Ode To My Family...

Understand the things I say, don't turn away from me,
'Cause I spent half my life out there, you wouldn't disagree.
Do you see me? Do you see? Do you like me?
Do you like me standing there? Do you notice?
Do you know? Do you see me? Do you see me?
Does anyone care?

Unhappiness where's when I was young,
And we didn't give a damn,
'Cause we were raised,
To see life as fun and take it if we can.
My mother, my mother,
She hold me, she hold me, when I was out there.
My father, my father,
He liked me, oh he liked me. Does anyone care?

Understand what I've become, it wasn't my design.
And people everywhere think, something better than I am.
But I miss you, I miss, 'cause I liked it,
'Cause I liked it, when I was out there. Do you know this?
Do you know you did not find me. You did not find.
Does anyone care?

Unhappiness where's when I was young,
And we didn't give a damn,
'Cause we were raised,
To see life as fun and take it if we can.
My mother, my mother,
She hold me, she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father,
He liked me, oh he liked me.

Does anyone care?

[Cranberries]

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Back when I was a teenager, I used to sit at the neighbourhood park or the reservoir with earphones plugged in, listening to this song..

I would watched passersby, admiring happy families having fun times together & enjoying the peaceful serenity alone..

I've always love this song. It never fails to cheer me up back in those days when my life (as a daughter) was pretty much of a sorrow kinda thing.. sigh.. Those were the days..

The Cranberries will be performing in Singapore this coming August 1st..

I guess watching live concerts would have to wait until kids get a little independently grown up..

Only then, will Baba & Ummi, go on live concert dates together.. =)

Insya'allah..

I Love The Lyrics Of This Song...

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
Membuatku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya citra terindah
Bila kau peluk mesra tubuhku

Banyak kata yang tak mampu
Kuungkapkan kepada dirimu...

Aku ingin engkau selalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Di setiap langkah yang menyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau selalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Di setiap langkah yang menyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku

Pasti waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tahu ku selalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku..

[Tercipta Untukku by Ungu]


The lyrics of this song & how the lead vocal singer sang it, touched me till I shed my tears... You should've seen the official video clip too... Huwaaargh... Really so the very the touching...

Call me emo-ish or wateva-ish la har... But I'm just being me... If there's any kinda song lyrics that touches my heart (especially when the lyrics of those songs had something to do with the life that I'm going thru), for sure, I'll cry...

Macam minah gembeng ek aku ni?


P/S: Minah gembeng tak per... Jangan minah rep suda... lol...

How Am I Suppose To Face Syawal Once Ramadhan Passes Me By...

Insha Allah
by Maher Zain

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go

Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you commit one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that its way too late
Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way x2

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah we’ll find the way

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How am I supposed to face the month of Syawal once Ramadhan passes me by?

I can't stop thinking of all those people who caused so much hurt to me & my family... Their fake smiles, back stabbing hypocrisies & gossips... I can't stand the sight of them, really... Everyone of them...

I can't stop thinking of loved ones who have passed on before me... How I feel welcomed when they were still alive back then & I still miss them so so much...

I am trying so hard to control myself from breaking down... But I guess this strong barrier of mine just seems to collapse on its own anyway...

"When others show you faces & grudges, remember that Allah will always love you just the way you are & He (by all means) will do His very best to make you feel at ease..."

Guess, I should just leave it to Allah coz He knows what's best for us... I have Him to thank for giving me a family of my own... My life's complete having them with me & a few of those wonderful people who never stop loving me & my family for what we are...

Thank you Anna for sharing this lovely song... It touches my heart, so much so that it makes me shed tears... =')

Random thoughts : Why am I still being so nice & lenient to people who don't even spare a thought for me & my family? May Allah put some kind thoughts in them... Insya'allah... ='(

She's Electric...

She's electric
She's in a family full of eccentrics
She done things I never expected
And I need more time

She's got a sister
And God only knows how I've missed her
And on the palm of her hand is a blister
And I need more time

And I want you to know
I've got my mind made up now
But I need more time

And I want you to say
Do you know what I'm saying?
But I need more

Coz I'll be you and you'll be me
There's lots and lots for us to see
There's lots and lots for us to do
She is electric, can I be electric too?

She's got a brother
We don't get on with one another
But I quite fancy her mother
And I think that she likes me

She's got a cousin
In fact she's got about a dozen
She's got one in the oven
But it's nothing to do with me

And I want you to know
I've got my mind made up now
But I need more time

And I want you to say
Do you know what I'm saying?
But I need more

Coz I'll be you and you'll be me
There's lots and lots for us to see
There's lots and lots for us to do
She is electric, can I be electric too?

Can I be electric too?
Can I be electric too?
Can I be electric too?

[Sang by Oasis...]

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On our way home after getting my paperwork from the office late in the evening, hubby played this song in the car...

Him, "I want you to listen to this song & the lyrics..."
Me, "Why?"
Him, "This song somehow reminds me of you... When we both went steady for so many years... Then decision was finally voiced out to get engaged & everything... How I wasn't prepared yet for what's to come... How you said we should do something about this long term relationship... You just listen la... The lyrics suits you... Well not all la, coz you don't have a sister, so minus that one off... Listen to the song carefully..."

Well so I did... I pretty much smiled all the way listening to it... Having a relationship with him for 9 years... Having my parents chasing him for an engagement ring bla bla bla... Both of us still thinking that we're not up for it yet (with the type of person each of us were, once before)... Both still wanna have fun... "Enjoy life to the fullest, party people!!", they say... Yup! We were once like that...

I guess, once you've reached that certain stage... When you have this sick & tired feeling that you don't wanna be going around with that kinda life & that kinda stuffs anymore coz all of that is such a bore & there's nothing gained from it... pfft... So we decided to pull the handbrake & think about us, our relationship & how far can this relationship go further... =)

Love you Baba...