Dearest Neighbour...

Eversince, I stayed 1 floor lower than you, I noticed how you have this bad habit of hanging all your washed clothes dripping wet right outside the kitchen window...

Did you try spinning the excess water off your wet clothes 1st, before hanging them out to let dry? Don't you have any washing machine or something at home? Coz seriously, all that water dripping from your wet clothes is pretty inconvenient for me to look at & tolerate... heh...

I mean, HALO... We're staying in HDB block apartments & if you keep on hanging your dripping wet laundry like that, then, what about the rest of your neighbours who lived right underneath you? All that water dripping would only make our clothes wetter... Don't you think?

I'm on Medical Leave for 2 days & spent 2 entire days @ home... I was @ the kitchen when, I saw that water dripping again...

The part where you hang all your wet bras outside the kitchen window & just let the water dripped from it really irritates me... I couldn't help it la har... I gotta take a picture of your bloody wet bras plus rug & upload it in my blog...


P/S: Nice bras you got there... But to have them all hung dripping wet like that? (sigh)... Speechless... I think you should get yourself a dryer... -.-"

Happy 12th Birthday To My Youngest Brother...

(from right) My late uncle, Wak Mi with me & my lil bro, Adam...

June 7th, 1998...

This was the date, that you were born...

I remembered how I was going all panicky crazy when mom's waterbag burst & everyone's home except dad... He, was "unreachable"...

I remembered how I called Pak Long & Mak Long (paternal side of the family who stayed in the same neighbourhood) in the wee hours of the morning for help, to send mom to the KK Women's & Children's Hospital...

And again, the same question asked by my Pak Long, "Where's your dad? Does he know that your mom is delivering your adek soon?"

I answered, "Nope Pak Long... He's unreachable... We tried calling him so many times but just couldn't get him..."

I remembered how I sat in between both of my Pak Long & Mak Long... How pissed my Pak Long was when he tried calling dad who, yet still, was unreachable... He was so so pissed... Mak Long on the other hand, was rubbing my back, telling me to be strong as I'm the eldest child in the family & I must have the courage & patience to go thru all of this...

"Always be strong in whatever situation that comes even if we feel like crying", she said... This, I will always remember...

I remembered, how Alep was sleeping on my lap snoring like crazy... lol... How he forgot to bring his "bantal busok" along with him... lol...

I remembered how I kept worrying about mom who was all alone in the delivery ward without dad by her side... I mean, HALO!! Every wife needs her husband in times like this but WHERE WAS DAD?

He came alright... But @ the very last moment... Macam star karat dengan muke tak bersalah... Whatever...

I could vividly remember how he walked & looked like as he entered the waiting room area, walking towards us... And how @ that very moment, I felt like punching his face...

Then you came into this world... So innocently adorable & cute... A baby who know nuts on what's happening around him...

A month later, mom had to work coz dad wasn't like any other "DAD"... So mom had to be our "DAD" while her role of being a "MOM" was given to me...

I took care of you & Alep... Gave treats to the both of you whenever I got my pay from working as a part-time cashier... Cooked for you 2, fed you 2, bathe you...

I never left you outta my side, be it group studies or even when I went out on dates with Abang Rizal & people would always mistook you for our son... lol... Hilarious much... heh...

I disciplined you, taught you what's wrong & what's right... I scolded & even smacked you... But @ the end of it, I would always give you a big hug & a kiss, & said I'm sorry & that there's a reason why I had to do that as my last resort...

The part when I saw both you & Alep cried on the night of my wedding solemnisation saddens me... Truly I was touched & sad & felt like crying...

I recalled all those moments when I took care of my siblings... Everything that I had to go thru being the eldest sibling in the family... Indeed, I held back my tears... Me, always trying to act "tough" not wanting to cry infront of others...

Sesunggoh nye, I truly missed my siblings & my pet cat Black... I hope Allah would help me send my message down to them & tell them how much I truly misses them & that I always think of them as much as I think of my own family...

To my dearest littlest youngest brother, Muhammad Sahadam Bin Abu Bakar:

Wishing You A Wonderful 12th Birthday... May Allah guide & shield you wherever you may be...

May you grow up to be someone who is useful to Allah, Islam, family & to the society... Insya'allah, amin...

I'm hoping that some day, some how, you'll be able to find & read this entry that I wrote especially for you coz you're 1 of those few that I misses most... A part of my flesh & blood... The one whom I took care of since you were a baby...

Love you Adek...

From Kakak... ='I

Respect...

Respect is what you earn not command
That is something some find hard to understand
You earn respect if respect you do show
From people in your life you've come to know

Of Respect or lack of we do read of and hear
Though this is a thing that cannot be born of fear
Of somebody who has power over you
In your feigned respect your feelings are not true.

Many may respect and admire the high achievers of the town
And applaud them on their journey to renown
But with the many some do disagree
Through different eyes we see things differently.

Respect is something you can only show
For one that you feel privileged for to know
And of any shackles true respect is free
That's how it is and that's how it will always be.

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It is time to change the way you talk to people
Because I personally think it is very rude
And nobody else will tolerate that
Besides me
You need to respect people
If you want to get respect from them
Because it works 2 ways
First you have to give some respect
In order for you to get some respect from them

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Tried my best to brush this "hatred" feeling inside of me aside, but it seems that every sickening reaction this human makes, pisses me off...

Well, maybe because I'm too quiet, don't talk much type of person... Too lenient la har... Maybe I'm not the "mulot LASER" type of person... Maybe that's the reason why I always have rude ass humans around who always love to test my patience... Also, a part of it is maybe, because I always put this habit of forgiving to whatever shit that comes by - every single day...

Seriously, YOU DON'T WANNA SEE THE UGLY SIDE OF ME... I will explode if provoke... Believe me I will... So try bottle up my patience up to the max & you'll see what you get...

All of the above, are my reflections of YOU...

Also, if YOU don't fancy US, so what makes YOU freakingly think that WE fancy YOU?

YOU, who pretends to like us...
YOU, who loves comparing your so-called perfect family life with others...
YOU, who loves to look down upon us like we're a bunch of so-called UNEDUCATED IDIOTS...
YOU, who loves to talk so braggartly...

Don't YOU dare for a freaking second think that WE ARE NOT AWARE OF EVERYTHING AROUND US...

After the "drama-mama-scenario" that took place a few years back, I tried so hard to like YOU back... Tried to forgive you & brush everything aside... But time & time again, your actions just pisses me off...

Seriously, the RESPECT that I had for YOU, just flew off the freaking window... Not a single R-E-S-P-E-C-T is left... Nope... Nada...

The Cutest Kitty I've Ever Seen In My New Neighbourhood...

I've always love furry animals & cats are 1 of my favourites...

I saw this little kitty near my block, on my way home, after fetching the kids from school... He's soooo cute, cuddly & furry & whatever cutie pie words you could think of... Reminds me of my pet cat, Black @ mom's crib back in Yishun...

Rindu sangat2 aku kat Black...

How I wish I could bring my Black here to Sengkang with me... (sigh)...

So untok melepaskan rindu, aku sempat ajak anak2 aku dok melepak & main2 dengan kuceng kecik yang cute tu...

SLIDE uploaded...

When Grams Was Recently Admitted In The Hospital...

As Salam Peepz,

Finally, I got the time to really sit & blog...

So recently, hubby & I went to visit Grams @ the hospital... Managed to take some pictures there...

Seeing Grams, it kept me thinking... Manusia ni... Semakin hari, semakin melanjot usia... We'll all grow old & slowly wither... Will the kids take good care of us when we reach to that stage? Will they be able to tolerate our "penyaket tua" & whatever that comes with it? Will we be able to go thru that stage of being old & sick?

Wallahualam... Allah knows...

Anyway, I'm glad we managed to see Grams & spent some time with her... She was pretty happy to see us...

I know I seldom visit her... But insya'allah, I'll definitely make it a point to always give her call once in a while to check on her...

Thank you Baba, for your company, for taking half a day off & for giving Nenek a Chicken Rice treat... I really appreciate it... Love you... =)

Yes, I Agree With You On This, xoxocells... =)

"Sometimes people should understand the difference between talking bad and stating facts. I really think that if there's a language problem, go brush up on it. Don't get yourself into soup with others because of your misinterpret certain words.

When we state facts, from time to time there are people who refuse to acknowledge that it's a fact instead, they wish to continue living in their world of denial and believe that it's just other bad mouthing the other party. Sigh. It's really such a pity. I was getting over it and moving on when the horrible words had to come back. I don't care what you think, there's always a freedom of speech vice versa."

xoxocells

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Taken from 1 of my new found friends's Live Journal post...

I love reading her LJ... She somehow reminds me of me... My teenage me... heh...

I'm glad I got my kids to enroll in their present Child Care Centre & I'm glad that my favourite cousin works there too... Coz from there, I met & make new friends... =)

I Really Hope I Could Read One's Heart...

People are unreasonable, illogical & self-centered. Love them anyway.

If you do good, people may accuse you of selfish motives. Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you may win false friends & true enemies. Succeed anyway.

The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.

Honesty & transparency make you vulnerable. Be honest & transparent anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway.

People who really want help may attack you if you help them. Help them anyway.

Give the world the best you have & you may get hurt. Give the world your best anyway.

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As Salam Peepz...

Not been blogging for days... Busy with office work... Crap... Pfft... Month end closing sucks big time... Top it up with new sickening "ngee yau" customers for our billing department.... wah seh... Also our internal server was down for 2 freaking days... Huwaaaargh!! Can die I tell you... Vomit blood...

My Baba was feeling kinda sad, pissed & disappointed this morning. He shared with me his story & it made me feel the same way too... A disappointment... Really... (sigh)

May The Almigty have mercy upon all of us & may He always guide us in doing the right thing for everyone (including ourselves)... Insya'allah, amin...

Hati manusia... Memang susah nak bace... Bole berubah bile2 mase... Sesunggohnye aku ingin mencube mendalami & mengkaji ilmu "bidang hati" seseorang manusia itu... Jadi lebih mudah bagiku untok mengetahui isi hati mereka yang sebenar-benar nye... It will definitely make my life easier... Amin...

I've many stuffs to update in my blog... Latest photos, blog entries etc... Just don't have the time to REALLY sit & blog... Soon I hope...

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Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep people away, but to see who cares enough, to tear those walls down...