How Am I Suppose To Face Syawal Once Ramadhan Passes Me By...

Insha Allah
by Maher Zain

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go

Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you commit one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that its way too late
Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way x2

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah we’ll find the way

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How am I supposed to face the month of Syawal once Ramadhan passes me by?

I can't stop thinking of all those people who caused so much hurt to me & my family... Their fake smiles, back stabbing hypocrisies & gossips... I can't stand the sight of them, really... Everyone of them...

I can't stop thinking of loved ones who have passed on before me... How I feel welcomed when they were still alive back then & I still miss them so so much...

I am trying so hard to control myself from breaking down... But I guess this strong barrier of mine just seems to collapse on its own anyway...

"When others show you faces & grudges, remember that Allah will always love you just the way you are & He (by all means) will do His very best to make you feel at ease..."

Guess, I should just leave it to Allah coz He knows what's best for us... I have Him to thank for giving me a family of my own... My life's complete having them with me & a few of those wonderful people who never stop loving me & my family for what we are...

Thank you Anna for sharing this lovely song... It touches my heart, so much so that it makes me shed tears... =')

Random thoughts : Why am I still being so nice & lenient to people who don't even spare a thought for me & my family? May Allah put some kind thoughts in them... Insya'allah... ='(

Ummi's Mood Swing...

As Salam,

Woke up this morning feeling tired with mood swings all over... Whole body didn't feel good - aching entirely on my left side... To top it all off, lots of things run into my mind... The conversation that I had with hubby about certain things, certain issues whatever... I pretty much am not myself today...

So who said that being a mom cum wife cum daughter cum finance admin is gonna be easy-peasy? Well, screw you! It takes a lot of hard work, effort & stamina (both physically & mentally) 24/7... I'm used to it already...

A good night sleep? Ha ha ha... Let me see, when was the last time I had a good night sleep? Maid? Nope... Definitely no maid assisting me coz I don't trust them to do things for the family, I'm fussy much... Silap2 kalau ade maid, maid aku klua sembunyi2 gi dating dengan bangla sesat mane then leave my kids on their own at home...

At the end of all this, it's the outcome of everything that you did for everyone around you... Well I guess, entah la eh... It just comes across my mind to blog... My mind's been pretty random lately... Thinking of myself, family & other stuffs...

Betol jugak cakap Nenek, "Nanti bile kau da kawen, da jadi istri orang, da ade anak sendiri... Baru kau tahu bertape besar nye pengorbanan seorang wanita itu..."

Lunch time today consists of snacks... Not in the mood for a good meal serving... So yeap, just eat snacks will do...

Oh & did I tell you that there's this new "he-colleague" in the office? My job was supposed to teach him whatever that needs to be taught but it seems that he's been pissing me & my other "she-colleague" (Wei Feng) with his nonsensical, irritating, lame-ass questions...

At the moment, I still have the patience to tolerate before I start to scream my lungs out at him... heh...



To all MOMS out there, "EVERYONE OF YOU ARE SPECIAL & SUPERLY MULTI-TASK IN YOUR OWN KIND OF WAY..." =)