Hati manusia... Memang susah nak bace... Bole berubah bile2 mase... Sesunggohnye aku ingin mencube mendalami & mengkaji ilmu "bidang hati" seseorang manusia itu... Jadi lebih mudah bagiku untok mengetahui isi hati mereka yang sebenar-benar nye... It will definitely make my life easier... Amin...

I've many stuffs to update in my blog... Latest photos, blog entries etc... Just don't have the time to REALLY sit & blog... Soon I hope...

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Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep people away, but to see who cares enough, to tear those walls down...

Please Take The Initiative To Think, Can?

I was already awake @ 9am...

1 of my "she-colleague", she pissed me off early in the morning today...

I really couldn't understand why la har... Whether is she really DUMB or just playing DUMB & INNOCENT?

I took the initiative to ask her yesterday whether is she coming @ 2pm for work today coz if she is, I would really like to start my day in the office @ 9am & end @ 1pm... It'll definitely make my job easier if I start work in the morning coz at least, I could be home to cook & spend quality time with my family since I'm gonna be on duty in the office this Sunday...

This "she-colleague" confidently, I mean really CONFIDENTLY replied me & said that she CONFIRMED would be starting her day in the office @ 9am... So I, being the nicest colleague, ask her again, "So you confirm ah, you'll start work @ 9am... So like that OK lor, I just come @ 2pm lor... I was really hoping to start @ 9am so that I could spend more time with my children, cooking & stuffs, if I end my half day @ 1pm..."

Yet again, she still insisted saying that she'll start work @ 9am...

The reason why I kept asking her is because she always have this habit of changing her OFF days & her working time especially when she starts work on half a day... I know, coz she played me out once... And today, she did it again... And I am SO PISSED with her!! She has done it to my other previous colleagues before!!

NO ONE was in the office this morning to help pick up the calls & attend to complains!! There is but he's my new "he-colleague" who no nuts about most stuffs... So what can you expect from a new colleague who no nuts? Obviously not much, right?

And when 1 of my managers wants to get into her office, the main entrance door was locked... She didn't have the door keys with her... Only those who are on weekend office duty has the keys to all doors... I am one of them & that "she-colleague" is 1 of them too!!

Now that she wasn't in, she left that manager of mine feeling pissed early in the morning & asking herself on why wasn't anyone on duty in the office early morning & leaving all doors locked?

Will you get pissed if you were me?

This "she-colleauge", she should have at least take the initiative to inform me when she decided to come to the office @ 2pm @ the very last minute... I could at least help cover the morning work load while waiting for her to start work @ 2pm... Now look what she's done? She had caused a bloody commotion! So many calls, so many complains & most importantly, she got 1 of my managers pissed...!

So what did I do? I sms-ed her...

Me > You should have tell me that you actually come @ 2pm instead of 9am when I ask you yesterday. I already told you the reason why I want to come in the morning & leave @ 1pm & that is because it's easier for me to take care of my children @ hm. This morning, Wong called & said no one is in the office. Thanks for your frankness & your sincere help.

Then she replied me about 2 hours later...

She > So sorry Lily. I'm not feeling well. Last night I slept @ 4am & this morning I went to clinic & just now arrived back. So sorry.

Huwaaargh!! She always LOVE giving the same excuse over & over again... I was so pissed off that I replied her this...

Me > What I know is we are all humans & we know ourselves better. I believe what goes around would comes around. Thanks for your help anyway.

You think I would buy the excuse she gave to me? Nope... Sorry... Once bitten, twice shy... She did this to me once before & with the same excuse... In fact, I did told my other colleague (my partner in crime) that for sure this biatch would play me out again... And I was right!!

You know, I kept thinking... She's older than us... She's married... That makes her more mature & more experience than us... Why didn't she have the brain to think for others? Taking the initiative & stuffs? Why? Why? Why?

Oh... OK, like what I said in my previous post, "God had made them like that, so they are like that lor..."

Perhaps maybe sorry to say this la har... Perhaps she didn't have any kids of her own... She didn't know the responsibility & effort a mother puts for her family... All the troubles that a mother has to go thru... Perhaps it's because of that... Also perhaps she's the youngest in her family & she's too pampered... Also, this is not PERHAPS... This is FOR SURE, there's always this particular someone up there in the office who fancy her, who always backs her up (rain or shine) & that's the reason why she can come & go any time she likes... Macam ni company diye ade share...

Funny thing how she didn't even realise the amount of people in this company who dislikes her & her freaking attitude... Also the amount of office staffs who had resigned because of her & this particular someone up there in the office who fancy her...

I know she has the address to my blog... Sooner or later, she's gonna read this... WHO CARES!! You're lucky that I don't mention your namesssss in this blog & upload your faces!!

To my "she-colleague" : I don't care how many amount of OFF DAYS you feel like changing & swapping... AT LEAST, TAKE THE INITIATIVE TO INFORM ALL YOUR OTHER COLLEAGUES... Coz we're basically working under one roof & everything here involves EVERYONE... You've done this SOOOOO many times & I'm so bloody sick & tired of it already!! I'm sick of your "go to the clinic & see the doctor" excuses... I'm sick of your "not feeling well" excuses... Coz basically, ALL YOUR BLOODY EXCUSES doesn't comes with BLACK & WHITE PROOF... & that particular person up there is basically fine with YOU not handing over BLACK & WHITE PROOFS to the management... What makes you so special har? So it's OK for you not to produce any proofs while the rest of us have to? And the best part is, that PARTICULAR PERSON UP THERE just keep 1 of his eyes shut on this matter? Not letting the bosses know? tsk tsk tsk... What good employees you guys are... Go tell it to him about this entry for all I care... For your info, everyone here, we have a pair of eyes... Even the office walls have a pair of eyes & ears... So don't you dare think that everyone here don't know what you guys are up to... Remember, what goes around would eventually comes around & that's call KARMA in your language... Sooner or later the truth WILL come out... I'm sick of your SHIT!! Biatch!!

Whatever Lah Eh...

So OK, it's official...

I am gonna let all these... ... ...

• ignorant...
• self-centred egotistical...
• childish...
• narrow-minded...
• selfish...
• irritating...
• empty headed...
• braggart...
• long-winded...
• heartless...
  

... ... ... microscopic human beings BE...

Seriously can't be bothered already... If they couldn't take advises from others, then let them be... If they couldn't think for others, then let them be as well... Forever, they'll be like that till they grow old, wrinkle & wither slowly... Until 1 day (I pray & hope so la har) The Almighty would finally struck "something" into each of their minds & make them realise...

We pity them but they don't pity themselves... So how? Nak buat macamane? Allah da jadikan dorang macam tu...

Da besar panjang kan? Da tua nak mampos kan? Ade kpale otak fiker mane baik & mane burok kan? So lantak la eh... Whatever lah...

I pray so so hard that I won't turn out to be like any of those things listed on top of this entry... (Insya'allah, amin...) Please NO... Never do I wanna turn out like that ever!! I will be always be forever thankful to The Almighty for giving me, ME... This me... This Lily... Definitely forever thankful... Syukur Alhamdulillah...

Also... I don't owe any of you anything coz I don't put any of my burden on your shoulders... So if you're not satisfied with me, you should AT LEAST say it straight up to my freakin face if you have the guts... But I don't think you dare la har... So, just put your mouth in your ass & shovel it, can?

I can be nasty so don't test me... Be nice & I'll treat you nicer...

Right now I feel like slamming someone's head onto the wall coz my patience is up the max already... Huwaarrrrghhhh!! (OK, istighfar Lily... tarek nafas & istighfar banyak2...)

On a half day today...

Will be doing a little bit of "marketing" @ NTUC... Nak masak ape eh ari ni? Talk about cooking, I still have some recipes that I've yet to share in my blog... hee hee... I will... Promise... Soon...

Will be fetching the kids from school a little earlier today (yeay!! can't wait to see them; my little mischievous toddlers)... Thought of bringing them for a little ride on BLOO [To Baba: Thank you for buying the side mirror for me... I like!!] & go kite flying... Well, we'll see how la har... I still need to do the laundry & cleaning up... heh...

As for now, like the cousin always says to me when I'm pissed, "K Kak... Chill Kak... Chill K...?"

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Today's Twitter Posts...

AstriJar @lilyashburn ya.. whats wrong with your new colleague?

lilyashburn @AstridJar my new he-colleague? he has a mouth plus attitude of a biatch. nvr find a human who luv askin lame s questions. nb. n he's SLOW.

fidzahtan Idiot cab! I take cab everyday! I know lah!

lilyashburn @fidzahtan i also take cab everydy 1 mah... lol... so we're like de cabby sisters... lol...

lilyashburn gd moooooornin twitter heads!! hw's ur mornin? i m EARLY 4 wrk today & I LOVE IT!! woo hoo!! clock in @ 8.39am... yeah baby!!

lilyashburn on a half dy today y'all... feels gd... hm-cooked fd today & i'm cookin!! yeay!! =)

fidzahtan @lilyashburn errr I end at 7 :) so so so so...hehe

fidzahtan @lilyashburn yea man! But I hate slow n stuborn cabbies

lilyashburn @fidzahtan i hate slow stubborn cabbies too. mcm nk slam kpale dorg kat steerin wheel kn? eh u n @ 7? booooring!! ;P

fidzahtan @lilyashburn yea true!! Yup 7!!sedih kan

lilyashburn @fidzahtan : yup... =)

lilyashburn hey! i got me a mango dat had juz dropped itself on de ground.. niceeee... thks 2 boss 4 de mango trees... heh...

fengnicf i think cannot teach him all guest d.o. punya step, he tak boleh rmb 1...n cannot catch.

lilyashburn @fengnicf tel u hor teach him simple things n yet he dun noe... nb.. i kip on repeat n repeat until i go siao. spoil my mornin mood. cb.

fengnicf tak payah sort la..he mcm bmw type la..

fengnicf im thinking end month ur lj cb word how to come out infront dis uncle..hhahahha

lilyashburn @fengnicf walao dat one ar... (sigh) seriously i m speechless... dun noe wat to say... (>.<)

Any Sooner & I'll Explode...

OK, I've already said that I'm having mood swings...

Then, today, this "he-colleague" of mine is so testing my patience... Bloody talkative in a way that he'll ask nonsensical questions that's out of your mind...

You tell me, what does Tiger Balm Medicated Oil has got to do with FLYING MOSQUITOES? What does other people's personal stuffs has got to do with me? Even my other colleague is beginning to get so pissed off with him!!

My goodness... Wei!! I'm not a walking dictionary or even a walking k-po-ist or even a walking First-Aid box... I'm just trying to work in this cute small office PEACEFULLY without any lame ass human being coming, asking me lame ass questions that I myself am not sure of... Halo!! Do I look like I know everything?!!

I'm already having a bloody migraine so can you not make it any worse for me?! I kept my freaking mouth shut & I don't even bother talking to you but yet your bloody mouth can't seem to stop TALKING NONSENSICALLY!! And you don't even know what does phone etiquette means sia!!

My job is to teach you all those work stuffs that you need to know. So you bloody well follow & stop asking me lame ass questions... Ape aku ajar, kau ikot la, BACEN!! Banyak songel pulak!!

WALAO!! GIVE ME A FREAKING BREAK CAN OR NOT?! Kpale aku saket siak... I've had enough of having selfish, ill-mannered, ignorant, egostitical, copy-cat, show-off & bossy humans pissing me off day by day... Can you please not top the Hatred Chart up?

Bloody hell... Just do your work as I told you la... It makes everyone's job here in the office a little much more easier & efficient... -.- (sigh)

Don't Understand Them Sometimes...

People...

They go about complaining & whining to you saying that they've insufficient $$$ to survive for the entire month till their next pay day & they've lots of bills to pay but YET, they're still spending their $$$ like nobody's business...

Lepas tu, da boros dengan benda2 yang tak senonoh & yang tak mendatangkan faedah, lepas tu carik membe ajak berbual - complain, tunjok muke sedih cakap tak cukop duit la itu la ini la... Whatever la... Baik per...

In the 1st place, why act rich? When in reality, you're not?

Eh please la... Everyone have their own financial problems sia... You're not the only one la sei... Face it!! Kau yang cari masalah... Sape suroh kau spend all your bloody money like nobody's business then go around walking like a rich ass's kid & at the end of the month looking like a bird thirsty for water?

Talk like they're the only ones with financial problems... Talk talk talk tapi NO PROBLEM SOLVING... Eh please la eh... What makes you think we got no bills to pay ar? Eh halo... I got no family ar? No bills & fees to pay ar?

Kepek mrepek siak dek ni pagi2 bute da buat tlinge aku rase mual... Ni ar name nye Melayu mrepek... Omong nya kosong saja... Bile masalah datang, tak tahu nak carik de root cause of it... Aku rase dekni bukan tak tahu... Aku rase diye tahu tapi step buat tak tahu... pfft...

OK lunch time people... Aku ni saje2 jer nak lepas kan geram... Pade tadi pagi aku tahan...

You, Your Mouth & Your Assume...

I am so so pissed right now... I don't know how to express myself in this blog... But for sure He knows I am so so pissed off...

My patience was tested... My anger nearly blew-off to the extreme... I could punch a wall with my fist...

YOU, YOU, YOU!!

You couldn't read what's inside of me... You don't have a brain like me... So don't say anything that your mouth wants to say... I am ME... I admit I do have my flaws... And I HATE IT when you just assume anything you like about ME... Coz you are not ME... You are not The Almighty Him either who knows very well about me...

You bore me, yet you still don't know me? Your own flesh & blood... You act like you know me but it's such a disappointment, you don't...

Self centred egotistical mind... That's all you have...

So please, don't judge me anyhow or anyway you please... I know what I'm doing... Also, I've reminded you time & time again that I've a husband... Whatever decisions made were discussed & confirmed by the both of us...

I hope He, wake you up & widen your mind... Coz I hate for the fact that, that self centred egotistical mind of yours creates a living stress out of me... Hate it... It's been that way eversince I was a kid... I'm really sick of it!! It's always you... EVERYONE HAVE TO ABIDE TO WHATEVER YOU SAY WHETHER IT'S WRONG OR RIGHT!! Please... I really had enough...

I'm breaking down right now amiss all these crap... Stressed up... Angry, sad, EVERYTHING!!

I'm really looking forward when this world comes to an end... Coz that's where we'll be able to see each of our deeds... ALL OUR DEEDS... Only then you'll be able to know & learn the true ME... I've had enough of this self centred egotistical nonsense from you...

Right now, it feels like my heart's poked thru by a sharp needle... That's how painful it is for me...

A Self Centered Egotistical Mind...

Wicked is the ego of self centered fools.
Who care about nothing but causing trouble.
Nobody can do right in the eyes of such people.
They have people beside them blinded in comfort.

The selfishness of the ego cries like a baby.
Especially when things don’t go the way it wants.
Then it tries and psych you out by asking questions.
Did I do something wrong? Are you pushing me away?

The people who see this ego driven selfishness, laugh.
Every time it is expressed, we all laugh harder.
We laugh because this type of self centeredness grows.
It grows younger and more childish every single day.

This type of egotistical, possessiveness yearns for help.
But, you can’t tell someone this who already knows everything.
Why try beating a dead horse if it’s living?
It will still remain a dead horse breathing lucid air.

The self centered ego sucks people down and everything around it as well.
It cannot survive by simply being happy for others.
It needs to choke people, tell them they aren’t doing things right.
The ego has its own built up hatred to feed, on others faults.

What selfishness and pity can the human mind have?
Self centered minds who blame everything going wrong on others.
This is why egotistical self centered minds get pushed away.
This is why people leave and don’t want to come back, ever.

It’s always something, it’s always someone else’s fault.
This is the mind set of the ego driven self centered thought.
Never happy about anything unless it is perfect by the ego’s standards.
Funny, nobody seems to get along with this personality.
Grow up! Move on with life. Leave others alone. Stop pushing away.

Coming Over To The School, Making A Big Drama...

Well done!! Thanks for coming over to the school & creating a big "hoo-haa-old-grandmother's story" to the school's principal...

My guess is right... See!! I knew something like this would eventually happened & it'll obviously come from YOU... I've known YOU well enough la... YOU loveeeeee to seek attention & cause commotion everywhere YOU go...

So how does it feel? Now that YOU've got everyone involved in YOUR so-called problem?

YOU go around telling every single person that YOU meet about the disputes (plus the added make-up story dialogues & teary scenes that YOU added like a spice mix) that we are having...

YOU even when to the extend of telling about my cousin's personal stuffs to the school's principal... Halo!! That's her BOSS you're talking to & that same school is where my kids go to EVERY SINGLE BLOODY DAY la sei!!

Whoaaaaaa!! That's a whole lotta grandmother's story YOU got there... Lucky me on that day, aku tegerak hati wanna go fetch the kids earlier from school...

Again, well done!! Thanks for coming over to the school & creating a big hoo-haa to their school's principal...

If YOU could just have the freaking patience to BLOODILY WAIT... Definitely we'll bring THEM over to see you!! But NOOOO!! YOU just didn't have the patience to wait & instead, YOU go round & round & round getting the whole world involved in YOUR problem...

Now my hubby's pissed, my cousin's pissed & I, of course, am PISSED as well!!

Why are we sooooo freaking pissed?? It's because right now, YOU bloodily got the whole Child Care Centre cum School involved too!!

Thanks ah eh to YOUR "drama-mama-bollywood-tears plus grandmother's story", everyone in the centre knows about our family problem... YOU made YOUR story sooooo "REAL" that in YOUR story, YOU made it seems that YOU're the good guy & we're the bad... Thanks a whole lot!! And whatever la... God knows better...

Bual dengan bahase yang sebaik2 nye pon tak reti bahase... Kalau bual kurang ajar, lagi worst kan...

So, YOU tell me & my hubby, "WHAT KIND OF LANGUAGE DO YOU WANT US TO TALK TO YOU COZ WE'RE FREAKING SICK & TIRED OF YOUR CRAP!! EVERYWHERE WE GO, YOU LOVE TO BUG INTO OUR LIVES... ADE JER BENDE YANG KORANG NAK CARI PASAL!! EH PLEASE LA... TOLONG LA... DOSE DA BERTEPEK... JANGAN LA TAMBAHKAN LAGI DOSE YANG MENGAROT... KITORANG DA BOSAN AH!! DA BINGET!! DA TAK TAHU NAK BUAT APE DENGAN PRANGAI KORANG YANG ASYEK NAK STEP MENANG & STEP TAK PUAS HATI!! DUDOK DENGAN KORANG, KITE KENA KATE... DA KASI KORANG APE YANG KORANG NAK, PON TETAP KENA KATE... KITORANG PINDAH JAOH2 PON JADI BAHAN KATE... EH!! WHAT THE BLOODY HELL IS IT THAT YOU GUYS WANT LA!! AKU DA BINGET AH DENGAN KORANG!! BINGET! BINGET! BINGET!! TOLONG JANGAN MASOK CAMPO HAL KLUARGE KITORANG BOLE TAK??? PEGI LA MAIN JAOH2... DUDOK MESJID KE APE... MAIN GOLI KE... NI TAK ASYEK NAK MENYEBOK JAGE TEPI KAIN ORANG... TEPI KAIN KLUARGE AKU LAGI... AKU BINGET TAHU TAK!!! MAKIN KITORANG DIAM MAKIN KORANG NAIK TOCANG!! EH STOP IT LA SEI!!"

Again & again... Let me say this...

This is my blog... This is where I'll say whatever I wanna say & vent out...

A blog couldn't always be as PERFECT & as SWEET as whatever some of you might think... There's always gonna be one of them, SHIT written in it once in a while...

So yeap... It's my blog, it's about my life, my thoughts & my say... Life isn't always perfect anyway... Things could get ugly sometimes...

Da OK... Aku nak chill... Aku betol2 tengah binget... Saket kpale aku!!

Now YOU're Really Making Me Pissed!!

Seriously I don't know what the hell YOU want from me & my family... We've told YOU time & time again that we'll bring our kids over to YOUR crib once everything's settle down... But did YOU ever listen? NO!!

At first, instead of seeking my hubby's permission to see the kids, YOU had called my workplace looking for me... YOU created a line of phone disturbances asking all my office colleagues for my mobile number when YOU already had the mobile number of my hubby... YOU had created a scene here @ my workplace causing my colleagues to run up & down looking for me just to let me know that I ought to return YOUR urgent call...

Halo!! Let me ask YOU this!! Where were YOU when we left??? Where were YOU when we said our goodbyes & when my kids were calling out for YOU!! YOU were @ the kitchen doing "God knows what" & pretending not to hear anything...!!!

Then now, when ALL OF US had left YOU to be in a better family environment, YOU came back looking for us with an excuse that YOU wanna see my kids & that YOU miss them soooooo dearly...??? Halo!! Kindly refresh back YOUR past memories can??? We've already refreshed ours & those past memories are still FRESH in our minds...

I thought I heard YOU saying to the world that my family & I were a burden to YOU??? I thought I heard YOU saying that by taking care of my kids, they had somehow hindered YOU from going out to mingle around with the rest of the world?

Now that we're trying our best to settle safely & soundly in our new home, minding our own family business, there YOU go again causing disturbance in our lives...!!

FOR GOD SAKE PLEASE LA!! STOP WHAT YOU'RE DOING!! I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU MAKING ME YOUR DAMN FOOL!! I'M YOUR ONLY DAUGHTER BUT YOU ONLY NEEDED ME WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE IT & THREW ME AWAY WHEN YOU WANTED TO!! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!

And now that YOU're trying to budge in & jeopardizing my cousin's WORK by calling & asking her School Principal whether or not Asil & Asyura are schooling at that particular Child Care Centre is really WAY TOO MUCH!!

Why can't YOU just take YOUR mobile phone & call my hubby up & ask him whatever it is that YOU wanna ask...? Instead, you keep on doing things behind our backs, & seriously YOU are making matters WORST for a WHOLE LOTTA PEOPLE...!!

GIVE US ALL SOME FACE!! AT LEAST GIVE MY COUSIN SOME FACE COZ SHE'S WORKING IN THAT FREAKING CHILD CARE CENTRE FOR GOD SAKE & EVERY BLOODY SINGLE DAMN DAY SHE HAD TO FACE THE PRINCIPAL THERE!!

Frankly with this type of "doing things behind our backs" type of attitude that YOU've got, it really makes us wanna drift further & further away from YOU...

Anyway, I don't think YOU care right??? YOU only know how to gossip with the world & going around wearing fake masks with the same people who have the same type of mentality as YOU...

Oh!! I almost forgot!! You still have YOUR SONS per... YOU are PROUD to have them, SONS... And I wonder, what if they finally got married & have kids??? Would YOU still bother to come looking for my kids??? Naaaah!! I doubt so...

And if YOU so gonna come down to eavesdrop at the centre with that "doing things behind our backs" type of attitude, well let me tell YOU something, hubby & I, for sure, WE will get so bloody pissed & I live it all up to God to settle this family dispute when the day comes...

PLEASE... STOP BOTHERING OUR LIVES... YOU & ALL THOSE LIVING IN THE SAME HOUSE AS YOU HAD REALLY CAUSED SO MUCH PAIN IN OUR LIVES... SO PLEASE STOP... JUST LET US BE...

Insya'allah, we'll face you guys one day when our hearts tell us so... And right now, until this very day, this very moment, our hearts are still broken & disappointed...

Why Are You Guys So Vain Huh?

OK, this entry might sound sarcastic and rude to some of you but so sorry, I can't help it... I don't live in a world that's always filled with "sunshine" everyday... Bedek kalau aku cakap hari2 aku tak pernah marah... I would be faking about my life story in this blog already... Like I said before, my blog is where I tell it all... Sorry... I really can't help it... I need to blow it out anyway...

I'm actually so freaking pissed off with some people... >:(

Well, here I am packing a remainder of little Asil's left over birthday cake (from last Sunday's mini little birthday celebration that we had) for my mini little family to eat later on and so I placed the nicely packed cake in the fridge... The next freaking day, I found out, SOMEONE (Aku tak tahu la eh sape yang badok tu kek coz tiap2 kali kalau aku tanye, sume orang dalam rumah tu slalu cakap, "Entah... Tak tahu..."... It has been like that, ni sentences da macam trademark untok dorang, "Entah... Tak tahu..." So tak gune aku gi tanye... Buang current jer...)has been eating a portion of the cake WITHOUT even asking permission or whose cake does it belongs to!! Gosh!! I was so freaking pissed off!!

I mean, wei!! You guys are so freaking uncivilise and no manners siak!! You guys go around celebrating other people's birthday not even bother to remember or ask about my little boy's birthday that's also around the corner... And when we dropped by over @ Tampines, just to chill and gather around with other family members, you guys treated us like we are invisible humans...? Kitorang datang singgah penat2 dengan anak2, rush skejap lepas balek jempotan, korang step nak tak nak layan kitorang? Kitorang ni ape? Tunggol...? Kitorang bukan nak mintak disembah ke ape la eh... At least treat us like your family members... Coz afterall WE ARE a part of YOUR FAMILY... But you people jolly well treated us like we are INVICIBLE...!! Bile part kitorang senang siket, sume nak join same2... Bile part kitorang susah siket, korang sume step escape...

The part where you guys had forgotten (dengan tak sengaje lupe or eksyen lupe pon hanye Allah sahaje yang tahu la eh) about my little Asil's birthday... Huwaaaargh!! This part is so freaking unforgettable for me... Da la birthday laki aku korang step lupe... Birthday Asyura pon korang step lupe... Birthday aku lagi... Kalau tak kerane MAKCIK aku remind korang, aku rase korang pon lupe la eh... Funny thing how when it comes to YOUR BIRTHDAY, korang nak kitorang ingat... Birthday anak aku, baik Asyura or Asil or even my hubby?... Korang step escape??? Korang step lupe...? Sume nak kena orang ingatkan ke per... Abeh birthday korang nak kitorang step "AUTO-REMEMBER"... Please la eh... Have some freaking thoughts la for other people... Korang ingat korang aje ade feeling? Korang tak nak aku step complain to other people pasal korang... Korang nak kitorang step act mature and solve matters accordingly... But what about you guys? You people go around talking about my mini little family behind our backs and to you people, you think that's FINE? Eh seriously la eh... Korang berat sbelah la sei...

And the best part is... You guys didn't even wish my little boy, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" and the part where I found out you guys had the freaking guts to eat up a portion of my little Asil's birthday cake without even asking is so freakingly pissing me OFF!! Really... I'm so freaking pissed off...

Macam ni korang cakap korang "ade care"...? Korang ni so-called "ade adat" nye orang? Kalau orang lain, korang pandai tegor... Korang pandai step mengumpat... Eh please la eh...!! Sbelom nak step cakap pasal orang, gi la cermin diri sendiri dulu!!

And the part where korang ingat bile korang need our help, baru korang nak step talipon terhegeh2 asking for our company...? Please la... We don't buy any of those crap anymore!!

Seriously, I'm pissed... Suke2 step lupe pasal anak aku nye birthday... Then, suke2 isi perot makan birthday kek anak aku? Huwaaaaargh!! Ni namenye ade care, ade adat... Fooooh!! A standing ovation la from me to you... Keep up the nice work...

I don't ask you guys to shower my kids with presents, money and other stuffs... It's good enough that you guys shower them with SINCERITY... No need for a freaking fake masks on your faces coz we can sense it well enough...

Such a sad thing to see something like this coming out from people like you...

Korang da la buat laki aku and aku macam invisible humans... So now what? You guys wanna treat my kids the same way too? Go ahead... Suatu hari bile anak2 aku da besa nanti, they themselves can judge sape yang betol2 ikhlas dengan dorang...

Anyway, a few more days to year 2010...

A new year... A new start...

OK, I'm done...