How Could You...

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin' off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're "here" not "there"
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see?

They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, some never thought I could
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
Something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not 'there'
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What you need, what you need, what you need

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see?

[Stop and Stare by One Republic]
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Time and time again you bring me down... Disappoints me... Saddens me... Think negatively of me... You make use of me whenever you feel like it... Never did you notice you've always been so bias towards me and my other siblings... And never ever did you (for once) put yourself in my shoe and the situation that I'm going thru...

It's always about you isn't it? It's always about you... All these while, I've been putting up with you... Trying my best to please and accept you as you are but the "real" you never seems to stop flaunting...

You demoralise me...

How could you...

How could you, Mom...

Made By Ummi Lily Ash Burn...

The babies went to bed early yesterday while hubby went out for his weekly night class... And I, was left alone at home watching Japanese Anime (you see, I have this "thing" for Japanese Anime)... pfft...

Then something struck my mind...

I took my "Accessories Tool Box" out from the cupboard and did one of the things that I do best... Handmade Accessories!! Woo hoo!! It's been a while since I last made any... sheesh... If I'm not wrong, it was eversince I gave birth to little Asyura (issssh!! lame la sei)...

I've made a bunchful of accessories but they aren't meant for sale... From earrings, necklaces, bracelets and even to the simplest-cute-little-tiny handphone accessories that we attached onto our handphones...

Mostly, I gave these finished pieces to my mom... And she'll go all smiley, walking around to wedding functions with the accessories that I made (satu set lagi aku buat untok mak aku)... hee hee... But I do make an exception to make accessories for my fellow friends... To them, it would be nicer to have something that would go along well with their outfits and could be worn on certain functions and occasions...

Eversince Aunt Mama Yang had introduced me into this handmade accessories, beading and stuffs, it has been one of my hobbies during spare time... Hubby suggested that I should start a mini little e-business by selling them... Perhaps I could consider but not at the moment coz it's pretty time-consuming for a mother of 2 like me (not forgetting my work load in the office)... At home, I'm only free to do whatever I want when the babies are asleep...

Even though my schedule is pretty hectic than usual, my life is pretty much more fun and cheerful having little Asil and Asyura around... =)

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For You, Kak Ann... (As Promised)

With regards to Kak Ann's blog entry on "Patience Is A Virtue"...

OK, I promised Kak Ann (aka Shopaholic Mama) that I'll tell her what I do with selfish and idiotic office colleagues who don't even take the initiative in showing some courtesy towards others...

I've ever had experience with office colleagues who didn't even bother to help out with the tidiness in the office, pantry, and stuffs... Plus, I've ever had my own tissue box (that I place on my office desk) being taken!! Yes!! Taken without my freaking permission!! Some of these office colleagues of mine, they took my tissue without my permission, emptied the content and just simply leave the empty box on my desk without even taking the initiative to throw it into the rubbish bin... Freakin lazy ass humans!! Urrgggh!! Talk about living in a "civilised world" (yeah right).... pffft... There are still some uncivilised humans living among us, you know... Uncivilised, selfish and low mannered...

I got soooo sick and tired of having the boss complaining to me, asking who the bloody hell was responsible for making a mess at the pantry and not taking the initiative to keep the place clean , not refilling the electric flask and reboil the water, not tidying up the fridge properly bla bla bla...

So what did I do? I wrote a cute note (filled with a little sarcasm), print it out and paste it right on the fridge plus I even e-mailed the print-out to every single one in the office including my bosses... And yes!! It did give an impact to those selfish and lazy colleagues of mine; A smack in their faces... Suke aku!!

This was what I wrote:

Dear Colleagues,

Kindly take the initiative to...

• Replenish the can drinks in the refrigerator.

• Keep the refrigerator well clean, neat and maintained.

• Refill and boil the water in the electric flask.

• Keep the pantry clean and treat it like your own mini little kitchen.

Thank you for your kind thoughts and consideration...

THINK... KEEP THIS PLACE CLEAN AND ORDERLY...

So to my dear Kak Ann... Do what I do... OK? "Kill them" calmly and silently... They will definitely feeeeeel the impact...

A Pleasant Sunday...

As Salam peepz,

As you all know, my mini little family would normally visit places where there would be nice views to see and nice food to eat... And since it's been a while since we last had dinner down at the Sembawang Bottle Tree Village (somewhere in the old Sembawang neighbourhood), hubby suggested on going there...

We had a little picnic by the beach before having our dinner...

Why we love the Sembawang Bottle Tree Village? Coz the place reminds us of the old Kampong (village) days of old Singapore... Its full of warmth and coziness... The food there is FAN-TAS-TIC... "Halal" food is serve on the 2nd floor, so fellow Muslim brothers and sisters won't have any problem when it comes to eating... The service is great!! And the best thing is, it's situated right beside the sea, overlooking Malaysia... So you could enjoy your food and the wonderful scenery both at the same time... =)

There's a Fish Spa... A medium size pool with fishes in it... You only need to pay a little fee to go into the fish spa... Just soak your bare foot into the pool and the fishes would do the work for you... Nibbling on your foot... It's some sort of like a foot therapy thingy...

There's a mini little Fish Pond with lots of small little guppies and other tiny fishes in it... The same thing, you'll only need to pay a little fee... They will provide you with free fishing net and a fish tank, and you could catch as many fishes as you like... If you have kids and are afraid that your kids might feel bored just by hanging around at the Sembawang Bottle Tree Village, this fish-catching activity is really, really suitable for your kids...

Oh and there's this Prawn Fishing activity as well...

I strongly encourage fellow friends to spend some time at the Sembawang Bottle Tree Village with their family... It's a great place to chill...

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At The Playground With The Babies...

We left for Sembawang Park yesterday...

It's been a while since we last brought little Asil and Asyura to the playground... Both of them were pretty much excited about the family outing... We had mom and my bro, Adam tagging along...

Dinner was at D'Rubinah's... Nice food...

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God Determines Who Walks Into Your Life...

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I marry the right person?"

I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer...

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse / partner . You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit).

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called 'falling' in love... Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept off my feet." Think about the imagery of that __ expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?" And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.
You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't 'find' LASTING love. You have to 'make' it day in and day out. That's why we have the __ expression 'the labor of love.' Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... You can 'make' love.

Love in marriage is indeed a 'decision'.. . Not just a feeling.

Remember this always:

"God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go..."

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This e-mail was sent to me by a Muslim sister... (may Allah bless you for your kind deeds... amin...)

It somehow sends a little spark in me... I mean, I do not have issues with my hubby coz I love him for what he is and I hope my love for him will stay that way forever till akhirat (insya'allah... amin) but well, you know, this entry somehow inspires me to be a better Muslimah not only to my husband alone but also to those around me...

So let this blog entry be an eye opener, reminder or even a leisure reading to us all... Sebagai seorang Muslim, kite haros bersyukor dengan ape yang kite ade... Right? =)

Living In A Grateful World...

Be grateful to those who have hurt or harm you,
for they have reinforced your determination...

Be grateful to those who have deceived you,
for they have deepened your insight...

Be grateful to those who have hit you,
for they have reduced your life obstacles...

Be grateful to those who have abandoned you,
for they have taught you to be independent...

Be grateful to those who have made you stumble,
for they have strengthened your ability...

Be grateful those who have denounced you,
for they have increased your wisdom and concentration...